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Friendship is most important
Lord, why do I think about him all the time? He consumes my mind, my every thought. I don't understand it at all. All of my energy is directed towards "him". I just wonder if and when that will all change and I can guide that energy elsewhere. I need to channel all this emotion elsewhere. I have no positive feedback from my mind regarding him. The only thing positive about it is that we have a long lasting friendship... and probably nothing more. I can't and shouldn't ask for anything more. And I am beginning to settle for that. As soon as my heart does the same, I will become a stronger person and an even greater friend for him.