?Altar?
Millions
of thoughts running through my mind
Wondering
about the peace I never seem to find
Grasping
at your robe and wincing back
Riding
on the sidewalk and falling through the cracks
Am
I unforgiveable?
Or
am I deluded?
Weak
and sinful?
Or
getting stupid?
Millions
of times I?ve done the same thing
Not
deserving to be under your wing
Washed
in the blood, you?ve taken my sin
Washed
in the dirt cos I took it again
Am
I unforgiveable?
Am
I deaf and dumb?
Does
my soul hear?
Has
it gone numb?
Has
a cold sickened spirit taken the place
Of
the forgiving warmth of your embrace?
Will
the weights and stones hit me like a ton
Of
bricks, this guilt for the things I?ve done
How
can I fathom the grief you must feel
For
me helping the one who comes to steal?
Helping
him take my innocence
And
feeling no remorse, no penitence
And
you show me your hands, and the hole in your side
And
the thorns you wore, to redeem your bride
At
the foot of the cross, the stains of red
That
fall like a veil unto my head
You
say I?m forgiven, you say I?m your son
And
the tears explode, and the colors run
And
I look in the mirror and see my reflection
Without
any thought of insurrection
Am
I Unforgiveable?
Am
I going to die?
Do
I choose to live the enemy?s lie?
Or
do I get on my knees, and let myself cry
The
tears upon the altar
An
offering you take
In
spite of all the vows I?ve broken
And
all you know I?ll break
But
the cloth has been torn open
And
you tell me not to fear
How
can I be unforgiven
With
you holding me so near?