"Verboten"
I
eat of your bounty
and
you consume me
and
after the binge
I
feel so frail and hungry
Anorexia
of the soul
with
all the awful things I do
digging
my hole without stopping
and
calling for help
Your
arm reaches out for me
but
to take hold
would
mean giving up this pain so bitter and cold
And
to live happily
would
mean you'd empty me out and cleanse
and
then I wouldn't have all the excuses
to
justify the ends.
I
should have died a million times
and
yet you have a plan in this
and
now I can't see anything that shines
in
this absolute nothingness
see
the void
only
blood can fill this hole
but
I walk away on purpose
anorexia
of the soul...
Better
by design
I'll
learn from my mistake
it's
your fault not mine
for
this burden that I take
I
don't know right
I
don't know wrong
I
thought you were weak
I
thought that I was strong
but
when I've nearly wasted away
because
I cant take today
you're
protecting me from this pain
but
I never choose to stay the same
you're
right
I'm
wrong
don't
say goodbye
make
it so long
many
mansions
built
on the rock
but
I live in this cardboard box
in
the midst of a God-shaped hole
anorexia
of the soul