Years ago
I accepted you and I knew I was changed
Scared little
one scared of things beyond my control
You told don?t
worry it?s the blood, but if you look in your book my name is mud
And my candy
shell melts away to a rotten soul
Things just pile
on for days
Wasting lifetimes
away
Weight of a million
worlds
The heat of a
million suns
This leaves me
confused so perplexed
And I live each
day like I won?t see the next
Trial by fire
and I?m staring down the guns?
Where did it all
go wrong somewhere that I don?t know
But my sanity
is hanging by a thread
And I?d like
to be myself
If I even knew
who I was
Help me Jesus
before I walk where angels fear to tread
If you?re as young
as you feel, then I died a slow and painful death
Chained to all
the places I didn?t want to stay or want to see
You took my heart
and took my mind but I let go of your hand into the foaming brine
And now I?m treading
water on this dark and raging sea
Turned into someone
that I despise
Thought and action
I don?t recognize
Feet that tread
upon me once
And hands turned
into fists
And I go off
track and tie myself to the train
As my mind is
in the gutter and my heart in the drain
Reminding me
of the shame you took when I see your wrist
It?s a bloody
mess. The world I?m living in.
I?m an
open book but you?re the ripped out page
Drowning in my
tears at the thought of love I forsook
And I?m clawing
at the bars of the cage