Pink Triangle News No. 25
September 25,1998

WARNING: This material may not be suited for all our viewers! The
context of this paper contains graphic language of mature nature,
adult sexual content, strong opinions from some of our
readers, sexually explicit stories and thought provoking works. 
None of the articles that are sent in for submission are edited in any
way, nor censored. The only thing that may be changed is spelling
errors. As mentioned in our disclaimer� Any information in this
newsletter is NOT verified and therefore MAY NOT BE TRUE! Anything
that is taken out of open chat in the room may be used in print,
because it is public knowledge. Some feel this is an infringement on
their rights, However we wish to state that we as editors are not out
to hurt anyone by what we print in this paper. We as contributors to
the Pink Triangle get enough hurt while visiting in the chatroom, we
merely print what goes on in the PT as well as what is sent in to us
for submission by the readers. If you feel in any way that what is
printed in this paper is not accurate you have the option to voice
your opinion to us, the editors, or send in a submission to correct
the misleading representation. Voicing your opinion in open chat is
what is causing the friction in the room as of late. Everyone that
enters PT is there for fun and good chat. If you take everything that
is said in the room to heart, of course there will be feelings hurt.
Remember folks, this a virtual place, not real life!
This paper is intended to be FUN and pleasurable for your reading
enjoyment! If you keep that in mind and take it all in fun, instead of
taking everything you read as personal, I'm quite sure you will enjoy
the paper a great deal more!
There have been some heated debates both in the room, in IM and though
email in the last 2 weeks. Most of the problems have been faced head
on to try to avoid any more conflict, as well as to solve the issues.
As editors, we have tried to be open minded about the comments that
have been made as well as taking a good long look at the situation.
This issue will be the last that this controversy is discussed in this
paper. We are not here to print and ongoing issue of who said what to
hurt whom. We are working hard to bring to you the best paper we
possibly can present. There may be some things printed in this week's
issue that reflect back on the controversy, however this comes from
our readers, not the editors. We feel we are trying out best to handle
all circumstances with dignity and professionalism. If you do not
agree, that is your opinion and we all know everyone is entitled to
their opinions!
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EDITORIAL

If you noticed at the top of the page of this paper, this marks the
25th issue of the PT News and it is distributed on the 25th of
September. That must be some signification that this is going to be a
spectacular issue. I must admit I am very pleased with the
contributions to this week's issue. That just proves to me that
everyone is enjoying the PT News and wishes to contribute to make the
paper a continuing success. Some of you know that this began with only
a handful of people and as a means of communication with the members
of the Pink Triangle. Today, the PT News has a readership of over 200
people! I think that is quite an accomplishment not only to the people
that work on the paper, but also you, the readers of the PT news. Word
of mouth is our only means of spreading the news to others about our
paper. We have some dedicated individuals that are out there visiting
other rooms within the "family" that also pop in and out of the Pink
Triangle. It is because people take the time to talk positively about
the paper that the readership has increased. To all of those that work
hard each week to contribute to the paper we THANK YOU! To all of
those that enjoy reading the PT News we also would like to THANK YOU
as well, for without any of you there would be no PT News! Again let
me remind you that this paper is NOT FreddieB and Alladdinn's paper�we
are simply the ones that put the paper together and distribute it to
you each week. NO, this is YOUR paper my friends. YOU deserve ALL the
THANKS!
NOW�as always it is a pleasure to present to you this week's 25th
issue of The PT News!
CIRCULATION: 201
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THE STANDARD DISCLAIMER AND GENERAL SHIRKING OF RESPONSIBILITY: 
Any information in this newsletter is NOT verified and therefore MAY
NOT BE TRUE. Neither the editors, nor any of the contributors, can be
held responsible for statements made or inferred and that information
has been accepted and printed here in good faith for the entertainment
and amusement of you, the reader. Any advice or recommendations should
be acted upon only by proper consultation with an authority person in
your area of the world. 

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NEWBIE CORNER:
(GOOSE & GANDER)

I would like to take a moment and welcome some new subscribers to the
PT NEWS: without all of you, there would be no reason for a paper.
So without further ado, I WELCOME:
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And to Alladdinn and Freddie, BIG KUDOS for the great job well done!

GANDER

You can email Goose and Gander with newbies you recruit at the
following email addresses:
[email protected] or [email protected]
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A NOTE FROM ALLADDIN AND FREDDIEB:
WELCOME ABOARD TO "ALL" THE NEWBIES OF PT NEWS !!!!!
ALSO�THANKS to all that have recruited newbies this week! Keep up the
great work!
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The following are a few letters from our readers that we received this
past week. Remember you have the right to send in letters to the
editors as well. Please send your letters to: [email protected]
All letters will be printed in the news unless stated otherwise.
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LETTERS TO THE EDITORS

In looking at the ptnews24, I really wonder how I ever did it week
after week after week... you have put so much time into it... good for
you...
Instead of worrying about that, and the goings on in the PTroom,
Frenchie and I went to the
Laurentians on Thursday and enjoyed a very wonderful day as our 18th
anniversary together. We went to a $$$ restaurant. On Friday, we drove
around looking at the fall colors, the change of the leaves that is so
romantic of the East Coast.
On Saturday, we looked at the cemetery where he will be buried...
And I didn't have to worry about the PTnews not even once 'cause I
knew it was in good hands...

Gany
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BEEFS and/or BITCHES
By Tattler

Hello Pinkettes. I just knew you wanted to hear from me again but this
time I'm not doing the gossip column. Instead I decided I wanted to
voice MY opinion. Yes I do have one just in case anyone wanted to
know. I have been popping in and out and only a view have IM'd me and
guessed who I was which didn't bother me. It was nice being out of the
limelight. All I got while I was in the Limelight was BITCHING.
Which brings up tonight's subject. I don't know how many readers we
have a present but I do imagine it is a lot and I know it is growing.
Yet all I hear is BITCHING about the PTNEWS or about how the new
editors are doing or Bitching at them because someone reported
something that you do not agree with. Wouldn't it be a sad world if
all of us agreed on the same things. There wouldn't be any wars,
political parties (thanks Prime on your news articles), nor
discussions because we would all agree on everything. BORING.
Someone pass me a blanket. I could sleep in this world.
Since I have been receiving PTNEWS. I have seen 3 (Ok 5 if you count
BJ and Alli) or (BJ and Frederic ( had to get that one in) editors to
PTNEWS. Gany (Thank you dear. You created a beautiful child.),
Tatouine (Mamma_Tat, Mistress_Tat) and now Frederic (one more time)
and Ali. We had a guest editor (DOWN2) while gany was on vacation.
(Boy did Prime bitch at me for that. Down had no time to talk with
Prime). Do you think the past editors left the paper because they
wanted too. NO!!!!!!!! Why did they leave? Could be (and this is only
a could be) that there are SOME individuals in the room that can only
survive if they BITCH at something or someone. Must be a very sad
person to lash out at everybody all the time. Yes they are very
friendly in the room. Quite a group of talkers too but privately, they
lash out in email and they lash out in a vengeance.
I remember an article I wrote when Gany was the editor. I told no lie.
In fact the information I received came directly from the room in open
chat. I forwarded the conversations to the editor when I started
receiving some very nasty email from a certain individual. I won't
mention the name because that person is no longer any part of my life.
This INDIVIDUAL did not want me to write about it's personal life, yet
it talked about itself in the room in open chat. Well Gany emailed the
individual and told him that Tattler would continue. That didn't make
this person happy so it went to the open chat and started talking
about me and what I told him. He kind of forgot to tell everyone in
the room what he told me in email. Guess it slipped it's mind. Well
needless to say Gany got a lot of hate mail about me and Mamma Tat was
about to cut me off totally. I finally emailed everything this
individual emailed me to some loyal fans. What a difference that made
because Mamma_Tat invited me back to write. Ah, there was a catch that
I was not made aware of though. I could not talk about this individual
at all no matter what this individual did in the room. Well the next
week, I submitted my article only to find out that some of it had been
cut. Wouldn't you know it was everything about this individual. I was
even congratulating something and it got cut. Well that got on my
nerve but hey. I got over it but what really got to me was that this
individual emailed me and told me in a sense NEENER NEENER NEENER. In
otherwords, I know you tried to talk about me but I got you instead
because you were censored. So Tattler stopped because it no longer
became fun to do. I no longer could joke around. There were and are
still, some individuals in the room that want to act up, play around,
have fun (which everyone is entitled too) and the gossip columns are
the same way, to act up, to poke some fun all in gest but NO. Don't
talk about me is the attitude that still remains.
How many of you know how many hours it takes to even write a column?
How many of us that write colums are being paid? (none) How many hours
does it take the editors to put the paper together? How many of you
would like to volunteer and be a guest editor for a week or two?
Remember, you get to hear from the contributors. You get the bitching
because someone doesn't like something, you get to cut and paste and
make sense out of it. It's all yours. You get to spend countless hours
out of the room sorting through it all. I'm sure the present editors
would enjoy the vacation you give them. There is a catch though. You
have to return to them the paper in the condition it was in before you
did your thing.
So in closing. Everyones opinions are valuable. Not ONE person has the
right to destroy anything that gets the word out. If you do not like
something that is being printed, SKIP over it. It is that easy. You
want to change things, then TAKE OVER. In otherwords, SHIT or GET OFF
THE POT but you CANNOT HAVE your CAKE and EAT IT TOO. Ooooooooh, these
metaphors, I'm beginning to sound like my mother.
P.S.- behave yourselfs (please don't) because I will be making guest
appearances in the PTNEWS. Nite all.
AND THAT IS MY OPINION

Sean 
aka "The Tattler"
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A NOTE FROM ALI: For those of you that are new and do not know who or
what The Tattler was�he used to write the gossip section for PT.
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GANY

Nixon loathed it. Clinton doesn't like it. Kennedy loved it. What? The
newsmedia. Sometimes the news is rumors, sometimes gossip, and
sometimes hearsay. But always it makes for interesting reading when a
person with talent puts it together in a form that keeps us
interested. 
The current editors of the ptnews, along with the contributors, are
working their asses off to give you some fun, informative,
provocative, lively news EACH AND EVERY WEEK. They work damn hard, as
I am one who can vouch for their involvement and their energy and
their devotion to what they do. Three cheers for them. Ali and
FreddieB are slaves to giving you a ptnews that you can be proud of,
and that you can enjoy reading. They are not paid for what they do.
They are volunteers, just like all the writers of the different
columns.
Why is it then that they are getting hassled and criticized? Why is it
that the people who do NOTHING are the most vocal? Why is it that
there are some residents of the room who insist on degrading the
writers and editors? These n'er-do-wells always seem to run to the
dark corners of the chatroom and spread salacious negative gossip,
then claim to be too offended to help with the ptnews. Yet they are
the first to criticize in a destructive way, never to volunteer their
assistance. Never to be there when help is needed. 
It was my decision originally to have the ptnews every week. In this
way, I thought it would always be current with the activities in the
room. Some people agreed with me, others who insisted it should be
biweekly or even monthly. To me, this is surely the death of the news.
Unfortunately for the current editors, I have saddled them with the
problem of being weekly. But, I think they will agree with me that
they are having the time of their life!!!! Both Freddie and Ali have
said on a number of occasions how much they enjoy being the editors.
And I don't blame them. 
It's really a lot of fun... and it's rewarding in the sense of
accomplishment. As any of the readers (Windscare, Maxam, Barebear to
name a few) who are involved with the media can testify, it's no easy
thing to get this thing done each and every week. 
Ali and Freddie have created a group that meet to hash out new ideas
and decide how to handle problems and so on... they REALLY have it
much more organized than I did... they have a lot of fresh ideas that
merit a chance.
So give them a chance. Give them your support. Give them some articles
to print. Give them your assistance. But DON'T give them shit!!!!!!
If you have problems with the ptnews content, write them a letter, or
consider any of the following options: renounce your subscription,
stop visiting the room, change your screen name, see a shrink,
consider suicide, get a life, move to another planet. Enough said???
There are really so many very NICE people who come to the Pink
Triangle chatroom, it's sad that the SHITHEADS are the ones who get
the most attention. 
At this time, I'd like to thank Imbrucewayne who IM'd me one night
long ago when I was being viciously attacked for stating my views
about the ptnews. All he said was "Are you ok? Do you need help?" And
all I said to him was "No, it's 0k. This is not serious." 
But it was serious, 'cause it eventually led to my not giving a damn
any more. The SHITHEADS eventually won. They wore away the little
energy I had. But, that produced two new editors who are really good. 
Hip-hip-hooray!!!!
Gany

