pretend you hadn't seen me

words ) Tom Smith 1998

I never had a clue

what you are, or where you're coming from; and
when I asked, or tried to find out
You put your arms around me and it
went away or ceased to be
important, so I stopped asking stupid questions, and just
tried to believe that everything was okay

but that wasn't the truth
It never worked how I hoped it would, and I
never knew the rules

* *

So put your arms around me if you don't
Want to see me fall apart
In front of so many people
and close your eyes if you don't
Want to see me cry
I can't stand this any more
and I can tell that I'm boring you
to tears, have been for all these years
This isn't working any more; spill my
guts out on the floor and walk away.
Tomorrow is another day
and yesterday was a million years ago.

* *

When you saw me standing there,
what were you thinking?
When I saw you walk away,
I didn't know what to say.
Should I follow you,
and try to make it right?
Or just watch you walk away
and pass forever out of my life and stand here

waiting, wishing this was not happening to me
breaking, watching all my dreams fade away
crumble to nothing start again, watch the same movie
a million times; different storylines but they all end up the same:

me
standing here
watching you
walk away.