I sit here listening to music,
trying to find inner peace
After a somewhat disturbing
day, I search again for solitude
I seek inner strength, to
help carry me through the night
I try to think about what
has brought me this far in my life
Not really completely sure
I understand why I am even still here
Is there something I have
left undone from my past?
Perhaps there is something
I am destined to do on the road ahead of me.
I really don't know...and
guessing solves nothing for me
I can only wait and watch
as my life unfolds the way it's meant to
Maybe I try to hard to find
answers, to find a reason for everything
Perhaps I'm kidding myself
to think that everything does happen as it's meant to
Why is grass green? Was it
meant to be, to add a bright foundation for us to stand on?
The sky, why is it blue?
Is it intended to open our minds to thoughts of brighter days ahead?
Birds, why do they sing?
Is it so we can be calmed by music when we need it?
Why do people get sick? Now
that is one thing I know I will never understand
Why is it I always have to
know the answer to the little things as well as the big?
Oh God please help me! I
am struggling to make everything more understandable to me
Just tell me that every question
doesn't need an answer and maybe I can find peace with it
I will be whatever you want
me to be, but I need guidance, I need your comforting touch again
There they are...the peaceful
sounds of nighttime, I finally hear them....suddenly I feel them
The sounds of falling snow,
stars twinkling somewhere in the night, the beating of my heart
Soft sighs of inner peace
and comfort, release from me, the sound of my hands folding in prayer
Again I know I will be fine....knowing
you are here with me....holding me safe in your arms
Perhaps every question really
doesn't need an answer, for us to be at peace with ourselves
written by Deborah
copyright © December 15 1999