Postscript note: Anyone who feels offended by this letter, or who has
a comment about it can express their views by writing to the ptnews'
Complaint Department ( [email protected] ). You'll be in print for
the next issue, I'm sure. 
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GAY VOICE
(Prime)

COMING OUT
23 DAYS UNTIL NATIONAL COMING OUT DAY.
O.K. PT'ers. Didn't receive anything Politically yet. The Human Rights
Campaign is suing the Christian Right for illegal fund raising for
it's campaign to deny Same Sex Marriages.
So� I've taken some stuff from H.R.C. about coming out. Their website
is listed so check it out.Some of the most difficult and important
decisions in the lives of gay, lesbian or bisexual people surround
"coming out"_ that is, deciding to be honest and open about our sexual
orientation. The fact that you are reading this is a sign that you may
be questioning your sexual orientation or you know someone who is
doing so. Gay people are everywhere, and every day, more of us are
deciding to live honestly. This is critically important to our
community because the only way we will stop the discrimination we face
is to reveal our true selves to our friends, our families and our
neighbors. National polls haveshown that people who know someone who
is lesbian or gay are far more likely to support equal rights for all
gay people. So in effect, coming out may be one small step for a gay
man or lesbian but it contributes to the giant leap we are making for
all gay people, today and in the future.
If you are thinking hard about whether and how you should come out,
you're probably wondering, "What is this going to do to my life? Will
my family accept me, will my friends still like me? How do I know if
this is the right thing to do?" These are all valid questions and you
are not the first person nor will you be the last to struggle with
them. But it's my fervent hope that just as the earliest gay activists
paved the way for me, today's lesbian, gay and bisexual leaders are
helping to make life easier for you.
Let me assure you that while being an openly lesbian, gay or bisexual
person in this society isn't easy, it is so much more gratifying than
being in the closet. Lying and hiding, worrying that someone will
discover your secret, consumes a lot of personal energy and detracts
from the quality of a person's life. No one should be denied the
opportunity to thrive and flourish as a full human being because his
or her sexual orientation is different from that of the majority.
Our community has come a long way in the decades since the rebellion
at the Stonewall Inn which began the modern gay rights movement but it
still has a long way to go. This column can't give you all the answers
about the coming out process but it will give you some. And then it
will 
point you toward other resources that can help you as you grapple with
the life-altering and potentially life-enhancing decision to come out.
Everyone thinks they're the only ones who have these feelings. But
that's not the truth. There are people who came before you, and people
who will come after you. - Candace Gingrich, activist

Being attracted to someone of the same sex can be frightening so
frightening that you may deny your feelings, or throw yourself into
dating the opposite sex, just to prove you are not gay or
lesbian. But then the feelings come up again. You try to put them out
of your mind but you can't. Finally, you stop resisting, and in that
instant, your world changes. You discover that being with someone of
the same sex feels better than being with the opposite sex ever did.
But what will this mean for the rest of your life?
Certainly, life is more challenging if you are gay or lesbian. It
requires that you develop the courage to honor your own experience of
love above anyone else's judgments about it. But you can do it.
Millions of people have, and many say it was the best thing they ever
did.
There is no one way people realize that they are attracted to the same
sex. Some always know it. Some learn it at puberty. Some figure it out
it in college. Some recognize it only after getting married to someone
of the opposite sex. But whenever the feelings come up, almost
everyone 
wonders: How do I know if I'm really gay, lesbian or bisexual? On the
one hand, it's very simple: If your strongest emotional and sexual
attractions are to people of the same sex, you're gay or lesbian. If
they're equally strong to the same and the opposite sex, you're
bisexual.
On the other hand, sexual orientation is confusing because most of us
were raised to think of ourselves as heterosexual. Our parents,
teachers and our culture told us that some day, we'd meet someone of
the opposite sex and get married. No one ever said we might fall in
love with someone of the same sex. That's why we're shocked when it
happens.
Unless there's someone gay in your family, you probably never
considered the possibility that you yourself might be lesbian or gay.
Moreover, you probably have heard many negative stereotypes of gay and
lesbian people but most of these are based on erroneous or inadequate
information; what you need are the facts.
No one knows how many people are gay, lesbian or bisexual. The best
estimates we currently have indicate that between 3 percent and 6
percent of the population is gay. However, even the most reputable
estimates are colored by the fact that many people are afraid or
unwilling to be identified as gay or lesbian, even in an anonymous
survey. So the true number is probably even higher. But whatever the
number, the facts are the same:
1.Homosexuality is Not a Choice; Homosexuality Chooses You. Some
people say that
homosexuality is a choice to discourage you from being in a gay or
lesbian relationship. But think about it for a minute: Did you choose
to have feelings of same-sex attraction? Why would you? The fact is:
Homosexuality is not a choice any more than being left-handed or
having blue eyes or being heterosexual is a choice. It's an
orientation, a part of who you are. The choice is in deciding how to
live your life.
2.Gay People Are Mentally Healthy In the 1970s, the American
Psychological Association and American Psychiatric Association revised
their positions on homosexuality. Both determined that homosexuality
is not a mental disorder. Nonetheless, some people might try to tell
you that you are sick and that you need professional help to "change."
There is no scientifically valid evidence that people can change their
sexual orientations, although some people do repress it. But because
being gay is not a disorder, there is really no reason to try change
yourself.
But it's OK to seek help in dealing with the confusing feelings you
might be having about your sexual orientation. Coming out is a major
life decision and as with reaching any other personal milestone, you
might seek professional help through the process. Just remember: The
anxiety you are feeling is probably the result of family or social
prejudice against homosexuality, not homosexuality itself.
3.Being Gay or Lesbian is Natural.You've probably heard people say
that men are "meant" to be with women, and women with men, that being
gay or lesbian goes against nature and morality. But if homosexuality
were unnatural, why would it occur, generation after generation,
despite strong societal prohibitions? The fact is same-sex love has
occurred throughout history, in every nation and culture on Earth. It
is a natural variation among humans, and if you look hard enough,
you'll probably also discover that it has occurred somewhere in your
family's history. When people say homosexuality is unnatural, they
mean it is against their preconceived idea of what is natural.
4.Being Gay or Lesbian is Not a "Lifestyle," It's a Life. It's
sometimes said that gay and lesbian people live a gay "lifestyle," a
word chosen to trivialize us and to imply that all gay men and
lesbians subscribe to the same values, characteristics and dreams. The
fact is we're not all the same any more than heterosexuals are. Some
of us have one lifelong relationship, some have many. Some wear
distinctive clothing, some do not. Some are liberal, some are
conservative. Some are affluent, others are poor. The only thing we
all have in common is that we love people of the same sex.
5.Gay Men and Lesbians Constitute Families.Some people talk as if
there are two options in life: You can marry someone of the opposite
sex and become a family or you can be gay or lesbian and be excluded
from the definition of  family. This is patently untrue and is a
position perpetuated by religious political extremists who have a
stake in portraying gay people as outside the mainstream. 
The fact is that lesbian or gay male couples are as much family as
heterosexual couples. And if you dream about having children, you can
do so if you're gay or lesbian. Many gay and lesbian couples have
children through adoption, artificial insemination or previous
relationships. Plus, all the scientific evidence to date shows the
children of gay couples are just as likely to grow up happy and
well-adjusted as the children of heterosexual relationships.
6.Some of the Most Talented People Are or Were Gay or Lesbian. If
anyone ever suggests that your life won't add up to anything if you're
gay, remind them that: Plato was a lover of men. So were Michelangelo
and Leonardo da Vinci. Bayard Rustin, a  leader of the black civil
rights movement, was gay. So were Oscar Wilde, Gertrude Stein, Marcel
Proust and James Baldwin. Shakespeare wrote about a man's love for a
man. Poet Emily Dickinson wrote about her love for a woman. More
recently, musicians k.d. lang and Melissa Etheridge, and actresses
Ellen DeGeneres and Amanda Bearse have come out as lesbian; and actors
Wilson Cruz and Mitchell Anderson, record producerDavid Geffen,
Olympic swimmer Greg Louganis and Olympic skater Rudy Galindo, and
U.S. Rep. Barney Frank have come out as gay.
Coming out was the best thing I ever did . . . It took all the fears
away. - k.d. lang, singer 
Coming out means identifying yourself as gay, lesbian or bisexual. The
first and toughest person you have to reveal this to is yourself. Then
you can deal with friends and family. For many people, the coming out
process is difficult. But most people come out because, sooner or
later, they can't stand hiding who they are any more. Once they've
come out, most people have to admit: It feels much better to be open
and honest than to lie and hide.
Melissa Etheridge, singer: [People] think they'll lose everything if
they come out. This did not happen to me at all. In fact, everything
came back tenfold.
Ellen DeGeneres, actress: For me, [coming out] has been the most
freeing experience because people can't hurt me anymore. Andrew
Sullivan, writer: ...to me, it was like being in a black-and-white
movie that suddenly converted to color.
Coming out to yourself means recognizing and accepting that you're
primarily attracted to the same sex. But how do you get from
recognition to acceptance? It helps to talk to someone. But who? And
what should you say?
Some people come out when someone asks them if they're gay or lesbian.
Others make a point of pulling people aside and saying, "There's
something I have to tell you."
If you choose the latter option, ask yourself: "Who is the most
open-minded and caring person I know who is also the least likely to
be shocked, threatened or put off?" This might be a friend, a relative
or a teacher. Tell that person you have questions about your sexual
orientation, or you're trying to come to terms with your sexual
orientation, and you'd like to talk. Say you've come to them because
you trust them.
If you don't already know someone like this, consider talking to a
school counselor, a therapist, or a member of a gay and lesbian
student group. Gay-straight alliances exist in many high schools and
colleges. There are support groups at most gay and lesbian community
centers. Many communities have lesbian and gay switchboards. You might
seek out nearby churches or synagogues that minister primarily to
lesbians and gay men. 
And there are many gay youth and coming out sites on the World Wide
Web, including the Human Rights Campaign's National Coming Out site,
which you can access through: http://www.hrc.org. 
The goal is not to tell for the sake of telling, but not to hide. The
more people you can find and be honest with, the better you'll feel.
Barney Frank, U.S. congressman 
You can get a sense of how accepting your friends and family are by
the things they say, or don't say, when the subject of homosexuality
comes up in conversation. You might try to bring it up yourself by
talking about gay issues in the news such as the Ellen TV show, or the
debates over equal rights in the workplace for lesbians and gays. If
your friends' or your family's reactions are positive, chances are
they'll be more accepting of you. But keep in mind that it's easier
for most people to accept gay men and lesbians in the abstract; it's a
bit different when it's "my son"or "my daughter"or even "my best
friend."
When you're ready to come out to your friends, you may be lucky enough
to have some gay or lesbian friends to help you. But heterosexual
friends can also be staunch supporters. Choose carefully as you reveal
this fundamental part of yourself. 
Many gay people find that the friends they thought would be most
judgmental were the first to drop them, while those who seemed
unlikely allies offered the strongest support. 
Along the way, you might lose a few people whom you thought were
friends. But you'll learn many valuable lessons about what the word
"friendship"means. My imagination of how people were going to react
was so much worse than the reality. - Linda Villarosa, executive
editor of Essence magazine. 
Many people find strength and support from their faith as they
struggle to come out as gay, lesbian or bisexual. At first, this might
sound like a contradiction, since so many organized religions teach
that homosexuality is wrong or immoral. But most religions also teach
that God is merciful. Youth activist Jamie Nabozny was raised
Pentecostal and hoped to become a minister someday. But he was gay and
thought the only worse thing he could be was Satan himself. So he
tried to put his same-sex attractions aside until, one day, he had a
talk with God.
"I walked as far as I could into a big field. I was crying, praying
and hollering at God. I said, I've read the Bible, I've prayed, I go
to church three times a week. Every time I have a homosexual thought,
I rebuke it in the name of God and yet still I'm gay. Either you're
not there, or you don't give a damn that I'm gay. It took me a little
while but then I realized God was OK with it. The God I really
believed in was not a God that hated or condemned people." 
This is an experience many people go through. Faced with a conflict
between their religion and their feelings, many people come to realize
that the God they truly believe in could never condemn people for
loving. Some people, like writer and lecturer Brian McNaught, find
their spirituality even helps them come out.
"I found strength in Christ's message about being true to yourself, "
says McNaught, "in loving yourself, being willing to suffer for the
sake of what you know is right, and trusting that a power greater than
myself loved me just the way I was."
Almost everyone I know has had a better experience coming out than
they thought they would. Barney Frank, U.S. congressman 

