You are there
your arms a comfort from night-fears
But you're not here
where night-fears dwell
they saunter the streets
long, dark shadows protecting them from the rain
I pull the wool over your face
your eyes are blinded by hair
(your mouth stopped with cobwebs)
For you I shine
I sparkle
I twinkle
I glisten
with my joy
that is not there
when you walk out the door
but then
you're not around to see it
Are you?
So live in my ignorance
that's all I'll allow you
You don't know me
You can't
I am shadow and sunlight
seeker and the seeked
tangible as the night,
slipping from your grasp
just as easily
when the dawn comes.



I'm dry-eyed
and broken up inside
my insides
they expand and contract
with the rhythm of a heartbeat
unheard
from here
I'm too bright
and all brittle
I feel like a Barbie doll
empty inside                and cold
I don't want to feel
anything
anymore
It hurts too much
My inside's too sore....