a few of my more recent ramblings

no way out

no way out
trapped
stuck inside my head
i can run, but i can't hide
no way out
no wonder they wont stop 
if my mind's off anyway
my private tangent
the most miserable of rollercoasters
no way out
why can't i just shut up?
why can't i just switch off?
why can't i just get out?
release, alas
no way out.

blind alley

faltering along

step by step

should know the way by now

should have learned to trust the guide

but waiting again to fall

when she

pulls the rug from under me

o b l i v i o n

escapology

clean or foul?
blunt or sharp?
up or down?
left or right?
who cares?
they all open the door
as the pain floods in
the pain is washed out
the explosive suffocation
gone for the blissfull instant
pain is cured by pain
the future?
continual agony

therapy?

a problem shared is a problem halved

"talk about it"

they don't understand

how every word

is a twist of the knife

push the knife harder

dig a little deeper

slice a little further

bleed a little longer

in the garden

it's much less work

to pour on new soil

than pull up the roots of the weeds

why does no one understand this

grow a new skin

repair the scars

seal the wound over

problem solved

copyright 1999, mandy

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