Sorry Pinkies that it was so long but I felt that this information
needed to get out because we do have some family members that haven't
came out and are afraid and we have new members constantly coming in
asking how to come out so I hope this helps.

PrimeBear
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PLEASE NOTE: Informational material and email addresses have been
provided and are listed at the end of the paper in the Website column.
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GayVoice (part 2)

Sorry Pinkies but as I was surfing the web this morning, this popped
into my screen. I know I have contributed a lot this week but I guess
my work is never done. Really am sorry. Some weeks I contribute
nothing. This week????
DON'T ASK, DON'T TELL ANTI-GAY MILITARY WITCH HUNT POLICY UPHELD IN
2ND 
CIRCUIT 

Military Argues They Are Exempt From Laws And Standards Governing
Fairness And
Nondiscrimination In Employment 
WASHINGTON -- The 2nd Circuit Court of Appeals upheld the
administration's "Don't Ask, Don't Tell, Don't Pursue" policy today,
effectively giving the Department of Defense carte blanche to strip
lesbian and gay service members of basic constitutional rights,
according to the Human Rights Campaign. 
"This ruling says that the military is exempt from the rules the rest
of society has to follow," said HRC Political Director Winnie
Stachelberg. "We should all be troubled when Americans who are
honorably serving their country are persecuted by the very government
they are trying to protect."
In upholding the case entitled Able vs. U.S., the 2nd Circuit Court of
Appeals joined three other appellate courts, in the 4th, 8th and 9th
Circuits, that have upheld the current policy on gays in themilitary.
There are no other cases challenging "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" pending
before district or appellate courts.
The decision today overturned a lower court decision by Judge Eugene
Nickerson who ruled on July 2, 1997, that the military's policy
creates "special rules" that treat gay service members differently
than heterosexual service members for saying and doing the same things
in 
violation of the constitutional guarantee of equal protection under
the law.
The court refused to apply the Romer vs. Evans decision to the armed
services, arguing that the armed services' "special functions" justify
discriminatory treatment against lesbian and gay service members. In
Romer, the Supreme Court stated unequivocally that gay and lesbian 
people could not be singled out for unequal treatment. The Romer case
overturned Colorado's Amendment 2, a ballot measure that would have
denied localities the ability to enact ordinances that barred anti-gay
discrimination.
"The court's decision is in error and fundamentally flawed because
there is no military exception to the U.S. Constitution and our Bill
of Rights," said Tony Varona, HRC's chief counsel.The six service
members who brought the challenge to may ask the entire 2nd Circuit to
hear an appeal of the case or they may petition the U.S. Supreme Court
to review today's decision. The case was brought on behalf of the
service members by Lambda Legal Defense & Education Fund and the
American Civil Liberties Union's Lesbian and Gay Rights Project, both
in New York.
In a report released earlier this year, the Servicemembers Legal
Defense Network documented that "commanders continue to ask, pursue
and harass" service members in direct violation of "Don't Ask, Don't
Tell, Don't Pursue." In April, the Pentagon released statistics
showing that it had 
discharged 997 gays in 1997, a 67 percent increase since the
implementation of "Don't Ask, Don't Tell, Don't Pursue" and the
highest number of discharges since 1989. SLDN reported that the cost
of firing gays in the military last year exceeded $29 million.
Today's decision came on the heels of a survey released Sept. 4, 1998,
indicating a significant drop in "strong opposition" to gay men and
lesbians in the military by soldiers. The survey, conducted
byProfessor Charles Moskos of Northwestern University, the author of
"Don't Ask, Don't Tell, Don't Pursue," and Laura Miller of University
of California at Los Angeles, found that the number of Army men
strongly opposed to the presence of gay men and lesbians in the
military has dropped from 67 percent in 1992 to 36 percent in 1998.
Army women's 
opposition has also dropped significantly from 31 percent in 1992 to
16 percent in 1998, according to the study.

Well. Guess the U.S. Military can do as they damn will please. Too
bad. So remember pinkies. If a war breaks out for some god known
reason and they try to force the draft back. Just tell them you are
gay and you'll be classified 4F and unable to serve. This will only
prove that if we 
can't serve in peace, fuck them. We can't serve in war.

PrimeBear
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TRIVIA TRIANGLE
(Ashlee)

Hi everyone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Here is this weeks trivia triangle questions .   Good luck and have
fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!
At this time I would like to thank everyone who is helping me with the
questions. Everyweek it seems harder to come up with questions and I
could not continue without you . Thanks again!!!!!!!!!
1.)  There are two theme nights in the pink triangle; Tuesday and
Thursday.
What is the theme names given to those two nights??    5 points each
= 10
points
2.)  In pt news number 4  Primebear says that he has "three four
legged boys" , What kind of animal are they? and what are their names?
5 points each answer = 20 points
3.) Where does Downs2 or Downie live?   10 points
4.)  In an earlier edition of the ptnews, Primebear gave us the hanky
codes. What was the color he said he would not do? 10 points.  Hankies
are worn in the left and right rear pockets. In what pocket does
Primebear where his hanky and what does it mean? 10 points each = 30
points
5.) In ptnew4 Denarius submitted an article about everything we wanted
to know about penises. What animal in the animal kingdom has the
largest penis? How big is the penis?  10 points each = 20 points
6.) Shymom or PTmom has two set of boys in the pink triangle. Who are
the two sets of  boys? 5 points for each name = 20 points
7.) What av was Alladdinn wearing the night he met Freddie? What stood
out in the av as
significant which was also what Alladdinn had with him the day they
met in person? 10 points each = 20 points
OKAY  there are 130 points in total
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Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha
Jokes! Ha Ha 

A surgeon went to check on his very famous patient after an operation.
She was awake, so he examined her.  "You'll be fine, " he said.  She
asked, "How long will it be before I am able to have a normal sex life
again, Doctor?"
The surgeon seemed to pause, which alarmed the girl.  "What's the
matter, Doctor?  I will be alright, won't I?"
"Yes," he replied, "you will be fine, Miss Lewinsky.  It's just that
no one has ever asked me that after having their tonsils out."
(Submitted By Denarius)
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FREDDIEBEESWAX
(FreddieB)

Howdy Guys and Gals!!! It's Thursday evening, around 9:00 p.m., and I
just got home from work.  It's time to give ya'll another week of
GOSSIP. Ali and I are pressed for time this week to get out the news
due to the threatening Hurricane Georges hitting Florida within the
next day. If you do not hear from us for a day or two�don't worry�it's
probably just a power outage or communication problem. If any of you
have been through a hurricane before, you know what I am talking
about. The winds, rain, flooding, hail and tornadoes are all just a
part of getting past this incredible storm. We will try to stay online
for as long as we can so we can keep in touch with the "family". Now,
on with this week's GOSSIP!!!
Here's the BUZZ:
As announced in the room this week, was the resignation of priesthood
by CEMENT. He claims this was a long thing coming and finally decided
to go on with his life as an everyday person. A man of the cloth, he
is no longer and the best of luck to him in any future endeavors he
may encounter. Just look at it this way, you will only have to go to
church only once a week now instead of everyday and I will not feel so
guilty when we cyber�LOL

HOT OFF THE PRESS is the new struck romance of Jake and Daytona_Turbo.
Rumor has it, the two met last week and maybe something is going to
develop. Jake claims that Daytona is a real cutie, just like him. Many
a romance has started here guys, so keep the flames burning and I will
keep you updated on this love affair. Lips are quite sealed but I
might be able to bribe Jake for some inside information.

It was wedding bells last Saturday for the lovely couple Kumera and
Angelina.  They were virtually married by Ginger in Pink Triangle 2.
The Pink Triangle guests that attended were chauffeured by limo driven
by Screw. From what I hear, it was quite a ride. 
Attending this formal affair from Pink Triangle was Alladdinn and his
two dates, Screw and youel, Wicked Love, kelsluv, fluffy_is_cute,
Iammetoo, and vannessam2. Margaritas were downed by the ladies and
someone had gas on the way (EWWWWW), but seems Screw found his way
without getting lost. The wedding was lovely, with Kumera giving her
vows in her native language of New Zealand, Maori, and then in English
and Angelina recited her own vows too. The traditional ritual of rice
throwing was replaced with the famous (Frisbee Toss). Frisbees were
flying everywhere and Kumera even caught one in the mouth. Immediately
following was the reception where a good time time was had by all.
CONGRATULATIONS Ladies!!! Many happy years together.

