11.11.98
Fresh Start?
Ahhh finally did some grocery shopping today. Lord,
I needed to do that badly. Had the day off today. Quiet day all to myself. Those days are
really nice. Gives me time to think and to just be. I was even able to get some laundry
done this morning without rushing. Okay, so the morning went smooth. This afternoon was
another story. I've received my phone bill for the month. Looks like someone is STILL
making long distance call s to my phone number. $185 worth of calls??? Damnit, Mark,
haven't you drained me enough financially??? Pay for your own damn problems, I'm tired of
doing it all for you. So as of today, that phone line is gone .. no more ties,
connections, etc. New number. He can reach me by email only if he wants to contact me to
tell me he's sending money. I'm starting from scratch in this thing that's supposed to be
a life .. more like misery to me. And it's all my fault for letting people take advantage
of me. I hate being a hard and cold person. It's just not in my blood. But, where this
situation is concerned, I've hit bottom and now have to start taking care of myself and
not everyone else.
*** Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from
now and make a brand new end ***