My Never Ending Search

I search inside this heart of mine

And wonder what it is I see

Not knowing where it leads to

Or if it will always be happy

I search the deepest places

Inside the depths of my soul

Trying to figure out what it is

That truly makes me feel whole

This endless search has taken me

To places I don't always understand

The feelings that I get there

Are usually as warm as desert sand

At other times the search just ends

In a place that's damp and cold

Perhaps these are the times I feel

Like I am maybe just getting old

The one thing that I know for sure

My search never is the same

As the deeper I go inside myself

The less that I feel pain

I have found the courage inside me

That keeps me going on

Not totally sure where it came from

I just know that with it I am strong

This search is never ending

And is something to me that's dear

It helps me keep my sanity

And somehow takes away my fear

I know that I am aging

I've learned and felt so many things

If there was just one thing I could change

In my next life I would like wings

The wings could help me float away

When things are getting rough

I could also help other people

Just like the angels from Heaven above

written by Deborah R.

"copyright 1999"