-Placing Decisions-
Placing decisions upon me
Making it seem like
I hold the key to all
Futures untold when I can’t
Read minds, hearts, souls,
He thinks my choice is clear
He makes it so I decide
Yet he expects only one answer.
Right and happy
His philosophy so contradictory
All I want is his love
Near me instead of miles away
Decisions wouldn’t be necessary
His dreams are scary
As he has his own silent hopes
Decisions for his future
Yet some beyond his control still.
He makes his heart clear for me
And I stand still
Hoping I’m never seen
With heavy burden of guilt
For I never made a real choice.
The minds of millions
Turn my way to see
That I’m vulnerable
And my choices in life
Are demanded by the love
For once, I beg for neutrality
Instead of pathetic alliance
Bitter betrayal to another
It’ll hurt me deeply
To see one unsatisfied
I could never give my
Whole self to just one person.
Especially at this point.
With love being a minor thing
To the minds of the
Faithless pessimists who
Surround me with awe
At my gratitude for the soul
That I have left and enjoy
And unlike theirs, I must
Always put my mind in gear
To choose the best person.
To lvoe me eternally
Choices upon choices
So many people place options
On me like I can deal completely.
It’s all a reality
When I wake up to find
That all the goodness
Is gone and my heart
Was ravaged by the demanders
The land lords of those souls
And his will be there
Probably cursing me at my
Insignificance and pity
For I’ve never made a real
Decision based off of logic
And meanwhile the one who can make me decide forever
Is the one who didn’t show
True affection until the day
That he left me here came
And he was left with one
Form of communication left:
Telepathy across the terrain
Of emotions and physical lacking…
Never being kissed by his
Precious lips where words
Of eternal wisdom expel.
As well as never understanding
Any sexual demeanor about him
Friendship was almost a strict
Guiding force, with no
Strings of temptation
Like upon entering a
Temple or church of an
Unknown faith or religion
So his life is but a mystery
Until he can return to me
Where it all lays
But he wants commitment
From my home and resting
And his commitment is demanding
With nothing less than real
Love and soul-clenching passion
Yet upon his temptations and upon mine
I find only relief in knowing
That my decision is saved
Until the day comes
Where I can truly dispense
My true feelings of love for one
And one alone.

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