As we all know by now, our fine-feathered friend, Goose, has taken on
a new look. He now goes by the name Goosarella. After squeezing his
manly body into that lovely red Oscar DeLaurenta, he has grown quite
accustomed to the feel of his designer gown. After putting the red
dress up for sale in the PT Classifieds, he now is rescinding his
offer so he can save the dress for special occasions. But he needs
some new pumps since he having a hard time finding the right color Doc
Martins to match. Do they even make ruby-red army boots? Ladies, can
we help this man? He wears a size 9. You know what they say about a
man with small feet. (heehee)

OMG�guess who I saw in the room on Wednesday evening? Yes, it was
folks, the infamous Down2. He was cuddled up with Primebear during his
short visit to the Pink Triangle. For those of you that don't know,
Down has been very busy with school and hasn't had too much playtime.
Can you find some time for us soon Downy? WE MISS YOU LOTS!!!

Back from vacationing in Las Vegas is Roon. He had a great time and
also has been moving into a new house this past week. I know what it's
like moving, but don't make yourself so scarce Roon. Take all that
money you won in Vegas and pay someone to move your things and get
back online soon. WE MISS YOU TOO!!!

Well Folks, that's it for this weeks gossip. Time for me to start
boarding up the windows and get to the grocery store to buy some
non-perishable items.  Uncle Georges (hurricane that is) is about to
make a surprise visit. See ya all after we ride the storm out.

Be Good and Play Safe
Freddiebeeswax
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Bios ooo Bios ooo Bios ooo Bios  ooo  Bios  ooo  Bios ooo  Bios  ooo
Bios  ooo  Bios 
 
Cutey2

Dear Family,
I have been seen in the Pink Triangle for a long time now and Gany at
one time asked me to submit a bio.  Well I said I would but my life
has been a mess so I waited till I could clean it up.  Well Cutey_2 is
actually a 23 year old college student studying Applied Psychology
with Art and Social Science as minors.  I Currently live in Wisconsin
(the cheese state) and attend college full time.  My time consists of
being a caregiver --- that is taking care of a man paralyzed from the
neck down---- a student, caregiver, part time lover and a worker.  
I also am working on my internship at the House of Corrections here
and just love it (a minimal security jail). I spend my time playing
football (a women's flag football team just got started) and I am a
cornerback (cover the receivers) and the Center (who hikes the ball).
I also play softball in which my team took first place.  I find myself
to be very busy right now carrying 14 credits (12 credits is a full
schedule) and taking care of Jeff plus working at school (for extra
money) my internship and trying to work out to loose that freshman 15
that I gained 4 years ago (more then 15 now but hey).  Now that
football is here I am very busy and left with no time to visit with my
Family (you guys).  I am sad because I miss u all but anyways back to
my bio. 
I aslo enjoy writing poetry in which I have had 2 poems published. So
as u can tell I am a very busy woman with hardly enough time for
myself.  I occassionaly like to go out and dance(when i have a few
hrs. to spare).
Also can't forget to mention my son----ha had ya'll fooled huh?--well
that is actually my cat Dez who thinks he is human but hey he's
adorable anyway. Well I guess this is all I can add and if you have
any questions that I forgot to address --feel free to ask me when u c
me.
Cutey2
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Blissefull
(aka Defyant_Angel)

Ali asked me to submit a bio a couple weeks ago, sorry for the delay
Ali... This is Blissefull in a nutshell people
Well, I'm 19, I live in Arkansas... shithole, USA... 
I have 3 cats� I live with my grandparents� I have 3 sisters and 2
brothers...
My birthday is in the end of May� which makes me an insane ass Gemini,
WOOHOO... that should explain my moods to any of you that know about
Gemini's.
That's all I know to say� so if any of you want to know anything else,
ask... I don't bite, I promise
Adios� 
Stephanie
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Krymsyn

My name is Hollianne and I go by Krymsyn in the room. I am very happy
to make everyone's aquaintance in the room.
I have been coming for a long time.  I think that most of you know
that I am not gay.  Therefore the I must be gay friendly.  Which of
course I am.  I guess because I just don't see the difference in the
sexuality preference as others do.  I find it very romantic and very
open.  
And as always you should always be yourself or how else are you going
to live your life. I really like all of my friends in PT. I love to
hear about everyone's lives and differences.  And the different
cultures are wonderful. What I love most about this room is everyone
here is so accepting. No matter who you are as long as you are nice
and genuine.  Needless to say there aren't that many out there who
aren't gay.  I am just sick and tired of the gay and lesbian community
being put down because of the sexual preference.  It frankly pisses me
off.  And I have to tell you that the bashers that come in the room
make me angry.  But you have that choice to make, is it worth it to
fight or not?  That question probably remains in your mind forever in
everything you do.  I am sorry for the remainder for all of the
questions.  Any way, I grew up in Columbus Ohio, Los Angeles,
Cincinnati, and Raleigh.  I am married to a man. He is wonderful.  I
have two wonderful children.  I have had to endure a lot of hardships.
Life wasn't easy growing up. My mother chose to leave when I was three
to go find herself I guess.  My father is an alcoholic and will always
be until he kills himself.  I have a brother and a sister. Some of you
know about my sister's condition and some don't.  She is married and
has one child and another on the way.  She was also diagosed with
having HIV in April. This past month her T-cell count dropped
dramatically and she has now been diagnosed with having AIDS. The
child she carries isn't known whether to have the illness yet. That
will not be determined until several months after birth. 
She is coping and sounds upbeat last I spoke with her.  And last but
not least, My brother with whom I am not on speaking terms with at
all.  This next segment of my life is a very personal story and is
also very painful.  So bear with me here please. When I was about 5 my
brother began molesting me in my bed at night. My parents didn't know
until I was older.  This situation continued until I was around 7.
During this time also raped me repeatedly.  I am recovering from this
tragedy in my life.  Every day is a new day and I will continue to
live by that.  The reason I have decided to tell you this is because I
know that there are others out there that have had this same thing
happen to them and if they are interested in talking to me I am a
great listener.  I also have a lot of support for this thing.  I am
very nice and understanding.  Please don't hesitate to talk to me.  My
love and support is what I will give. I can try to help.  Anyway,
enough mushy stuff.  
I now live in Michigan and it is okay here. I have been here for about
5 years now.  Any questions you can IM when I am in the room. Thanks
for reading this and please don't think that I am psychotic nut.
(Although the ones that know me in the room already know I am) lol.
Take care of each other. 
Love and Peace,
Hollianne/Krymsyn
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GOLDIELOX

Hello friends, I have been here for quite sometime now and many of you
do not know who I really am� For the newcomers with questions, My name
is Bernadette, (nick) GoldieLox. You may notice that some call me
Bernie, but sorry that is only for my people who know me for more then
six months. I Live in the Bronx, that is in "The famous New York City"
(Big Apple). I'm a 25 year old female.  I work for an Asset Management
Firm in Westchester NY. I have been living with a man, (for 4ys) now &
I recently let him in on the fact that I was having BI thoughts
(thanks to you guys in pt, you made me acquire the courage.) So, to
say the least he wanted to ((((((((((Frying Pan Me To the
Head)))))))))))  & shrugged it off like it was nothing. If he wants to
deny it to himself its ok, but I want to say thanks to you guys for
helping find the courage to tell him that even of he did not take me
serious. Without your help I would of never been honest with him or to
myself on how I felt.  Thanks for helping me get it off my chest to
him and thanks for supporting me in my own time of denial�
You guys are the best.
Bernadette
aka Goldie
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IPPIH

Hello everybody!  The bio is now in from Ippih (Hippi).  I have been
debating on what to say about myself and well I decided to let yall
know everything about me.  I am 25 years old.  I was born and raised
in Dallas, Texas and will die there holding a beer.  I am currently
living in Charlotte, North Carolina.  I am a golf professional
certified by the LPGA and the PGA, but after playing in golf for 15
years and teaching golf for 8 years I am completely burned out by it
and am taking a hiatus working at Home Depot.  I went to the
Universtity of Texas @ El Paso and to the Golf Acaademy of the South
in Casselberry, Florida in which I received my degrees in Business
Management and Golf Operations.  I went to my parents in July of 92
and told them I was gay.  My parents have been the best about it.
They stand behind me in my decisions in life and they are truely my
best friends.  Most of you may already know that by seeing my mom come
into the room with me a lot.  I am a very open and honest person in
which if you have any questions or things to say I completely
appreciate you coming to me.  I have completely enjoyed coming into
the triangle and meeting the people that I have.  Ya'll are a great
group of people and i have had a great time.  I will end by answering
the question most asked by people in the room (especially ali and
freddie) yes I am single.  Now why am I single, well you know there is
the one person in your life that you always look for.  Well I am tired
of looking and am waiting for her to find me.  So if yall see her be
sure and tell her where to find me.  Hope I have told you what you
needed to know.  Take care and don't forget to burn one for me.
See ya,
HIPP


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Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha Jokes! Ha Ha
Jokes! Ha Ha 

There was this couple who had been married for 50 years.  They were
sitting at the breakfast table one morning when the old gentleman said
to his wife, "Just think, we've been married for 50 years." "Yeah,"
she replied, "Just think, fifty years ago we were sitting here at this
breakfast table together." "I know," the old man said.  "We were
probably sitting here naked as jaybirds fifty years ago."
"Well," Granny snickered, "What do you say. . .should we get naked?"
And the two stripped to the buff and sat down at the table. "You know,
honey," the little old lady breathlessly replied, "My nipples are as
hot for you today as they were fifty years ago."
"I wouldn't be surprised," replied Gramps.  "One's in your coffee and
the other is in your oatmeal!"
(Submitted By Denarius)
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PinkConnections
(Alladdinn)

Well Guys and Gals it's time once again to see who made connections in
the Pink Triangle, and to check in on those continual lovers of the
cyberwaves!  Remember�this is NOT Gossip!  I do have some leads on a
few stories, but I will have to wait to see how everything pans out
before I clue ya'll in on what's happening.  Let's take a look as the
romance blossoms throughout OUR "Family" of the Pink Triangle!

Huck and Michael Boston

Hello Hello, You asked me some time back if I would write to you and
let you know about Huck and myself how we met etc....so here goes�
Huck and I (MichaelBoston) met a while back about a month or so in
Pink Triangle. He and this avatar of a really big dick up there on the
screen. I IM'd him and we started chatting and he and I chatted the
remainder of my and his time on Virtual Places. I gave him my number
and asked him to call me collect I was that impressed. He had said to
me that day before we exited VP he was impressed that I did not ask
him for phone or cyber sex we talked about alot of stuff other than
sex.
We talked that first night about tons of stuff mostly theatre since I
have a degree in it and he is now a dancer/actor/singer. I believe it
was fate and we clicked as I have never clicked with anyone before and
he felt the same. It was probably about a week or so before we
realized we were in love...alot of people scoffed but I really don't
care what people think, I KNEW I loved him.Another thing that blew my
mind besides meeting such a wonderful guy on the internet, was
the fact that he asked me to marry him and I didn't hesitate I was at
work and crying tears of joy and laughing at the same time. It was one
of the happiest moments of our lives. I took the next logical step...I
asked him to come up and live with me and he didn't hesitate one
iota...I sent him a ticket he came and he has been here since then. I
had the opportunity to introduce him to my family and he and I flew
down to Georgia to meet his. We are very happy and love each other. We
have two cats Isis and Huckelberry...I guess our kids but we don't
refer to them that way...we love animals but don't think of them as
our offspring...LOL!
Anywways if anyone wants to write to me or Huck, write to us at
[email protected] we would be happy to reply to anyone!! 
Have a good day all and remember when you least expect it you may meet
your fate in Pink Triangle!!!
___________________

If you have a meeting, a romance blossoming, or a wedding announcement
that you would like to share it with the PT Family, please feel free
to send it in to: [email protected] or you can catch me
in the room if you want.  I am always keeping my eye out for new
romantic encounters! *Wink*
Until next week my friends�Be Good, Play Safe and Be nice to those you
chat with in the room, you never know when you may be talking to your
prince or princess!
Love Always,
Chris
(Ali)
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Weekly Avatar Contest!

