12.18.98
Damnit! I am pissed off. I hate when people don't
know anything about their fricken job. Phone company
has given me the shaft three days in a row and I'm
fixing to blow up big time. It is so hard to keep calm.
I'm not one that gets pissed of that easily but I do have
my limits and they have gone way beyond them.
Maybe I should just get out tonight and get drunk as
planned. It's not normal for me to do that but hell it's
been one fricken long year and I need it. Then again,
maybe I should just stay home and let my nerves calm
down. Makes no sense to go out just to drink so I can
calm myself down. I would probably wind up in a lot of
trouble doing that anyway. Hell, I don't know. I hate
when my heart and my mind fight like this. Constant
battle between the two -- the prime model of a Gemini. I
shall see which has its way tonight though. My mind
isn't made up yet......
errrrr
My heart won tonight. I am staying home. Just going to
chill out and work on my web page tonight. One day I
will have this thing up. It's hard to get it just right when
a hundred different ideas jump in my mind after I've
completed most of it. I find myself constantly making
changes to it. I doubt it will ever be 100% to my liking.
Oh well, c'est la vie. It keeps my mind occupied either
way. I'm outta here...gonna relax with a hot cup of
coffee then get into this stuff.