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Escape Drowning in my own blood of despair Hanging in my own rope of deception Burnt in my own hell of agony Surrounded by pain everywhere Caught in a web of useless creation  Defeated by the curse of destiny I lay to cry my sorrow I hope never to see tomorrow I try to fly away from my grief I try to escape my life like a thief Blaming it all just on you Hoping my death will kill you too  Wondering if you really care I call upon you to witness and to stare I summon Death to come and set me free I order Doom to appear and destroy me

I beg And here i go again  I m in pain  New love driving me insane  Same agony ,no gain  Who s laughing at me? they all are  Who s crying for me? my soul ,a deep scar  You left me alone  Did your heart turn into stone  Without you i m nothing  With you i m everything  You told me to go away  I beg you to let me stay  You didn t even say  I don t love you I wish you could say  I do love you   Please come back  Be the happiness that i lack  I beg you to reconsider  I beg you not to departure

 

Love is pain Oh god of pain and agony Why in the name of love it had to be me? Why did she kill me that day? Wasn t there some thing else she could say? She destroyed my heart and soul She laughed while watching me fall Oh cruel world i wish i could die I cant move, breath, i only cry  I cant bare to suffer anymore  I cant live with this sore  Knowing you ll never be mine Love wont in my heart shine My feelings were crushed with no mercy My heart blown into endless eternity Pathetic, i still beg you to understand  Hoping again to kiss your hand Who am i fooling? Ill continue in pain Your image is everywhere, driving me insane

My pride My pride disappeared with each tear I ve shed My self esteem died with every love word i said I m nothing anymore ,shame i can only feel I m crying my Dead heart ,no one can heel Oh dear old god, what have i become? Love, joy, soul , you left me none A once human, I m now just a wreck Pathetic end , i slip a rope around my neck Seeing happiness  never knocking on my door Seeing them all in love, I can t bare no more Waiting alone in the dark room of memory I lack the courage to end my life s story To death s salvation i prey, i kneel  Reaching the bottom of inner hate  Crying, weeping, dying, i await I begged you to save my pathetic soul  I showed you my naked agony You didn t look at me, lying in my hole Cruel , you didn t have mercy Left me there to suffer endless misery To live pain through timeless eternity

 

PEACE OF MIND As I sink in my own blood And my life comes to a tragic term As I see my life drifting with the flood In this book of sorrow  no more will I learn My last thoughts goes out to you Who made my suicide goes through  You who made my life so sweet I wish I could die under your feet I still love you no matter how Even you can t save me now I guess you don t even care  No one believed I could dare Was it you who made me decide What will they say ? “She said NO so he died” I don t blame you anyway  I just had to go today My life was so pitiful My living more than awful I just had to be selfish  And fulfill an old wish To end my everlasting pain To pass away like the morning rain Will I be missed will I be remembered ?  Or will my funerals be deserted Not that I really care  I wont even be there  I will be enjoying  endless tranquillity  Death is the only way to achieve my destiny So for the first time since I knew you                 I wont cry I will stop thinking , dreaming too                  And just die

LOVING YOU They say tears ease the pain But how come mine grows ? Shedding blood like rain Time for death  ,who knows How come I m still hurting? For you I’ll keep on waiting  Drying my soul out ,I despair My broken days , I can t repair Sorrow is my only friend Laughs and smiles I can t pretend  I keep on dreaming of you When will my agony be through  Maybe with a knife my pain will be gone Maybe then a smile I could show A forgotten feelings since you said “no” The day you cruelly killed the sun  Maybe in death my tears will end Only my anguish I will send A testament of my painful existence A testimony of my weak resistance  The time has come to end all of this The end is near ,my pain will fade away Of suffering this will be my last day My pale lips awaits Death s fatal kiss Thinking of you killed my heart and soul Let my knife terminate your creation  And when finally I will stop to crawl  My tears will dry ,the first step to salvation But for now I will keep on hurting Dreaming of you day and night And even in my dreams I loose the fight  In my dreams too you destroy my feelings Oh cynic world , I can t bare my destiny Will my grief continue through  eternity  ? Will any god be kind and have mercy By sending  me to rot in hell My flesh wounds will make me be well At least my heart wont be the only one to fry Nothing can be more cruel than my life Passing  days counting my strife When could I  finally say “good bye” ?

 

Surviving Surviving can be useless When you live a life of emptiness When no one s there for you When alone you live your life through A never ending agony A curse of sorrow and despair A story of hate and bitterness A tale of grief and loneliness  When your smiles become so rare And tears dry your soul empty Feeling ashamed to cry Knowing it s today you ll die Deciding it s the only way To leave your pain away Running  from a life that s empty  Heading for your tomb of salvation  Your first and last vacation  Then you ll feel cold serenity  You ll mock your cruel destiny  But hope you wont find eternity  Or then you ll continue in agony

This cold eve When the time will come for me to go When this cold life I will finally leave Who will worry or even know Who will miss my pathetic figure Will they even notice , I wonder As I drift away in this cold eve             No one to blame              Not dying in shame             Nothing to be sorry for             Not asking for more My last moments on earth  This day awaited since birth I cry my death alone , no one else would I grief my lost alone ,before my dead soul I kneel The only one to miss myself ,no one else could Dying already ,my sorrow I still  feel              No one to blame              Not dying in shame             Nothing to be sorry for             Not asking for more Breathing last precious air  Lying on my bed ,the sheets are turning red I lay to rest no more tears, I smile instead  Slowly my sight is fading ,still I stare  Getting tired I lay to rest  An ever lasting night  My eyes are closed so tight  No more mornings , the end of my quest           No one to blame            Not dying in shame           Nothing to be sorry for           Not asking for more

When  When will my tears dry ?  When will my wounds finally heal? Each day my pain i still feel Why do i have to cry? An emotion prostitute is all i am I gave up my pride in your hand You didn t even ask me why Didn t care or even try I was so stupid to even dream I was begging, so it may seem That you could grant your sweetness My life fades into an endless hole You just left me drowning in my sadness Yearning for you to look at my soul

I hate you My feelings of love are changing Hate is what i breath now And i love myself for hating  I changed, do you ask how? I remember when i used to bow  Now my pride is back  I have the courage that i lack I can say i fucking spit on you I m proud, my love for you is through Anger is filling my once dead heart I despise you, what a good start A once your victim, I m no more Anger is healing my soar  I m no longer your fucking toy No more tears, i live in joy How could i ever loved you? You played with my heart and soul You laughed at my agony too Oh and for you i did weep and crawl Not any more, I m a man again No more tears, i lost my pain

There finally ,that s done..........i m sorry to say that i have a lot more in my weary mind and on my so dumb computer so if by any chance (like if i really care) you want more just keep on visiting this section