Each week there will be a panel of judges in the room throughout the
week checking out AV's.  The Catagories will change weekly, and will
be announced in PT News for the following week.  The WINNER(s) will
receive a personalized AV designed by youel that they can proudly wear
throughout the next week, until they have to pass the "Crown" on to
the next winner!  (You get to keep your personalized AV though!)  This
is all meant to be FUN, eventually everyone will have won!
Next weeks AV contest will consist of:  
1. BEST DRESSED (OR UNDRESSED) MALE.  
2. FEMALE
3. COUPLE 
4. FUNNY AV (cartoon or homemade)
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE, AND DON'T FORGET YOUR MANNERS!  PART OF THE
CONTEST IS ALSO CONGIENIALITY! LOL BE CREATIVE, AND MAY THE BEST
PERSON'S WIN! 
THIS WEEK'S AV WINNERS ARE AS FOLLOWS:
Best Male AV goes to Primebear
Best Female AV goes to the lovely Celine
Best couple AV goes to the newlyweds Jansgirl and Blisseful
CONGRATULATIONS FOLKS!! You can pick up your personalized winners AV
from either FreddieB, Alladdinn, or youel
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STORIES

TWO CHOICES
(Submitted By Conrad)

Jerry is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood
and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him
how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be
twins!" He was a unique manager because he had several waiters who had
followed him around from restaurant to restaurant.
The reason the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He
was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry
was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the
situation.
Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to
Jerry and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person
all of the time. How do you do it?" 
Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, & ls quo
Jerry, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood
or you can choose to be in a bad mood. & rsquo I choose to be in a
good mood. "Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a
victim or I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. 
"Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept
their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I
choose the positive side of life."
"Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested.
"Yes it is," Jerry said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut away
all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to
situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to
be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how
you live life."
I reflected on what Jerry said. Soon thereafter, I left the restaurant
industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought
about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it. 
Several years later, I heard that Jerry did something you are never
supposed to do in a restaurant business: he left the back door open
one morning and was held up at gunpoint by three armed robbers. While
trying to open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness, slipped
off the combination. The robbers panicked and shot him.
Luckily, Jerry was found relatively quickly and rushed to the local
trauma center. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care,
Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets
still in his body. 
I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how
he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Wanna see my
scars?"
I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through
his mind as the robbery took place. 
"The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have
locked the back door," Jerry replied. "Then, as I lay on the floor, I
remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or I could
choose to die. I chose to live."
"Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked.  Jerry
continued, "...the paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was
going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the
expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really
scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man. I knew I needed to
take action.
"What did you do?" I asked. "Well, there was a big burly nurse
shouting questions at me," said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to
anything."
"'Yes,' I replied. The doctors and nurses stopped working as they
waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Bullets!' Over
their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as
if I am alive, not dead'."
Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of
his amazing attitude. I learned from him that every day we have the
choice to live fully. 
Attitude, after all, is everything.
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UNCONDITIONAL LOVE 
(Submitted By JADE)

For all my friends and anyone who cares...I'm babysitting now, so I
can't be on as much...but never fear, I AM STILL ALIVE...LOL
                            
 A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after
having fought in Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco.
"Mom and Dad, I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a
friend I'd like to bring home with me." "Sure," they replied, "we'd
love to meet him."
"There's something you should know" the son continued, "he was hurt
pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an
arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him
to come live with us." "I'm sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help
him find somewhere to live." "No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with
us." "Son," said the father, "you don't know what
you're asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden
on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like
this interfere with our lives. I think you should
just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on
his own."
At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing
more from him. A few days later, however, they received a call from
the San Francisco police. Their son had died after
falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was
suicide. The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were
taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son.
They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered
something they didn't know, their son had only one arm and one leg.
The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love
those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like
people who inconvenience us or make us feel
uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as
healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are.
Thankfully, there's someone who won't treat us that way. Someone who
loves us with an unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever
family, regardless of how messed up we are.
Tonight, before you tuck yourself in for the night, say a little
prayer that God will give you the strength you need to accept people
as they are, and to help us all be more understanding of
those who are different from us!!!
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GESTURE CONTEST
A panel of judges are on the lookout for the TOP 10 weekly most played
gestures in the room during chat sessions.  We have several people who
are making their own gestures now, as well as the good ole standbye's
that we all use daily. We thought it would be kind of cute to see just
which one's got played the most during the week.  We had such a great
response last week that we decided to make it the TOP 10 most played
gestures.Again, this is all in FUN!  The TOP 5 weekly gestures will be
announced in the PT News on a weekly basis. 
Now�let's take a look at this week's Top 10 Gesture list
10 Fryin pan to the head
9   Durn it
8   Pillow toss
7   Kiss my entire ass
6   Tictoc
5   Frankie says relax
4   Are you drunk? I think your drunk
3   Betcha cant eat just one
2   Will cyber for oreos
AND NOW THE MOST PLAYED GESTURE OF THE WEEK:
1   Frisbee toss
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POETRY CORNER

"I feel as if writing a poem is my heart's way of living.   I find it
very therapeutic.  When things are down and you need to release, a
poem is a perfect way to feel because it can't talk back or try to
give solutions to your problem. Leaves it so you have to figure your
own answer out according to your needs and not someone else's."
(Krymson)

Friendship

There's a miracle called Friendship
That dwells in the heart
You don't know how it happens
Or where it gets its start
But the happiness it brings you
Always gives a special lift
And you realize that Friendship
Is God's most precious gift!
Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed.
They make you smile and encourage you to succeed
They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they
always want to open their hearts to us.
Show your friends how much you care...Blessings!
 (Submitted By Jade)
___________________
The Gift

A tingling curls around my heart
its tendrils reaching throughout my entire being
The light from within bursting forth
Blinding in its brightness
I feel the butterfly touches of your love
brushing my soul leaving in their wake
A wonderful peaceful residue
The genuine love you give
is a most beautiful gift
A priceless treasure I hold deep inside
to hold and caress
The thought of you gives me strength
gives me purpose and inspiration
Gives me courage to dare to dream again
to believe again
My heart pounds when you whisper my name
leaps as your touch burns my flesh
soars as you penetrate my soul
The light of you blinds my eyes
the love you give offers me shade
Your essence fills my entire being
shaking down the walls of distrust, the dust blown away
by your feathery impassioned kisses
The thought of you gives me the reason to go forth in life
The GIFT of you is a Wonderous thing!
With much love and friendship,
David
Xoxoxo
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Momento

I found a flower pressed in a book
Between two poems long unread.
I stared at the long time-brittled stem
And the once-bright petals now flat and dead.
I wondered what hand had once paused to pick it.
Did a ghost of its fragrance still haunt this room?
To whom was it given with love now forgotten?
Was he trapped here also in this small word-filled tomb?
What sweet lost remembrance did this dried blossom hide,
Amongst its faded red petals so flat and so dead?
The memory more faded than the flower
Now returned to its prison between its jailers unread.
youel
original: 11/09/89
revised 04/06/96
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To all my friends at PT. (Hope you enjoy this little note to a man who
broke my heart)

So many times I see your face, but as for you I cant replace.
If you look hard enough you will find, within my eyes, I am still
blind 
blind in way I cant forgive, I will haunt you for as long as you
live..
When you look inside it's me you see, looking for a way to break free,

still as high as I'm looking for ways for this to end. (I close my
eyes its you I see) 
Give me a way to break free..
You can run and you will hide, give me a wave to ride this tide, 
when the waves come crashing down, watch me come safely falling down, 
as I come up its you I see, looking down, looking down at me.
Take your eyes away, don't wanna see, those blood stained eyes focused
upon me.
Take this pride, hold it down never wanna see you hanging around, 
take my blood and drink it well, give me your soul, your soul to see, 
take a look think that your free, for its this face you will always
see, 
haunting you till your last breath, bringing you down to face your
death.
GoldieLox
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Embrace

Let your heart pour out
Let the tears you cry
Run down your face
Feel the pain and sorrow
as you miss his embrace
His warm breath that you
used to feel on your cheek
is now missing and the
memories are becoming bleak.
You had a vision of love
a beautiful story of happiness
but it was all shattered when the
reality broke the bliss.
You wonder every day if the
choice you made was right.
When you let him leave
when you didn't put up a fight.
He was so angry when he left
he stormed out of the door.
He jumped into his car
put the petal to the floor.
He was passing the tracks
as the train came closer.
He tried so hard to pass.
He tried to go faster.
But he didn't make it
the train came barreling down
He begged God to save him
But now he is a part of the ground.
You sit and think of the fight.
The last time you kissed him
the last time you made love.
You didn't know that would be the last
time that you would hold him.
Let you heart pour out
Let the tears you cry
Run down your face.
Feel the pain and sorrow
as you miss his sweet embrace.
(Krymson)
Well that is it, I wrote out of complete sorrow and grief and if
anyone has ever lost a very close loved one you can relate to my
feelings when I wrote it.
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A NOTE FROM ALI: We have some wonderful Poets among our "Family". If
you have poetry you would like to submit, Please feel free to send it
in to us. What we don't print one week, we will keep on file and use
the following week.
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AIDS TRIBUTE

This column in dedicated to those of our family that are dealing with
AIDS in one way or another. Most of us either have loved ones or know
of people who are suffering from this deadly disease.
This is simply a means of support to those in our family that are
dealing with the pain that goes along with this. We would like to form
a support group of some kind for those that are dealing with this
pain. If anyone is interested in helping us form this support group,
or has any ideas�Please email us at: ([email protected]).
Sometimes it helps to get through the rough times if we have someone
to talk to that has also gone through similar circumstances. 

