If You Knew Me Like I Know Me

Always insecure I would try to compare the exterior of others with what was within me

My idea of strength being the mask my sire wore

To that example I could never live up to

I always thought myself a coward

Ever so hard on myself I imposed impossible standards, sought after unreasonable goals

I learned at an early age to hide how I felt

I was taught that the display of emotions was a sign of weakness

My instability caused me damage, I crawled in deeper still

Never showing anyone what I was about

Feeling others would have the despite for me that I had inherited

If they knew me like I knew me

I know now I made many incorrect assumptions, my standards too high

God does not require my help to run the universe

Slowly some of the insecurities leave, I like myself a little more each day

I can show a little of me and not feel ashamed

Recovery is a never ending excursion, I need to take happiness from the journey

Douglas A. Walker

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