"Defenses"
Pain and fear burn deep within me, and leaves me feeling ice cold... To put down your
defenses, is to leave yourself wide open for hell to ride straight through you... And if you
don't, can Jesus get through?
"Too Late"
The room is dark, and I am alone. It Finally happened. He came and left without me. I
didn't know what else to do. I tried, but it wasn't good enough. I had so many questions,
but nobody could answer them. They would say..."just tell Him!" But I didn't know how. I
did try...many times over. I didn't know what i was doing wrong. I know it wasn't His fault,
for He is faultless. I tried not to give up, but it was so hard. Friends said they would pray,
but they would turn their backs on me. How could I learn to trust, when those who called
themselves friends...couldn't be trusted? But still, the final line, it comes down to just Him
and me. I screwed up! Why couldn't I understand? I'm not going to know what to do
without my family. They were all I had! What chance if any is left for me? Or, is this it?
But wait! I sit up...it was only a dream! Or was it? I look around me...The room is dark,
and I am all alone..... .
"Childhood Lost"
My heart and soul feel shrowed in sorrow. My mind lay's heavy in thoughts of a sadness of
what should have been...but never will be. My childhood was stolen, snatched away and
trashed. Remembering...grief runs through my being, shaking me apart inside until there
is nothing left but emotions that are false. Pain is the only true emotion left. How long?
How long before the quiet beatings of life return to my heart?
"And I Cry"
Inocent games of hide and go seek... But you, you just had to peek. To tell you said,I would
surely die... I couldn't even cry. All I could do, was hide inside. Death and anger stood by
my side... Fear's dark hands, covered my eye's I couldn't even cry... my mind was locked, by
all his lies. Where do I go from here? I ran the race... Now here we are, back face to face.
All that I thought was gone... haunts me once again, can I still hang on? When will this
nightmare end? When will peace become my friend? And I cry...
How do you stop the pain?
Inside, the pain is deep.So many years of hurt...Then Jesus comes, he's there...but burried,
hidden from you behind the pain. Sometimes you can see, then the pain overtakes you.
How do you find the strength alone to let Jesus cover the pain? How can you go on when
the hurt stays? How do you win, when the loss is already there? How do you stop the pain?
"Loss"
My soul is bleeding...for I feel your loss to me is forever. How can I continue without your touch? Was it all a lie? I guess I'll never understand why! What is left? My heart has
died...
"Coming soon"
