Not long ago i've met this charming young lady. i was really stunned by the way she sings. her voice was like of those that angels could only posses. you could say she's "maarte" on how she speaks but it's just the way she is. eventhough, it never stopped me from listening to her. she was singing one of Sixpence Non The Richer's songs. i believe it was Kiss Me. it was good timing too. when i entered she was just starting to sing. i listened closely and wished that i could meet her. know her name, where she from (hoping that she's from around here), and if she has a bf (hoping none right at that time). when i found out those things i was glad that i asked. she might not be from around here but at least i asked. she might have a bf right at the time but at least i asked. she might be older than me but at least i asked. now that i've asked her those questions i'm wishing that we could be friends. cool by association. i say hi she greets me back. i say bye she says the same. and when i accomplished that i was glad i asked. relieved. now i've got even more problems to face. hi n bye was not enough for me. this person got me intruiged. i told myself i need to know this person more. discover the wonders in her. once again i was glad i'd asked. she's one of those whom you'd call "popular". people who get recognized easily by others. although those "popular" persons doesn't have the slightest idea who greeted them. i was afraid that i might get rejected so i didn't ask. i should've asked. i thought i could get away with just being friends but i didn't. i fell for her without her knowing it. everyday we talked n talked. n everyday my feelings n longing grew stronger even now when she's not around. i lost a fight. now i think i lossing the war. eventhough i'm still trying to fight back. all i could do is hope that she'll be back in time. n not think of her as much as i can. it'll just make me long for her more. i still think of her often times but it gets lesser by the moment. trying not to toture myself. sure, you shouldn't forget a person close to you. but hey, if ur going koo koo bout it it shows that u can't handle it. yeh, everyone handles things differently but the way i see it, is either u could run from it and be haunted until u decide to face it ; or u could face it now n make something out of it. learn. don't give up easily. n it's one thing i need to improve on.

Sometimes i wonder when will i be able to meet her in person. when will i get the chance to talk to her face to face. watch her every move. from the way she fixes her hair to the way she smiles. watch the way she walks. get a clear picture of her profile. or get a chance to run my fingers through her face. from forhead to chin. i like remembering things that seemed valuable in a sentimental way. i never thought that i might not have that chance. i thought that there's plenty of time for those kinds of things. but i was wrong. there wasn't enough time for those. u know it sucks when u end up regreting things that u didn't do. giving up too easily on something just because ur thinkin u can't do it. sure u could think of it but the will to do it is lackin. it's kind of being paralized by love. or lust. or greed. or sumthing else. u can't seem to do it. there's this unexplainable force that's keepin u from doin wut u want to. but that didn't kept her from goin away. she doesn't know how i feel. i told her a couple of things. just a foresight of things in my mind. that's my mistake. i didn't let her know how precious she is to me. how she's one of the special persons i've met. now that it's going to be a while before i'll be able to talk to her. i reminisce the days that i've got chances to tell her but i didn't because of this unexplainable urges in me. soon. soon i'll have another chance and it may be my last. this time i won't miss. this time there's only one thing to do. is to go for it. no backin up. fuck being chicken. got courage?