His breathing is even, on her face. She recalls the sensation of the
orgasms he gave her and wonders if they would have been any different if
she had completely consented, rather than saying no until the very end.
She raises her head and looks at him. He smiles at her. She loves his
smile, helplessly."You raped me," she says, but it does not sound like
an accusation. "Do you feel raped?" he asks. He does not seem to be
trying together to absolve him. "Yes," she answers. "And no. You did
something to me I did not want you to do. But, oh, it was wonderful."
"Are you angry with me?" he asks, and she considers this."Yes," she says
finally. "I want you to feel this way. I wish I could tie you up and
rape you." "I thought you might," he says. "But it will not be quite the
same, because I will be consenting, and you were not.""What do you mean,
it will?" she asks, and he smiles, gestures for her to wait, and goes to
the doorway to get his bag. When hereturns he is holding a dildo and a
leather apparatus and a tube of lubricant."If you wish," he says,
carefully laying each object on the floornext to her and avoiding her
eyes, "you may tie me up and rape me.""But you are asking me to do
this," she says, reaching for the dildo but drawing her hand back before
she has touched it."Not exactly," he answers. "I am not asking you to do
it; I am onlysaying that you may if you wish to.""Have you ever done
this before?" she asks, darting a look at him.He is sitting crosslegged
beside her, relaxed and easy."Raped someone? No. Had sex? Certainly."
His voice is calm, but hedoes not look at her."No, I mean, have you ever
had---that is, has anyone ever, youknow." She cannot bring herself to
say it. He is silent a moment; when she looks up, he is smiling again.
She blushes, but does not look away. "I should make you say what
youreally want to know," he says gently, "but I won't. No, I havenever
had anyone fuck me up the ass. I have a vague memory ofgetting an enema
as a child, but never I've never had anything inserted in my ass.""Do
you want me to do that?""The idea of being sodomized does not greatly
arouse me," he remarks,then adds: "But the thought of you wanton and in
control of my bodydrives me insane with lust."She finally picks up the
dildo, turns it over in her hands, examining it. It is about six inches
long, and thin, with smallbumps all over it and a flare at the base. The
plastic is cool andsmells faintly of disinfectant. She runs her fingers
over it, thensays: "Yes. I am going to tie you up and rape you."He nods,
then helps her don the leather harness that will hold thedildo to her.
She laughs when it is finished, at this small plasticcock protruding
from her. "I look so silly," she says."You look beautiful and fearsome,"
he tells her, and kisses each ofher palms. He lies on his back and she
binds his wrists to his ankles, as wellas she is able. She has already
made up her mind to do to himexactly what he has just done to her,
though before this night shehas never even seen a naked cock, let alone
taken one into hermouth. She reaches out and laces her fingers into his
hair; it is a gesture she sometimes makes with her own hair, when she is
nervousor unsure. He closes his eyes and opens his mouth slightly, and
onimpulse, she drops her hand to his mouth, dips her fingers inside. His
lips close over them and his tongue runs over the balls of herfingers;
she sighs at the unexpected flash of desire this givesher.She bends over
him and kisses his chest, over his sternum, then abruptly fastens her
mouth onto his nipple. His breath escapes himin a sharp gasp. She
withdraws her fingers from his mouth and biteshim."Yes," he murmurs, his
voice coming out in a sibilant whisper."You like to be bitten?" she asks
in surprise."Occasionally," he answers, opening his eyes. She continues
to meethis gaze as she lowers her head and bites him again, this time
onhis pectoral muscle. A hum of pleasure greets this. "Odd," she says,
and moves her hand to his cock, half limp andstill sticky. With one
finger, she traces a vein from his balls towhere it disappears beneath
the crown, then runs her fingertiparound the head, following his
circumcision scar. The skin bunchesbelow the helmet, puckered and soft.
A poor surgeon removed hisforeskin, but she discovers that what remains
is remarkably sensitive, and she spends some time playing her fingers
over it, while she works up the courage to suck him.Finally she reaches
out and tentatively places her tongue againstthe shaft of his cock. He
makes no sound or motion, and she curls her tongue into a point, and
lets it follow the trail her fingerhas made moments before. She hears
his head shift and a longcontented moan emerges under her hand, resting
on his stomach.She cups his balls shyly with her other hand, feeling the
coolloose skin and the hairs growing there. Beneath his ball sac his
anus flexes erratically, as if it is periodically remembering whatshe is
going to do to it. Taking a deep breath, she kisses his penis. Her lips
open, almostof their own accord, and take the tip in. He tastes strongly
of herown sex, sharp and fragrant and almost a little bitter. She
cannotget more than two or three inches into her mouth before she
beginsto gag, so she contents herself with sucking hard what she can
getin, and alternately stroking and pushing at his balls. His headrocks
from side to side, but he seems only to be enjoying himself."I want to
put it in you now," she tells him, holding his cock in onehand and
rubbing her saliva into the skin and the dark curls.He opens his eyes
again and takes a deep breath. "Okay," he says,at length. "Use a lot of
lubricant, and go very slowly."She pats around on the floor for the tube
of lubricant, and findingit, she kneels back to apply it to his asshole.