SUNLOVER
(Fairymoon)
  
I know that most of the people in Pt have lost someone they cared
about to AIDS. I lost one this past week. He wasn't a long time friend
or a past lover but a very special man to me none the less. I have
spoken about him with a few of my friends in Pt, now I want to share
our story with everyone. Since we rarely use real names in PT I will
call my friend Sunlover because he loved tropical places.
I met my friend Sunlover when he was first admitted to the nursing
home where I work as a nurse's aide. He had just been released from
the hospital after a bad spell of AIDS related pneumonia and his Dr.
felt he could no longer live alone. Can you imagine how he must have
felt being 39 in a nursing home full of old people? At first he really
fought losing his independence. He was never afraid to tell why he was
there .He readily admitted that he was gay. Which didn't please all of
the staff.
He wanted to leave at first that is when my lover and I talked to him
and told him that we were gay. We felt that he would feel more
comfortable if he knew he wasn't alone. After that he was our friend
for life. I have never seen anyone show more courage than he did.
Sunlover was a long time survivor of the disease. He was diagnosed at
the age of 26 and continued to live his life to the fullest. Never did
I see his courage waver not even at the end. Wait, that's not
completely true I did see him falter once when he couldn't understand
why some of the staff who call themselves professional acted afraid of
him. Nothing breaks my heart more than to see that kind of ignorance.
I sat with him that day and tried to explain that it wasn't him that
they saw but his disease. I couldn't really explain something to him
through that I myself have never understood.
He was very lucky because he had three of the most understanding and
loving siblings I have ever had the pleasure to meet. They came when
he was very sick with an infection and sat round the clock by his
bedside. Holding his hand and laughing and crying with him. When the
worst was over they went home. Two of them are from out of state but
through it all they kept in touch. Unfortunately his death was sudden
and they were unable to be with him.
I can not tell you how much knowing Sunlover has meant to me. Nor can
I tell you how much easier it has made being out of the closet for me.
If a man with all his problems can walk with his held high and
continue to in enjoy his life then someone like me with all that I
have (friends, family close by, and good health) should be able to
face the world each day with pride. That is what am plan on doing too.
I will no longer feel shame for who I am .I will no longer apologize
for being gay. For some of the greatest people I have known are gay
with AIDS and all of them have possessed a courage that few of us will
ever know.
I felt a deep sadness when I walked into work today knowing he wasn't
there but I also felt a great joy and even a since of relief. Joy
because I had the pleasure of knowing him and having his love for I
know that he gave that sparingly. Relief because his journey through
hell is finally over and he can have the rest that a soul like his
deserves.
Thanks for letting me share my friendship and feelings about Sunlover
.I really wish each and every one of you could have met him for I know
that you would have loved him as much as I did. He knew most of you
because of the stories I would tell him and I shared a few of your
bios with him. I was very lucky to have him for a friend and I also
feel the same about all of you guys.    
Love always,
Fairymoon

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Ruben
(Taken by permission from RuLauro's website)

This letter was written by RuLauro's late lover Ruben who past away of
AIDS a year ago this past Tuesday. It was taken from the website that
RuLauro designed as a memorial for Ruben. If you'd like to visit this
site and pay your respects, you will find the website address in the
Website section of the paper. Our love and support go out to you
RuLauro, in this time of remembrance!

Lent has always been a transitional time of  the year for me. I have
seen many ups and downs in my life, but none so illuminating as Lent.
One experience, in particular is what has given me "New Life" and with
it, "Peace."  In 1990, I was given some news from my Physician that I
was diagnosed with HIV. It was the most horrible thing that ever
happen to me. I had my own business, an Ambulance Service, and was a
Paramedic. My life seemed to have been moving in a positive direction,
until I was diagnosed with HIV. I tried to be emotionally strong and
so continued with my business as though I never heard the news that I
was infected.
In 1993, I entered Stage 1 of AIDS. I began to suffer Opportunistic
Infections that are infections occurring a person who has depleted
Immune System. I was experiencing Fevers, Nausea and Vomiting and was
taking some strong medication for HIV and other viruses. Once I
entered AIDS, I decided to close my company in 1994. It was a sad
moment for me. A positive era in my life had come to end. What were my
options now?It was at this point that entered a severe depression. I
was convinced that the only option I had was to die. It seemed like a
good idea. I got involved with the purest of  evil COCAINE. It was
beautiful. I had saturated my body so much with this evil that it
became like a second skin to me. It was very recognizable and
comforting. When I was high, I forgot.
I thought I found my answer, my life force. My God. This boy was smart
but no brains. I had allowed myself to beconvinced that this Cocaine
was my Salvation and with it I sank even deeper into depression. So, I
decided to consider my "option" and to leave this world. I had to end
it. But How? One obstacle stood in my way if my god (cocaine) was not
the real God, then by killing me, I would be spitting in his face.
Throwing back to God the very life that he gave me. What the hell was
gonna do it.
I confided in a dear friend who convinced me to take a personal
retreat at the Corpus Christi Benedictine Monastery. I guess I
conceded to go because I had nothing to lose. I arrived on Ash
Wednesday 1995 and I was met by a wonderful man, the Abbot, who was
familiar with my problem and told me this, "Leave everything at the
front gate . . . your family,your friends, your problems, your God and
come in here to find yourself." OK. I figured this man wasn't playing
with a full deck of cards. The Jokers were there, but he seemed a few
Aces shy of a full deck. I agreed to consider what he told me since I
wasn't playing with a full deck either.
As I entered, without my cocaine of course, I felt something I had not
felt in a very long time . . . a Presence. A positive presence, but
still vague and intangible. After a considerable amount of prayer and
reflection. I was still unconvinced of this God. One thing I did find
out, I was scared to die. I wanted something so bad that I didn't even
have the strength to face it. Death. I longed for it, yet I wanted it
so far away from me. WHY, GOD, WHY?
I finally came to terms with myself when I was allowed to enter the
Monastery Infirmary. It is built like a hospital ward and there were
several Monks there who were being cared for. One Monk, in particular,
was dying from cancer. He was a frail old man who appeared tired and
withered. But, he shone. Illuminated in something that I was yet to
see. I had the opportunity to be in the room when he died. It was the
most beautiful sight I ever saw . . . and I didn't fear it. As this
brotherclosed his eyes and breathed his last the Monks and Nuns began
chanting "Jesus is coming for you, Jesus is coming for you." At that
moment, I saw ILLUMINATION. This monk was totally at peace and was
crossing over to a new Life. I was overwhelmed with tears and again
the illumination. I had never had contemplative experience in my
entire life . . . until now.
I was cleansed. I released all my pain, and suffering, all my doubt
and I surrendered to God. The true God. I fell unconscious an awoke,
NEW.
realize that I was given a gift. A wonderful gift. And this gift was
born from AIDS, It may not sound like a gift everyone wants, but with
it came illumination and salvation. I have been given the opportunity
to live life to its fullest and to begin to show compassion, love,
humility. To reach out to others in pain, to bring them and myself
peace. I am 31 years old. Jesus was 33 when he was crucified. So I
had, indeed, lived a full life. Now I take all this pain and suffering
and turn it into illumination. I walk my Calvary for just a short time
to transition over to Eternal Life. What is that anyway? I don't know
it's forever. Everlasting Peace and Love and the abilities to
transform into Christ's Kingdom are not so bad after all. As a
Catholic Community Staff member I chose the name EmmausCC. When Christ
appeared to the disciples on the road to Emmaus they did not recognize
him. Why? He was transformed Body and Soul. It was a real physical,
supernatural transformation. I want it so I came home. Home to my
faith. Catholicism.
Now I am free. I am whole; I am a child of God. And when I am called
home to the new life. I will see the dimensions of all the universes
God has created and continues to create and give Eternal Thanksgiving
to the Christ who did not fear Death. He opened His arms wide to die
for Humanity. I am part of Humanity; we are all part of Humanity and a
part of each other. I am glad to be Alive.I now have been drug free
since Ash Wednesday of 1995. I have embraced my Catholicism and my
God. I live life for him and for me. My disease led me to my
Salvation. It is tough my trials and tribulations that I have
discovered Christ, His Love and Forgiveness from all my wrongdoing. He
is my salvation. Lent is now my time of reflection, self-examinationof
my sins (for I am human) and a total forgiveness of self. My
transformation is from the heart. That is where life begins and ends.
But, not end in our definition of the word. End as in a beginning. "I
am the Alpha and Omega. The beginning and the End" 
I am cleansed and ready for whatever God wants me to do, thy will be
done. Now I engross myself with knowledge and understanding of what is
around me. It brings me closer to God. And no longer fear Death. I am
Alive. I conclude with a quote from Morris L. West's book "The Shoes
of the Fisherman." Never, therefore, can we aim too high in the search
for Knowledge, For every step toward knowledge is a step closer to
unity. With man with man, with men with the Universe, with the
Universe with God . . .
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MISTY'S DRAG BAG

You will find that I am a down to earth person who listens and cares
about what happens to other people, even though I may not know them
very well. It is my nature, not my pick up technique.
Life must be hard for you all. Being Gay, Lesbian, Bi-sexual or
Straight isn't easy. It's so hard to choose which label to use isn't
it? We use so many labels for different reasons that it is a wonder we
have any personal identity left. People are always calling us
something. 
Male/female, old/young, black/white, bitch/bastard to name a few. Each
of us is labelled by others and ourselves but that is never the total
of who or what we are.
In the room I am the Male Gay Drag Queen from Australia who is 31
years old. I am Misty Meanor. I am a friend. I am caring. I am funny,
a bitch, intelligent, a faggot and so many other labels. But more
importantly than all that, I am me.
I am proud to be me. I am not proud to be any of the other labels
although I like to be some of them but my pride come from me just
simply being able to be me.
Misty is the name that I gave myself to represent my drag persona.
Xxxanadu is the name that I gave myself in VP to represent the
non-drag persona. Some of you know my birth name, and
maybe Ashlee can include that as a trivia question sometime. Ask me
anything and I will tell you.
Next time you think about someone, and it could be your best friend or
one of the bashers that come into the room, think about the labels
that you are attaching to that person, for underneath all the labels
is a person. Who has a life and maybe problems and reasons for their
actions.
Then maybe you'll find new labels, like sympathy or friend.
Until next week,
Lots of Luck and Love
Misty
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FETISH CORNER

LEATHER
(Primebear)

SMACK... Ahhhh. SMACK.... AHhhh. SMACK.... AHHhh. SMACK.... AHHHh. 
SMACK... AHHHHH. Sorry Bi-grrl but I had to get that spanking out of
the 
way. It was much needed and felt so goooooood!

