12.29.98

Alright. I wasn't even going to mention anything about what I'm about to mention because it is something that just isn't fair in this world. But I can't stand not letting it out. I found out Christmas day that a very good online friend of mine went into a coma that day. She's had many medical problems for a long time and the doctors never expected her to live as long as she has. She is only in her late 20's. She desperately needs a liver transplant. But when I heard the news about the coma and on Christmas day -- I felt so empty and so helpless. I found out she came out of it Christmas night which was very relieving news. I have talked to her today and I can tell she's having really bad memory problems. I can see how tough it is for her and her boyfriend who live very far away from each other. Sometimes she doesn't remember their very recent talks or anything. It's really sad :(

------------------------- A short clip of a long chat with a friend of hers:

"if only you see her if you see what she goes through on a daily basis she is in a position where she is so sick that she can not have steady work and when she does get a little work she is so sick from it that she has to quit but she fights her way she goes out and shovels snow does yard work because she can not have a regular job anymore with a result she can not have a place to live because she does not have money she tears up prescriptions because she can not afford to buy the medication you really have to see the way she lives but she never grumbles she never complains she does her best and smiles through all of it and some people think they have it bad this kid is living HELL on a daily basis and always reaching out to help someone when she can not help herself you ask her to do anything and she will never ever say NO and yet she is suffering so bad she has put her life on the line many times for others without batting an eye lid and now she lies dying alone in a hospital bed and none of them who she gave up everything for would come forward its very sad but I know she will pull through this and continue to be herself to the fullest I know she is going to make it"

If that's not heartbreaking...I don't know what is. I need to double my prayers for a while for her.

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