He squirms when thecold gel touches his skin, and she does not pause to
rub it aroundand warm it."Put some on the dildo," he says, and she
notices that his erectionhas faded. She complies, generously dabbing the
jelly onto thedangling plastic. And now there is nothing left to do, so
she places the tip of the dildo against his asshole and awkwardly
bucksher hips. "Don't pump, yet," he says. "Push first, slowly. It will
open up and take you in."She stops, wondering for a moment how much she
really wants to hurthim, and then she does as he directs, pushing firmly
against his asshole until the small ring parts on its own and the first
part ofthe dildo slides into his body."Ahhh.....ah!" he says, his voice
rising at the end, and shefreezes. "I'm ok," he adds. "I just need to
get used to you inthere." She is both amused and non-plussed at the way
he refers to the dildo as "her" although she cannot feel his insides,
the way he could feel hers.At last he nods at her, and she begins again
to hump her hips, brokenly, because this is not a motion she is used to,
but at lastshe acheives a kind of gentle rhythm, drawing the dildo
almost allthe way out before sliding it all the way back into his
rectum. Shemarvels at how easily his body accomodates this foreign
object, andthen she notices that her foot is falling asleep, so she
shifts. Immediately, he cries out, in a tone of unmistakable pleasure.
Hiscock leaps up from his belly and falls back down again, almostvisibly
throbbing. "Do that again!" he hisses, and she obeys, asfar as she is
able.It is awkward, shifting and rocking her hips this way, and he
doesnot come. His neck is stretched to its limit, as he strains
towardhis orgasm, but when her hips are shot through with flashes
ofpain, he still has not come. She stops. He whimpers, but says nothing.
"Look at me," shecommands. When his eyes fasten on her, she blushes and
swallows herwords several times before she can say, "I want you to do
this tome.""You want me to fuck your ass?" he asks, sturggling
momentarilyagainst his bonds. She nods. "But no ropes, this time. I want
youto hold me and kiss me and tell me that you love me while you
doit."He smiles slyly. "While I do what?" he asks.She withdraws the
dildo from his ass. It is warm and slightlydirty. She inspects it for a
moment, then says, "Help me get thisthing off. You can't do it while I'm
wearing this ridiculous getup.""You have to untie me first," he answers.
"But what can't I do?"Hurriedly, she pulls at the knots, letting his
arms free. "Youcan't do anything," she mutters, untying the ropes around
hisankles and tossing them behind her, towards the door.He sits up,
pulls her to him by the leather straps. "Say it," hebegs. "Tell me what
you want me to do."She looks down, at his fingers undoing the buckles of
the harness."I want to feel you next to my skin," she answers. "I want
you tomake love to me." The harness falls away and she finishes: "I
wantyou to fuck my ass." The force of his kiss takes her by surprise,but
she dives into it anyway, only vaguely feeling his arms grabher close to
him.He lies her on the floor on her side, then pulls her left leg upand
asks her to hold it. She can feel his erection resting againsther ass
cheeks, and she has a moment of rampant fear. As if hesenses this, he
drops his head to her ear and whispers "You arebeautiful, do you know
that?" And he kisses her again, while hisfingers smear the lubricant
over her asshole, darting into her anusand back out again.His right arm
slips under her, holding her, and she can feel hiscockhead pressing
against her asshole. There is a sharp sensation, and then without
warning, he has buried his cock in her rectum, andshe feels as if it is
pointing straight out of her mouth. A moment of stillness, and then he
throws his left arm over her andreaches for her pussy. His fingers meet
no resistance and he moveshis hand in ever narrowing circles over her
clitoris as he gentlypumps his cock into her asshole. "This is much
better than rape," she says dreamily, and pushesherself back against
him, then forward against his hand. "You're sowet," he murmurs into her
ear, "so wet." His fingers move a littlemore rapidly, his cock a little
more strongly, and without warning, her orgasm grabs her and shakes her,
tossing her up in its teethlike a cat with a mouse. She shrieks, this
time, in pure pleasure. His fingers do not stop, and his cock moves
faster, and when he grabsher and comes into her ass, she is moaning and
jerking again, shivering in the circle of his arms.Her back is slick
with his sweat, and his breathing is ragged in herear. But he raises
himself up, as his cock slides from her ass, andkisses the side of her
neck. She lifts her foot and with a little struggle, she pulls a blanket
off the couch. He helps her throw itover them, and they sleep, fading
into each other's skins.