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Maybe if I believed in something real
I could be the person I wanted to be.
I wanted to be free.
This dream wouldn’t exist but I wouldn’t have to worry
About losing it
I would be free.
If I say goodbye to that
Would it hurt me in the end?
If I stay around and see
If it will really work for me
Will I suffer even more?
I wanted it all in my hands from the beginning
I wanted to never work
To only be lazy.
I wanted to be with him and yet it’s falling apart
Right in front of me.
I wanted to be free.
Did I ever know the future?
Obviously not, if I had to figure out the hard way
That everything is falling upon my head
Hurting me
And making me suffer like a heart attack.
It doesn’t help when you laugh at me
Or painstakingly help me
Through the crags of the mighty mountains
Taunting me.
If it hurts you to do so much then why do you even try?
I can’t imagine you loving me anymore.
I wanted to be free.
I wanted everything in front of me
So I could pick the best things
But I lose once again
Another battle that I fought for your love
And it wasn’t worth it anyways
You left me in the end.
And you can’t deny anything you say
You have to admit what you said was true.
But you only say it once
Then it’s gone for the rest of time.
Leaving me in suspense
Makes me anxious
Makes me suicidal
Homicidal
Trying to probe my very heart and soul.
Don’t laugh at me with your sarcastic laugh
I wanted to be free.
I wanted to be free.
I wanted to be free.
What else can you say to me to harm me?

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