Hello Family. You won't believe how many times I have written this
letter or should I say written this column. Would you believe 6 times.
I write it, look at it, read it, delete it. I'm not a perfectionist by
far but every time I read it, I just don't know. I think I should have
deleted this one too.
As most of you know, and those who don't will soon, that the LEATHER
Community is a very important part of who I am. It is a well ordered
and disciplined community. Full of rules, codes and
brotherhood.Something I needed when I came out. Being Military at that
time (which most of us knows has a hell of a lot of rules and
regulations) made the transition into the Leather Community a hell of
a lot easier than I've seen some people who decided they wanted to
belong to the Leather Community. I already had the rules and
discipline part down pat.
I was introduced into the Community by a slave who I met in Oceanside,
California. I met this slave in one of the two gay bars Oceanside has.
Oceanside is a city supported by Camp Pendleton Marine Corp Base. This
slave was a Marine (a well built one too. Damn.) and he asked me if I
wanted to go to Los Angeles with him the following weekend to meet his
Master. What the hell I thought. Like my dance card was totally empty
so that weekend came and we went up to Los Angeles to a bar that his
Master owned. I forgot the name of it but it was located right across
the street from Paramount Studio. Would you believe Laverne and
Shirley and Happy Days studios were right around the corner. Am I
dating myself or what. Anyway, I was introduced to his Master and
things went from there. The bar was open territory. There were no
rules as far as conduct. The staff just looked the other way or at
least pretended to. This bar was also HOME to one of the Motorcycle
Clubs in L.A. Needless to say it was a very interesting night. I was
invited several times to participate in some of the activities that
were going on. Playing pool was a joke because someone would be tied
down to it all the time and they looked like they were having fun. The
guys were hot. You'd see Masters with their slaves. The Master would
have a chain connected to the slaves collar and the slave spoke ONLY
when the Master wanted him to speak. Other Masters would be sitting
down on the benches with their slaves sitting on the floor cleaning
the Masters boots and they weren't using rags, it was tongue cleaned.
The dress code seemed basic Leather. You know, black Leather caps,
black Leather Vest, black Leather chaps, Levis 501's (had to be 501's.
nothing else would do), black Boots. Some would wear harness's made of
Leather or chain. Tit rigs galore. Left, right, or both. Some guys
would have a chain attached to their 501s and went into their groin so
either that chain was attached to a prince albert or it became his
cock ring. Very nice baskets. Seems some of these guys were poured
into the jeans. 
After the bar closed, we went to my friends Masters house. His Master
told me that I was free to watch or participate in the activities that
night. I asked if I could watch then join in when I felt a little bit
at ease, he said no problem and we went to the basement. This basement
was a play room and well ordered. In the middle of the room was a
sling. There was a chain link fence in that room. Paddles with holes,
studs, no holes, made of leather, or wood on the walls. Hoods and gags
neatly displayed. Handcuffs, leg irons in their proper places. A
stretch machine (for lack of any other words to describe it). Rope,
leather straps, chains. Tit clamps, ball stretchers, Dildo's laying
neatly on a bench. Lube and candles everywhere. Amyl Nitrate was
everywhere. All that was missing as far as I could see was the Iron
Maiden. Damn, this was a dungeon.
Well Steve (my friend) was told by his Master to get into the sling.
(Steve was of course was naked). He did as he was told. His Master
took the tit clamps and clamped them on Steve's tits, then the Leather
straps and strapped Steve's arms and legs to the sling. Took a hit of
amyl nitrate and started playing with Steve. He grabbed the whip and
started whipping Steve. Welts were appearing but Steve flinched everso
lightly. His Master was insulting him, down grading him and all Steve
could do was agree. I was asked to pick a paddle and bring it over. 
I did so and gave it to the Master. He started paddling Steve. The
Master asked if I wanted to do anything to Steve. (Guess he was
checking to see if I had any imagination.) I told him I wanted to tie
Steve's balls up and pour hot wax on Steve. The Master smiled and told
me to do so. I did. I took the leather straps on the bench and tied up
Steve's balls. Separating them quite well. Then I took the candle and
started pouring hot wax on Steves chest making a line down to his
groin. Steve flinched again but asked for more. I grabbed more tit
clamps and just started placing them where ever I could. Steve was
getting too excited and his Master was just having a ball watching
me. Steve asked to cum but his Master ordered him to hold it in until
he came. Eventually I got horny enough to pull out my dick and fuck
Steve. Didn't take long, his Master started yelling and releasing the
pressure, I was cumming and yelling and finally Steve came but kept
quite. I was told by the Master to untie Steve so I did and Steve went
over to his Master to take care of cleaning him up. I went upstairs
and showered. When I was done and came back out to the livingroom,
Steve and his Master was upstairs. Steve had a grin on his face and
his Master 
seemed quite rested. I was asked by the Master if I would stay the
weekend and return next weekend. I agreed.
Well, I got to end this chapter for this weeks news. I need to get
dressed and find a bar to play in tonight. Damn got a tad bit excited
and need to relieve these tensions I have. Next week I'll talk about
some of the ceremonies I attended and a camping trip with this
organization.
Now where the hell did I pack that whip???
PrimeBear
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Watersports 
(Author unknown)

Watersports: The word itself carries many different meanings for many
different people.  I speak not of the those sports which are played in
the water, such as waterpolo, or swimming laps.  I am speaking of the
sexual act known as Watersports. This sexual act has many other names
and is also commonly called "golden showers." Yes that's exactly what
I'm talking about.  Pissing on your partner or partners in a sexual
way so as to enhance arousal. 
Does this actually enhance arousal?  For some it does, for others it
doesn't. It depends on the person or persons involved. Think of it as
a type of sexual orientation. Some people like women, and others do
not. This is something that one must discover for one's self with
someone that is trusted greatly. And it doesn't only have to be ONE
other person. Some people prefer sex in groups to enhance arousal.
Pissing in groups can also be interesting in that there will be
different tastes. Tastes in terms of desires, and tastes in terms of
the actual sense of taste.  Some people have very weak piss, and some
have strong piss. People also have different preferences in terms of
which they would rather taste.  
Strong piss is usually more yellow and carries with it a very very
strong taste. Weaker piss will be more clear, and carries a weak taste
and may be easier to swallow if one should desire to do so.  The taste
is something that cannot easily be described. Unlike some foods or
beverages, piss smells much differently than it tastes.  However,
strong smelling piss indicates that it does carry a strong taste.
Unlike other beverages, such as coffee or alcohol, which both allow
you to anticipate the taste based on it's smell, piss will not afford
you such a luxury.  One must be prepared for a myriad of different
tastes, based on what their partner or partners have had to drink
shortly before piss play begins.
Different beverages can enhance or detract from the taste of one's
piss. In my experience, light beer and water are the best beverages to
use. These cause a very weak piss taste, and can increase the
abundance of urine for longer and wetter piss play. For those who
prefer stronger piss, one can ask their partner or master to consume
coffee or stronger beer, such as bock beers which contain a higher
level of alcohol, and compare in terms of taste to a strong cup of
coffee, versus a weak cup of coffee. For extra fast pass through, one
might consume an electrolyte beverage with can pass through the body
in as little as 10 to 15 minutes and carries a weaker taste. However,
over consumption of these beverages can actually become detrimental to
the body. For further information on this, you can run a search on the
world wide web for Watersports information. One especially helpful
site (mentioned here without prior permission from the pages author)
is www.pigmedia.com where one can learn things from actual doctors
about the art of piss play, and also view pictures of these acts in
the process.  This will give one a better idea of what is involved,
and perhaps spark some creativity in the mind of the viewer.
There are various forms of piss play, ranging from the "wet-jeans"
type, to the other end of the spectrum; drinking piss. Wet jeans
involves one or both partners (assuming only two are involved) pissing
in their own pants and then engaging in sexual acts without any
cleansing of the clothing or the body, beforehand. This can be
especially pleasurable to the partners if the purpose of the piss is
to cause a feral, or animal-like scent on one or more of the partners.
This scent (going back to the less evolved man) was possibly once used
to mark territories or sexual conquests, and can reawaken that animal
passion within the partners involved.  Some wet jeans participants
merely like the site of a man's piss soaking through his jeans.  If it
is for visual appeal only, then any type of beverage would be
acceptable before hand. Some prefer only to be pissed on, and not to
consume any of their partner's or master's piss. Of course, in the
case of a master\slave relationship, that is entirely up the dominant
partner. For the purpose of pissing on a partner, the same beverage
preferences apply once again.  Is it visual appeal, or scent, or both.
Again, the weakness of the piss is a factor, so please refer back the
beverage recommendations above.
Whether you call it Watersports, piss play, or a golden shower, the
pleasure that can be achieved from experimenting with this form of sex
can give new spice to an older relationship, or even spark a new
relationship to higher levels of passion and pleasure.  
One last concern that must be addressed, is the transmission of
diseases.  Yes, the drawback to modern society and modern
experimentation with sex is the ever-present threat of disease.
Although piss carries a very small viral load, it may be possible to
transmit disease through the urine stream.  We must remember that
pissing is the bodies way of eliminating contaminants.  Diseases are
among these contaminants that are eliminated. If one or more of the
people involved are infected with the HIV virus, or any other disease,
it would be advisable to consult your physician before participating
in the consumption of a partner's urine.  This can sometimes be
embarrassing, so you may wish to consult (once again) the world wide
web for information about how to prevent the spread of HIV or other
diseases during piss play.  Another factor is drug use.  Not only
illicit drugs, but the drugs used in the treatment of such diseases as
HIV.  One partner may not wish to consume the excreted drugs of the
other partner.  It must also be taken into account that these drugs,
although having been through the system of one partner, are not
necessarily inactive, and therefore one must consider the effects of
these drugs before piss play begins.
This is not something for the weak of heart or the weak of stomach,
but if it sounds like something enjoyable, then it probably is. All
that is to be lost is fear, and a LOT of piss. Enjoy the shower, and
wet dreams to all.
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SCREEN NAMES

As you remember last week I asked how people chose their screen name.
We received a
wonderful response from this from our readers! I hope you enjoy
discovering how we each created our screen name identities.
If you'd like to share how you chose your screen name, please feel
free to send in to: [email protected]
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HOLLIANNE/KRYMSYN

This is about the screen names.
At first I came in the room as Hollianne.  The reason I picked that
one is because that is my name.  And I was lucky that no one had it.
But when VP did their changing of things I was not in the Vp Chat with
that name any more.  I had to pick another one, so I did.
I picked Krymsyn, due to the fact that I am a redhead.  And I thought
that would be appropriate.  
Hollianne/Krymsyn


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GOLDIE

Hi Guys, Its me Goldie� AKA Bernie� 
To the family that have known me since last December�
I came into the room as Bernie, A female of 24 then.  I looked around
to see a selected few. I met a Girl Tatouine and Ashlee, Amanda & a
few others.  I loved the chat, and was excited to meet new people on
the net.
After the first few days, the was a rumor going around that I (bernie)
was a guy, and had a argument with a guy named Gander (a buddy now)
think his name was leesboytoy back then, and he was questioning me on
my agenda� Finally I convinced the gang that I was a Girlie and,
decided to change my name�(I was also getting hit on by men) Bernie is
a guys name as well.  So I was looking into names and said to myself
(Self) you have Golden hair, long, and you have Locks�You should
become GoldieLox� And from there, I have become GoldieLox� I want to
thank the gang for welcoming me into the family (as a mug) and want to
thank you guys for letting be me and, helping me face the fact that
its ok to have bi thought and, Its ok to be yourself. I also think as
receiving my first copy of pt news, Its A Great Read�
Until Later�
Goldielox
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DevilDaddy

Greetings!  In response to your invitation to share the origins of our

screen names, I offer the following:
"Devildaddy" is not as ominous a name as it's been made out to be.  I
get IM's all the time asking me if I'm really a devil, other times
it's someone asking me to be their "daddy".  Simply put, the "Devil"
part 
comes from my love of the National Hockey League's New Jersey Devils
(the 1995 Stanley Cup Champions - take THAT, Ranger fans!) and the
"daddy" part of my screen name is a hint at my physical appearance.  I
am 39 years old with a moustache, goatee, somewhat balding, hairy and
a little on the paunchy side.  Typical of what gay men refer to as the
"daddy" type.  Not so evil, was it?
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RuLauro
The screen name "RuLauro" has a special meaning to Ru because it is a
combination of his name and his late partners name. If you have
visited RuLauro's website for his departed lover, you know his name is
Larry and his lover's name was Ruben. Together they created the screen
name that would set Ru apart, as well as show the bond between he and
his lover. Thus�RuLauro!
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 maryc26

Hi freddie thanks for letting me get the PTNEWS I got my name the same
way you did considering I'm not very imaginative, and  I prefer to use
my real name. I really love all you guys in the room and have a lot of
fun talking to you!!! Hope to see the next PT NEWS  soon thanks again
for the opportunity to receive it maryc36 just a little FYI my
birthday is June 16, well talk to you later when I see you in the room

Lot's of love 
maryc36

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CLASSIFIEDS

WANTED: New frying pan for FreddieB. Seems to have worn his out
hitting ScrewDriver over the head one too many times. Prefer cast iron
for better quality sound and intensity of impact. Will pay top dollar
and even will consider used model.

