a language untaught
words unspoken
but known by all.
tinted rain
in jars of sulfur
testify my love
swimming in the pool so clear
makes me cry even more
virgin like and misconducted
pouring hatred upon me
faucet unrusting and nonstopping
off button gone
tuned into tuning out
listening to your side of my conversation
but forgetting i was talking
tell me again
and i'll know not to ask myself the same
try to be like you
try to do as you say
knowing it's not right
knowing i can't do it
being yelled at for doing so
crying, crying
music drowns sorrow
and tempered laughter
from my now throbbing skull
crying, crying
sarcastic comments
i laugh
i cry
i try
i can't
hatred pouring down again
weeping's not my style
showing fear is my pride
everyone knows my weaknesses
and they push my buttons
i cry
helplessly stupid
recklessly hated
i know i'm wrong
but your not right
god tells me things
i listen but am confused
i try
why can't.........?
how........?
when did that.......?
no answers for meghan..
no. no answers for me
the rain won't talk to me anymore
so god tries again
i still fail to comprehend
i can't
throw me in the corner
hate me with your fear
fear of new and whats not known
and all thats in-between
hate me 'cause i'm different
hate me 'cause i know
learn'ed is my motto
-that and kill me now
punish me for my opinions
take away my voice
make me a drone
like all the rest
followers.. sheep.
i am not going to follow
hate me for it
see if i give a shit
make me cry
yell till your hoarse
that should hurt me
-really, it will
throw your hated words in my direction
make me feel like i'm corrected
but i know i'm wrong
and your not right
so innocent and blunt
trying hard to be left behind
but pushed forward
daydreaming nightmares
imagining my reality
it's a world that dies every day in my mind
when hatred comes along and murders my hopes
i think i can't be what i'm not
so i try but fail again
this world so big and yet it makes me claustrophobic
i breath in the air thats tainted with your sinful words
i can't think
i can't breath
i'm frustrated again
crying, crying
emotionless as you made me be
-thanks a bundle
i try to but why should i when you....
yeah, you.
-you fucking prick
the world has forgotten bout the little guy.
-oh poor sam!
the girl is me.
me.
i think it's wrong, i think it's right
tempted, oh so tempted.
why should the worlds light be turned off?
it can't be in the dark
it's scared.
we are all little children
afraid of the dark
the dark that comes when unsuspected,
the inevitable dark.
the forever dark.
the dark that last a lifetime plus.
the dark that comes when we close our eyes for the
very last time.
we are all sheep in believing there's something wrong with us
we are told we are fat, and fat is bad.
we are told we are ugly, ugly is bad
we are told we are everything that is wrong
and we shouldn't be that way
we are sheep in believing that we are all mistakes
we have problems
they are labeled
and corrected
or shut away from the world
but the world is the biggest mistake
it made man in charge of it
if we were all little we could hide in a cave
we could scurry in a hole
i think these things in order to shut away the world of people
i hate people
people hate me
they label me with cute little names
that say i'm different
and different is bad
i'm different
and i like being different
its better than being a drone
one of the sheep.
*~*QwiKsiLVer~*~
~Megz~
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