My Spirit For Living
I gain so much strength from others that often I forget I too can be my own strength. On days when no one else is here if I look deep enough inside myself I can find the strength I so desire. My spirit thrives on the love of others, my family, friends, blessings in life, and my belief in God. All of these things help to keep my spirit for living very much alive. I have seen bad times in my life, yet looking back they don't really seem so bad. I just needed to remember the important things....how wonderful life itself really is. The fact that there are troublesome times in our lives, are only a measure of our strength. We are never given more tragedy than we are capable of coping with. I understand that now. It only took the better part of 40 years, but I made it....I know now what a true blessing life itself really is.
Having watched a very dear friend go through months of agonizing chemo therapy, and then be struck down with pneumonia time and time again...made me realize even more just how grateful I really am for the life I have been blessed with. I used to think "poor me", "why me" "what ever did I do so wrong, to deserve all this pain" now I know it was destiny, and inside myself I know I was the one person that was strong enough to cope with it. I have not been punished at all....in fact I have been given an opportunity to rest, for all the years of hard work I have done in my past. To me this is a blessing. My body was sending signals for years that I failed to listen to. Now I listen very carefully to all the signals my body gives me.
To all of you....just listen to yourselves a little bit, see if everything you do comes in the form of a complaint or a blessing. Mine now come as blessings, life is so wonderful, that I don't think we have the right to complain about a sore back, a headache, or even the flu....just remember no matter how bad it gets at times, there is someone who is going through a lot worse. Be thankful for what you are given.
To my very dear friend...without even knowing it, you have once again opened up my mind and my heart to the meaning of life. You have again allowed me to find my spirit for living. Thank you always for keeping me afloat.
written by Deborah
copyright December 24 1999