WANTED: Hurricane party kit and rollaway beds. Alladdinn and FreddieB
may be hosting a slumber party to the South and Central Florida
hurricane refugee boys of the Pink Triangle. Damin, youel, bboy, and
space may have to evacuate and flee to PT NEWS Headquarters. Well,
forget the rollaways, we'll just push the beds together and have a
good ole time talking some girl talk. WOO HOO!!

WANTED: Bios for the PT NEWS. Just some information about yourself so
the family can get to know you better. Always welcome each week. Be
prepared to be asked, we're not to proud to beg!

MISSING: Very attractive, young, witty, funny female that answers to
the name Branwenslove. Last seen in the vicinity of the Pink Triangle
sporting a new vehicle last month. If anyone has seen or heard from
this lovely lady, please tell her that her "family" misses her very
much. Reward offered for any information leading to her whereabouts. 
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ANNOUNCEMENTS

Hello all! Just a short note to let everyone know that Mamma Tak, aka
Misstress Tat, aka Tatouine, aka Tatourine wanted me to tell everyone
that she is taking a short hiatus from the Pink Triangle and the PT
NEWS.  She has put her internet service on hold for 2-4 weeks to spend
time with hubby BJ and her two adorable children, plus, as she put
it"...I gotta get this house in
order...".  Although she will be GREATLY missed during her "seclusion"
from the PT, just know that she will return, with her sometimes
caustic but always funny sense of style.  We love you Tatourine and
you will be sorely missed. Hurry back into chat cause I know quite
alot of us need to be flogged, both with your tongue and your
whips....
Also, she wanted everyone to know that she will be working on some
poems and stories and they will all be submitted once she gets her
internet service up and running, so expect to see a mass bombardment
of her works in just a few weeks.
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PET CORNER
(Fairymoon)

Sorry that I have been away so long but with the move now complete I
am ready to start writing my pet column again. So since I have so much
experience with moving I thought I would write about moving and pets.
One of the first things to do is make sure where you are moving to
will allow pets. In my case I was moving to a house I owned so that
wasn't a problem. Next if you are moving to a city check the
ordinances. This I had a problem with and will let you know how it
goes in court. Seems they don't care if a 4-year-old let the dog loose
or not.   Poor baby doesn't know the difference between city and
country.
   Try to save moving the pets to the last thing. You don't want them
to get hurt or lost while moving the furniture. Once you are settled
in give them about three days to get use to the house. If you have a
cat try to place the littler box in the same room as the old house.
Keep them inside for the first few days to let them get accustomed to
the new area. Animals tend to wonder off looking for their old hunting
grounds. 
Now has anyone seen a small gray kitten? Oh wait there it is packed
with the kitchen stuff. I guess the kids' thought it was breakable. 

Well till next time, keep stroking those pussies (get your dirty
little minds out of the gutter).
Your pet-know-it-all,
Fairymoon
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TRIVIA TRIANGLE ANSWERS

OKAY HOW DID YOU DO??????????????
Here are the answers for this weeks trivia triangle.
1.) The names of the two theme nights are tuesday or toonsday (as
worry
puts it) and thursday night is nudey night.
5 points each ==10 points
2.) Primebears 3 fourlegged boys are cats.(give yourself 5 points)
Their
names are Teddy, Cubbie and Bear. 5 points      each == 20 points
3.) Down2 or Downie lives in Alberta Canada. 10 points
4.) Primebear said he would never do a brown hanky as in the hanky
codes he
discused in the ptnews. 10 points.               Primebear wears his
hanky
in his back left pocket (10 points) and it means dominance or
incharge. 10
points =     30 points. 
5.) According to Denarius in the pt news the BLUE WHALE has the
biggest
penis in the animal kingdom having         an 11 foot penis. 10 points
each
==20 points
6.) Shymom or PTmoms two sets of boy are Goose and Gander , and
Freddie and
Alladdinn. 5 points each= 20    points.
7.) Alladdinn was wearing an AVof a puppy in his av the night he met
Freddie.
(10 points) . It was significant because the day he met Freddie in
person he was carrying a stuffed puppy dog. (10 points) ==20 points.
So how did you do?  There were 130 points total.
Scores and Ratings
5 to 40 points -- if you are ever going to get out of this range you
need
back issues of  ptnews.
45 to 90 points-- wow you are getting good at this game seriously if I
did
not know the answers I would be in this range this week.
90 points and up-- wow I think you probably know more about this room
than
I ever will im me with more questions if you know them.
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Websites from a few of our "Family" members for you to check out!

http://www.geocities.com/SiliconValley/Hills/9675 This site has been
developed by RuLauro as a memorial for his late lover Rueben.  This
week marks the year anniversary of Rueben's death from AIDS.  Please
visit this site in respect and support of RuLauro. He has begun a new
journey with the love and companionship of Romy. We all have known
someone who has passed on from AIDS, let's show our support as a
family by paying our respects!
http://www.fortunecity.com/village/newcompton/466 Master Rex's
incredible PT News information site. This site contains past and
present issues of the PT News, as well as information about Virtual
Places and much more! You will not want to pass this one up! We all
thank you Master Rex for working so hard to provide us with this site.
This site will wonderful for the newbies that have joined our family
to catch up on what's been happening in the Pink Triangle!
http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/Park/1756 The Geesboy's Home
Page.  This site contains pictures and the love story about how the
two lovebirds met and fell in love.  This site is still under
construction, but you wouldn't want to "fly" over this one!
http://www.freeyellow.com/members4/pastorpat/page1.html Maxam's
Titan's of Pink Triangle site.  Maxam has done a wonderful job
capturing all of our av's, combining them with a biography and
quotations.  He even thought enough about the bashers to include them
in this site.  What a guy!
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EMAIL ADDRESSES AND INFORMATIONAL MATERIAL ABOUT COMING OUT:

Organizations 
The Human Rights Campaign
1101 14th St., N.W., Suite 200
Washington, DC 20005
202-628-4160
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National Coming Out Project 
1-800-866-6263
http://www.hrc.org 

The National Gay and Lesbian Task Force
2320 17th St., N.W.
Washington, DC 20009 
202-332-6483 
http://www.ngltf.org 

Parents, Families and Friends of Lesbians and Gays (PFLAG)
1101 14th St., N.W., Suite 1030 
Washington, DC 20005 
202-638-4200 
http://www.pflag.org 

Lambda Legal Defense & Education Fund
120 Wall St, Suite 1500 
New York, NY 10005 
212-809-8585 
http://www.lambdalegal.org 

National AIDS Hotline
1-800-342-AIDS 
1-800-344-7432 (Spanish)
1-800-243-7889 (T.T.D.) 
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National Black Lesbian & Gay Leadership Forum
1436 U St., N.W., Suite 200 
Washington, DC 20009 
202-483-6786 
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National Latino/a Lesbian & Gay Organization (LLEGO)
1612 K St., NW Suite 5 
Washington, DC 20006 
202-466-8240 
http://www.LLEGO.org 

BiNET USA 
P.O. Box 732
Langley Park, MD 20787
202-986-7186
http://www.norn.org/pub/brc/binet.html 

National Center for Lesbian Rights
870 Market St., Suite 57
San Francisco, CA 94107
415-392-6257
http://www.nclrights.org 

CDC National AIDS Clearinghouse
800-342-AIDS
http://[email protected] 

National Association of People With AIDS
1413 K St., N.W., 7th Fl.
Washington, DC 20005
202-898-0414
http://[email protected] 

National Minority AIDS Council
1931 13th St., N.W.
Washington, DC 20009
202-483-6622 
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More On-line Resources:
Out Proud, The NationalCoalition for Gay, Lesbian, and Bisexual Youth:
http://www.outproud.org 
Queer Resources Directory
http://www.qrd.org 
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Books

The Human Rights Campaign takes part in the Barnes and Noble Affiliate
program. Your purchase of any of the following books via our website
will help support the National Coming Out Day Project.
Beyond Acceptance
Griffin, Carolyn Welch and Marian J. Wirth & Arthur G. Wirth, 
St. Martin's Press. 
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BI Any Other Name: Bisexual People Speak Out
Hutchins, Loraine, ed., and Lani Kaahumanu,
Alyson Press 
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Homosexuality: The Secret a Child Dare Not Tell
Kaufan, Gershen & Raphael, Lev,
Doubleday. 
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Homosexuality: The Secret a Child Dare Not Tell
Cantwell, Mary Ann, 
Rafael Press. 
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Now That I'm out What Do I Do
Thoughts on Living Deliberately. McNaught, Brian, 
St. Martin's Press. 
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Now That You Know: What Every Parent Should Know About Homosexuality
Fairchild, Betty and Nancy Hayward,
HBJ. 
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One More River to Cross: Black and Gay in America
Boykin, Keith, 
Anchor Books. 
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Outstanding Lives: Profiles of Lesbians & Gay Men
Brelin, Christa & Michael J. Tyrkus, eds.,
Visible Ink Press 
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Passages of Pride: True Stories of Lesbian & Gay Teenagers
Chandler, Kurt, 
Alyson Press. 
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Transgender Warriors: A History of Resistance from Joan of ARC to
Rupaul Dennis. 
Feinberg, Leslie
Beacon Press. 
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Religious Organizations

Emergence International
e-mail [email protected]
PO Box 6061-423
Sherman Oaks CA 91413 
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Interfaith Working Group
P.O. Box 1170
Philadelphia, PA 19101
215-235-3050
http://www.libertynet.org/iwg/ 
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Dignity/USA (National Office)
1500 Massachusetts Ave., #N.W.
Washington, DC 20005
202-861-0017
800-877-8797
http://www.dignityusa.org 
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Affirmation: United Methodist for Lesbian, Gay and Bisexual Concerns
Evanston, IL 602
847-733-9590
[email protected]
http://www.concentric.net/Umaffirm/ 
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World Congress of Gay and Lesbian Jewish Organizations
P.O. Box 233
Washington, DC 20026-3379
http://www.wcgljo.org 
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The Association of Welcoming & Affirming Baptists
P.O. Box 2596
Attleboro Falls, MA 02763-0894
508-226-1945
[email protected]
http://members.aol.com/wabaptists/index.html 
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The United Methodist Church
The Reconciling Congregation Program
3801 N. Keeler Ave.
Chicago, IL 60641
773-736-5526
http://www.rcp.org 
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Interweave: Unitarian Universalists for Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and
Transgender Concerns
25 Beacon St.
Boston, MA 02108
617-742-2100
http://www.qrd.org/qrd/orgs/UUA/interweave.txt 
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Universal Fellowship of Metropolitan Community Churches
8704 Santa Monica Blvd., 2nd Fl.
West Hollywood, CA 90069
310-360-8640
http://www.ufmcc.com 
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Underwritten by a grant from the Colin Higgins Foundation in memory of
Robert H. Eichberg. Friend, activist, visionary, co-founder of
National Coming Out Day. 
The Human Rights Campaign
http://www.hrc.org 
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WOW!!!!!!!

Did I not tell ya it was going to be a superb issue?
A GREAT BIG "THANK YOU" goes out to all the writers and contributors
for making this issue of the PT News absolutely wonderful!! 
Until next week my friends,

Have a GREAT weekend!
FreddieB & Alladdinn