"Pain"

Everybody listen while I become all I know The place inside my mind where I like to hide How deep can I go in the ground that lay Deeper and deeper and deeper is all I am going Is there another place I will find, to escape the pain inside I am confused; I hate myself for wanting to give into needing your help Each day confronted with what I have done I do not run around, not trying to be what is not within me Different in this normal world I cannot in every way mistake the pain I feel inside I am sick and tired of being treated this way everyday I sound like I can never escape, all the laughing, all the pain, Too blind to see, emptiness and sorrow of my life Should I pray for all the hate to go away; Another day I wish I could lose control, I wish I could let go, I wish I could break this mold Inside my mind, I am so cold The weapons inside allow the truth to unfold Days keep passing, one second at a time I do not feel right Please God let me sleep tonight Want to give it up, but I cannot escape I am suffering because of you You think I am out to scare you, wrong, I am out to prepare you I try so hard to be wanted Look at me, all you see is a man to afraid to really be Secret lies, that I hide Is it that terrible being inside you I think being a person relies on one thing; Being yourself Do you really think I would beat myself at my own game You see what happened, me ripping at my brain Day keep passing Please God do not let me die tonight I keep asking, can you please try Look at these pages, that cause this evil Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real What is the problem I cannot seem to set loose the ideas that haunt and taunt Do you ever see outside your fields Thinking about your life, thinking about your inner fears I smile while your afraid You run while your soul prays Little child come out and play Why do you try to justify Just too scared to be you inside Cannot stand what you put me through Your life is a lie, that you hide To afraid to be someone who is not false Throw your hate at me And if you like, throw your hate at me with all your might A tattooed body to hide who you are Turn around to watch your face split Turn around to watch your face bleed Hit me because I am strange, Hit me then There you are, all alone with no hope of ever having Something to be proud of Yes, I know your the person that took time with me Does it give you the right to expect your life to revolve around me You are my brother, does our friendship ever end You were my brother, I am not going to give in Why do you insist on making a mockery out of me You are definitely one of a kind I see your face through everyone If you were around me, what would you do Nothing probably; you would just go away Why do you tease me, to make the hate stay You pull me close, but I push you away Tearing my insides each time I am with you I have no choice, but to let go of the Pain

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