11.30.98
Don't you hate when you feel like you've waisted an entire day? Trying to reason with people is not what I do best and yet I tire myself trying to accomplish it. I know everyone has to live their own life, but don't beg for help in getting out of a situation and not listen to the advice that's being given. If you're not going to listen, then don't bring it up. That just eats away at me. And I know under certain circumstances that is hard to do. I just wish that people (including myself, for sure!)could jump out of their bodies and see things the way they really are. I know that only because I've been there. And it gnaws at me knowing I can't do anything to help them. But it just pisses me off to no end. And to top it off, with me being this upset, my child has been working on homework for 2 hours now and doesn't know what the hell he's doing and it's EXPECTED that I'm supposed to know it all. And if I don't know how???..... I'm being fussed at and blamed because I'm lying. So now I've gone and blown up at him. I have no one to blame for my attitude tonight except myself. I don't know why these things get to me. They just do. I have no control over my own emotions. And that in itself just inflames me. Maybe I'll just go to sleep and forget about today.......