IT MATTERS NOT
It matters not what they THINK of me,
Villain, vulture or predator they see.
Only words and nothing more!
What they THINK doesn't change what I am,
But what I am doesn't change what THEY think!
It matters not what I do or say,
They still see me only as a BEAST of prey,
Someone with only an evil, selfish intent.
WhatTHEY think doesn't change what I am
But what I am doesn't change what they think!
No goodness, value or merit they see
In ANYTHING that emanates from me,
Just a THING to be used for their needs.
What they think doesn't change what I am,
But what I am doesn't change what they think!
It matters not what they think of me
Villain, vulture or predator they see.
Only words and nothing more.
What they think DOES change what I am
But what I am DOESN'T change what they think!
SH
Started Mar 18, 1998
Unfinished Jun 02, 1998
CHASING RAINBOWS
All my life I've been chasing rainbows everyday,
But when I finally caught one, I let it slip away.
Dancing rainbows standing on end
Being blown away by a dancing whirlwind!
Always seeking the rainbow's end
But the same thing I find again and again,
No pot of gold is ever waiting there,
Only the same old daytime nightmare.
Ghosts of yesterdays forever haunting,
Ghosts of yesterdays forever taunting,
Ghosts of things that MIGHT have been
But slipped away, way back then.
From red to yellow to green, the color changes
Yesterday, today, tomorrow, ALL the SAME pages
Promises of things that MIGHT have been
Before they slipped away, way back then.
All my life I've been chasing rainbows everyday,
When I finally caught one, I let it slip away.
Dancing rainbows standing on end,
But being blown away by a dancing whirlwind!
SH
Started 05/04/98
Updated 05/29/98
Unfinished
GOOD FRIENDS
Today I laid away twelve good friends
Friends that STAYED with me to the bitter, bitter end.
Whenever I needed them, they were always around.
Whenever I needed them, they NEVER let me down
NEVER critical, NEVER hypocritical!
They stayed with me through thick and thin,
Even when I DIDN'T always win,
Just good friends to the bitter, bitter end!
Through pain and sorrow, they NEVER strayed,
Through good times and bad, they ALWAYS stayed.
When other friends hastily deserted
These friends more effort exerted!
Offering nothing but soothing comfort,
Just good friends to the bitter, bitter end!
TOMORROW
Tomorrow I'll find twelve new friends,
Friends that will stay with me to the bitter, bitter end.
NEW friends just like the old.
NEW friends, forever BOLD!
Friends that will stay through thick and thin,
Even when I DON'T always win.
But after my life you should NEVER model,
For, you see, MY ONLY FRIENDS are the bottom of a bottle!
SH
Finished
A FROG AT MY BACK DOOR
There was a frog at my back door,
I said,"She doesn't come here anymore!"
He said,"Does she stay anywhere near?"
Said I,"No I think she doesn't, I fear."
"Why did she go", he asked, with concern?
"I don't know," I said, "I wish I could learn.
I only know she went far, far away,
And I don't know how long she will stay."
He said, "I miss her a lot, you know.
I only scared her for show.
But she was so easy to charm,
And I NEVER EVER meant any harm."
SH
Started 04/16/98
Unfinished
THE GIFT
A gift is something SPECIAL I give to you, or something SPECIAL you give to me
A GIFT because I, or you, WANT it to be, it is NEVER something that is obligatory!
A gift obligatory YOU say, but an obligation is a DEBT to REPAY
But a GIFT comes from kindness and caring to make us BOTH happy, I say
Yes, debts are accumulated along the way, I owe you a lot as you too owe me
But what I owe you and you owe me is forever EQUAL you see
Thus we have NO obligations to fulfill, so there can NEVER be an obligatory
Only love and happiness to instill, as a gift between you and me
SH
Started 05/19/98
Updated 05/20/98
Unfinished
"FORMER"
There's nothing that can make life seem closer to the end
Than to have to add the word "FORMER" in front of the word "FRIEND".
From the very beginning I thought you were special and you made me feel that way too.
But as the years past, things just didn't last, last like I thought they should do.
From one day to the next I never knew what to expect from you.
But I was always there and I always cared, even when you seemed not to.
Now I can only sit and wonder what I could have done
That would have saved the friendship that I had so sorely won.
As you insisted you needed your space, you made me feel so out of place,
For in your life I had no space, as from here to there to everywhere you did race.
But hope I will forever have eternal that sometime, somewhere before the end
I'll be able to remove the word "FORMER" from in front of the word "FRIEND".
SH
Started 05/10/98
Updated 05/22/98
Unfinished