They
Would the world be a better place
If there were no feelings on earth?
What would the world be like
If, had never occurred, my birth?
Would my children be? Would anyone?
Would my husband live today?
Would my job be there for someone else?
Truth be told, Yes, I say.
I am not needed, I am not wanted.
I am simply here.
Here for everyone else's complaints.
Here for everyone's cheer.
Why is it when I am in pain,
When my heart is torn in two,
No one can see what it's doing to me.
No one has any clue?
I'm told it's all lies. I'm told I'm wrong
To feel everything I feel.
When will this world simply listen
Enough to let me heal?
Why is it through everyone else's pain
They cannot see my own?
When will they see I'm not selfish,
I'm trying to collect what I've sown.
I've put so much energy into this life
That I'm drained and empty inside.
I need for someone to give it back,
But instead they simply hide
What I need and what I want.
Two very different things I know.
They say you get back more in return.
They say you reap what you sow.
Well "they" lie. "They" deceive�
"They" tell you what you want to hear.
And when you believe them in your heart,
Is when you should start to fear.
For once believed, it becomes a game
The sole player being you.
When they get you to believe their lies,
It's you that will unglue.
Believe me, although worth the pain
It hurts deep down like nothing before.
Once in your life, then leaving,
You will forever want them more.
� Kathee Tschudy, February 26, 1998.
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