12.10.98

I can see it coming... I will stare myself in the eyes through the reflection of a mirror and repeat in my head...DO it...DO it...DO it...until I feel those thoughts oozing out of my heart. It will be then that I follow through with my heart and let all of my emotions loose. Can I handle that in a cool and level-headed manner? Probably not. But so what if I can't. I don't really care for "change" but sometimes "change" is good. I always have too much control of my thoughts and actions. Should I loose all control of my feelings and let them run wild ... it may just work out fine. ***NOTE to SELF: What the hell are you talking about?

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