11.16.98
It's Amazing how much impact the weather has on my days. I'm ready for summer already. To feel that warm sunshine on my face. These last few days have been so wet and dreary and I try not to let that change my attitude about how I feel that day, but it usually does. I think I'm just getting lonesome. I was told today that my hearing for child support won't be tomorrow, but rescheduled until December. I have no idea how I've managed to hang on to my home this long doing it all by myself with no support. Things are the worst they've ever been for me financially. I'm just thankful that my son gets all the nourishment a growing young man needs. These next few weeks and months will be the real test with the holidays coming around. Did I mention I'm getting lonesome? *sigh* I cannot wait until Thanksgiving. Yes... yes ... will I be in his arms? Feel his touch? How will I react to it? Is he as curious about this as I am? I just wish I could get a little deeper into his mind and find out what he is thinking about it all. I shall see in 10 days! (and still counting)