rambling written during crushes
what now?
what now? they say surely you must be over it by now? what do they know? what now? others have forced me to make the break i dreaded the break from you. how? what now? i must mask my true feelings to fit in to a world i don't belong in? what now? to pray for an end to it all before they poison even you against me? what now?
sunshine
sunshine, like you, takes away the pain
but when you leave, as i know you must
the pain returns like the rain
afterwards
i walk along the beach at sunrise my memories walk at my side memories of you the only memories worth having the most vivid when we last were here we walked along the waters edge together, wavesw lapping our ankles we both cried salt water flowing into salt water you held me i cried more you told me it would all be ok it's not ok though is it you've gone and there's nothing left salt water flows from my eyes the sea seems to be made up of tears our tears only my tears now a seagull swoops overhead like a free spirit your spirit is free now i miss you so much yet i didn't want you to go on in pain i don't want to go on in pain
bridge
when i'm alone
i'll never be lonely
for in my heart
i know you care
if it came down to it
we'd do anything for each other
well...i know i would
don't leave me
don't ever leave me
stick with me
like i stick with you
we are the two halves of a bridge
they should try to live my lifeour friendship is the cornerstone
holding us both together
we'd both collapse without it
if only you knew
if only you knew yet i can't tell you if you're one i'm the other you knowing would do no good it would only make it worse if only you knew how every touch reaches me but if you knew you may stop. touching at all it would make it worse if only you knew how i dream of holding you what i dream of us together but you must never know it would only make it worse
move on
i know you don't care
so it's time to move on
to find someone else
who'll return my trust
although i'll never forget you
the second you call
i'll come running back
like i always do
return for another beating
copyright 1995, mandy
take me home...