Is it natural for one person to feel so much pain? So much hurt but yet so much anger, caused by betrayal. Trying to tell yourself, believe that this one is different, this one really cares. Then again, define care. Is it something that comes and goes like winter and spring. I thought it was suppose to be like the sky and the clouds, something that never goes away. If it does, it's not suppose to be as painful as someone stabbing you in your chest.

To have a big heart is very dangerous, and everytime it plays a dangerous game. Letting somone come in and invade it, to only be rejected like a bad doner. Wanting so much to be loved, I mean TRUELY loved. Always wanting to be with that special person. Sharing and laughing together. When apart, can't wait until the next time you will be embraced by that special loved one. Will I ever be loved like that? