The Lyrics of Shadows of Doubt
The following are the lyrics to the songs planned for their forthcoming CD release (when, guys?). Thanks to the band for providing us with them and giving us permission to reprint them here. All songs Copyright (c)1997 Shadows of Doubt.
Young Again
time goes by so quickly
and when it's gone
you can't go back
youth is taken for granted
but as you age
you want it back
when I was a boy I didn't realize
all of the things going on before my eyes
I didn't appreciate all of the things
I was given when I was a child
but now I'm a man and the world is a colder place
it's harder and harder to find a smiling face
and nobody cares about innocence lost
or ideals that we all threw away
I wish I was young again
the world was a kinder place
there wasn't a cloud in the sky
the sun had a smiling face
I hadn't a care in the world
I thought dreams could come true
if I used my imagination
there was nothing I couldn't do
every story began with once upon a time
if you wore a cape, then you could battle crime
and villains were always defeated by heroes
'cause good always won in the end
but happily ever after never came
and nothing even seems to be the same
as when I was young when my parents could save me
from everything bad in the world
and so I look back with a smile upon my face
my childhood was a special time and place
I'll never forget all the fun that I had
when the world seemed a much better place
but sometimes I wish I could do it all again
to have the chance to see my childhood friends
to be young again with my whole life ahead
to see life through the eyes of a child
words by Kelley
music by Kelley and Coomes
Puppet
please cut the strings
that you possess
and let me leave the stage
I'm tired of you
and your commands
you've filled my heart with rage
can't you see we're losing touch?
and what I'm asking isn't much
I'm begging you to free me from this cage
just let me go,
don't wanna be your marionette
please set me free,
I'll forgive, if you forget
the fat lady sang
the curtain's closed, let's strike the set
why can't you see
I'm sick of being...a puppet !?!?
the fun we've had
is in the past
and that's where it should stay
the time has come
to start again
I've got to get away
can't you see we're losing touch?
and what I'm asking isn't much
I'm begging you to free me from this cage
I'm tired of being dominated
sick of being subjugated
I've had enough of doing what you say
words and music by Kelley
Don't You Know
you're the only one for me
no one else compares with you
you're all I ever really wanted
don't you know my love is true
don't you know
you were always in my heart
and I knew it when I looked at you
we would never be apart
don't you know
my feelings for you grew so fast
you'll always be the only one
from the first day 'til my very last
can't you feel it when you look at me
these feelings are too strong to deny
don't you know how much I feel for you
when it comes to my heart, I cannot lie
whenever the doubts start to creep in
frustration makes you feel like weeping
remember all the times we shared
remember that I'll always be there
words and music by Coomes
Reprieve
as I stare into your eyes
I'm lost within the blue
the color and the feeling
that I always get from you
it seems you're never happy
and you hardly dare to smile
but things will change, give me a chance
it just might take a while
we just need hope, some words to believe
some time to cope, we need a reprieve
from all this pain and the words that we say
from all our tears and the games that we play
there was a time, not long ago
when we were both content
and things were fine the way they were
our love seemed heaven-sent
but now things are so different
that love has gone away
I know that we could get it back
if we knew what to say
I thought that I had half a chance
that I could win you back
but I was so deluded that
I couldn't face the facts
you packed your bags and said goodbye
I knew this was the end
a wasted chapter in my life
you said we'd still be friends
I've lost all hope, no words to believe
I'll have to cope 'cause we got no reprieve
there's only hurt and nothing is said
now I cry my tears for a love that is dead
words by Kelley
music by Kelley and Coomes
Take Me Away
my life is a car, I can't find the keys
I'm out of control, I'm down on my knees
I need you to drive, so please take the wheel
don't know what I want, don't know how I feel
there once was a time, there once was a way
I knew where to go, I knew how to play
but everything's changed, I just want to hide
please take me away, let's go for a ride
we'll go where you want, wherever you please
as long as we're moving, you're meeting my needs
I don't ask for much, just you here with me
so promise you'll take me, if you ever leave
when I'm with you all my problems seem to disappear
all my indecision turns to dust
you can take me anywhere and I will have no fear
I hope you know that you have all my trust
I live in a vacuum, where nothing is real
you're all that exists here, you're all I can feel
you're all that I want, you're all that I need
the thoughts in my head, the air that I breathe
so take me away, wherever you go
as long as I'm with you, then I'll always know
I'm somewhere that's safe, where feelings are true
just take me away, please take me with you
words by Kelley
music by Kelley and Coomes
Wish You Were Dead
the wind blows at your back
the world seems dark and bleak
you want to end it all
but fear that you're too weak
you've lost stability
you're falling and can't stop
you try to find your way
but you can't stay on top
sometimes you wish that you were dead
sometimes you wish you were never born
there's nothing guaranteed in life
except for hatred, fear and scorn
sometimes you wish that you were dead
sometimes you wish you were never born
if you were gone would they forget
or would they care enough to mourn
the restless nights you lie awake
denied sleeps comforting embrace
the countless days you stay in bed
avoiding what you're scared to face
the depths of the abyss
are calling out your name
you want to rush right in
if it will spare you from your pain
you've lost your will to live
so many ways to die
too weary to go on
and you don't even wonder why
now you don't have the strength
to face another day
why don't you just give up
why don't you throw it all away
words by Kelley
music by Kelley and Coomes
Twister
I hope he makes you happy
I hope you're satisfied
I hope that he can give you
all the things you've been denied
I hope things work out for you
I hope things turn out fine
I just wish I could tell you
I didn't wish that you were mine
sometimes you're just another girl
sometimes you're like a sister
you've got me tied up in a knot
just like a game of twister
you know you deserve better
he doesn't treat you right
I'm sure you'd see things my way
if you stayed with me tonight
words by Kelley
music by Dougherty, Coomes, and Kelley
Freakshow
everybody wants to be special
everybody wants to stand out
everybody wants to be different
somebody screams and everyone shouts
everybody wants to get noticed
everybody wants to be seen
everybody wants your attention
but nobody steals the scene
it's a freakshow - everybody play the game
a freakshow - everybody be the same
a sideshow - tattoos, piercings, hair just right
a freakshow - everybody's outta sight
everybody follows fashion
everybody jumps the train
everybody steals their ideas
no one even has a brain
everybody runs in circles
no one knows just where to go
everybody buy a ticket
everyone enjoy the show
at some point rebellion becomes conformity
at some point we all become the same
at what point do we embrace anonymity
at what point do we stop playing the game
everybody joins the circus
no one ever buys a clue
everybody follow the leader
monkeys see and then they do
words and music by Kelley
Now That We're Just Friends
when I see you holding his hand
I just have to look away
God forbid I see you kiss him
I just don't know what I'd say
I know that our time is over
our romance is in the past
but I still have feelings for you
these emotions don't fade fast
Now...I see you in his arms
it makes me go insane
I can't believe that you would
cause me so much pain
I only wish that all this torture
would just end
now that we're just friends
sometimes I dream you're still with me
but when I wake you're not there
I know you're with someone else
I just wish that I didn't care
you tell me to just move forward
because you've found someone new
I'll try to ignore my feelings
but I'm still not over you
we had so much fun
but it had to end
I just can't go on
now that we're just friends
I know that our time is over
our romance is in the past
but I still have feelings for you
these emotions don't fade fast
words by Kelley
music by Harris, Coomes, Inglis, and Kelley
Temptation
it began so innocently
I never considered where it might lead
'til the day the offer was made
I should have considered the price I would pay
I tried to strengthen my resolve,
to choose what's right instead of wrong
but my will was never strong,
so I'm prepared to yield to temptation
ecstacy is the state that you're in
when you follow desire and give in to sin
the pleasure outweighs the cost
when you fail to consider the things that you've lost
surrender to your thoughts of lust,
turn your back on things like trust
let your convictions turn to dust,
feast on forbidden fruits and sin
the pleasure has faded away
the moment has passed and it's time to pay
your conscience won't let you forget
the things that you did, the things you regret
the sleepless nights you lie awake,
the feelings that you just can't take
the promises you had to break,
it's just so hard to deal with guilt
you know you need to make amends
to fix what you've done then start again
confessions that you need to make
are so hard to say, and harder to fake
forgiveness is hard to attain,
but it's the one thought in your brain
you have to overcome this pain,
for that you need to be redeemed
it's over, you're back to square one
your slate is now clean, but now there's no fun
the path that is narrow and straight
has nothing to do, yet so much to hate
you feel an urge you thought was dead,
temptation rears its ugly head
you think back on the things you said,
but go ahead and sin again...
again ... again and again, you sin again
words by Kelley
music by Kelley and Coomes
Nothing
I'm hollow, there's nothing inside
no feelings to bottle or hide
I'm empty, no more than a shell
imprisoned, my life is a cell
please listen to all that I say
I'm tired of feeling this way
there's nothing that matters to me
I wish you could see what I see
there's nothing real, there's nothing true
there's nothing at all
there's nothing more that I can do
but let myself fall
there's nothing pure, there's nothing free
just sorrow and pain
I cry for help, but no one hears me
again and again
time passes and nothing has changed
my days are always the same
just boredom and nothing to do
if only I could be like you
so easy to yield to despair
but so hard to make myself care
emotions that I sometimes feel
pass quickly and nothing seems real
it's over before it began
this story of what was a man
I'm nothing, I've no strength to climb
I'm sorry for wasting your time
but maybe someday things will change
though right now there's just me to blame
there's nothing you could do for me
until I can see what you see
words by Kelley
music by Kelley, Coomes, Dougherty, and Inglis
Apologies in Vain
I'm sorry for the pain I caused you
I'm sorry for ever hurting you
the things I said, I thought I meant
I'm sorry they weren't true
I never should have said the words
if I didn't love you
I'm sorry for the pain I caused you
I'm sorry for ever hurting you
the things I said, I thought I meant
I'm sorry they weren't true
the time together that we spent
is what I loved about you
I'm sorry for the pain I caused you
I'm sorry for ever hurting you
the last thing I wanted to do
was cause you pain, I hope you know that's true
it's just that I was scared to admit that
I didn't love you ... so I'm sorry
words and music by Coomes
Low Tide
remember how we used to be
you and I, hand in hand
think back to those days gone by
you were water, I was sand
looking back, it seems so clear now
stars would shimmer in the sky
as we spent our nights together
thinking love would never die
your touch, soothing as the sea
caresses to the bone
your embrace, so familiar
comforts like the sight of home
swallowed by emotions unknown
lost in the depths of your eyes
my soul, how it searches
hoping love could never die
my heart dies, the sun rises
as our union starts to fray
I feel you slip through my fingers
as the waves tore you away
looking back, I still yearn for you
left alone my tears run dry
learning that you can't fight nature
knowing love will always die
words by Kelley and Coomes
music by Dougherty, Coomes, and Kelley