Invisible Gloves

Have you ever felt that you were experiencing, but could not feel the experience

That events were taking place, but in you they were having little effect

Like trying to pet a soft furry animal, however you were not able to feel its softness

As if you were wearing invisible gloves

Have you ever felt like you had a barrier around you, through which you could not be reached

I always seek attention thinking I cannot get enough

It has occurred to me that I may be getting plenty, but cannot accept it

We need to attain love but will never get enough if we cannot use what is given

Frozen feelings, causing a never ending hunger

Satisfaction is not attainable unless what is received is absorbed

So long I have been frozen stiff inside

Forced at an early age into a shell, I never looked back

I needed protection from the negative I was feeling

I wanted to show how I felt, but I did not know how

There were times I had to falsify emotional reactions so as not to seem abnormal

I would wonder why I could not feel, as others seemed to

Like I was apart from myself while events occurred

When it was time to feel I would leave

Lost in a fantasy of my own creation

A safe place from the storm out there

Douglas A. Walker

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