Waiting alone in my room
as the walls become bare
home for how much longer
waiting on a plain, person
in my mind old memories
not really happy or sad
pushing away and out
wanting to leave this place
sever all the old ties
but not with a whole heart
too many good memories
in too many good places
smiling to myself in recollection
a name dropped burns my cheeks
he doesen't deserve her even though
I don't want this, her, anyone.

Waiting in the soft light
the music isn't infecting me
not like before
I hate how I live here
Mother in chains
tended by gnats and slugs
if only it would end
not a wish I want to make
but it drains me so completely
watching the slow decay
loved and cherished passing
away into the night
how soon before I am alone
will wife or grandchildren see
she who gave life to give life
so tired of the same dull pain
every single day.