?Rotten Soul?


Years ago I accepted you and I knew I was changed
Scared little one scared of things beyond my control
You told don?t worry it?s the blood, but if you look in your book my name is mud
And my candy shell melts away to a rotten soul

Things just pile on for days
Wasting lifetimes away
Weight of a million worlds
The heat of a million suns
This leaves me confused so perplexed
And I live each day like I won?t see the next
Trial by fire and I?m staring down the guns?

Where did it all go wrong somewhere that I don?t know
But my sanity is hanging by a thread
And I?d like to be myself
If I even knew who I was
Help me Jesus before I walk where angels fear to tread

If you?re as young as you feel, then I died a slow and painful death
Chained to all the places I didn?t want to stay or want to see
You took my heart and took my mind but I let go of your hand into the foaming brine
And now I?m treading water on this dark and raging sea

Turned into someone that I despise
Thought and action I don?t recognize
Feet that tread upon me once
And hands turned into fists
And I go off track and tie myself to the train
As my mind is in the gutter and my heart in the drain
Reminding me of the shame you took when I see your  wrist

 It?s a bloody mess. The world I?m living in.
 I?m an open book but you?re the ripped out page
Drowning in my tears at the thought of love I forsook
And I?m clawing at the bars of the cage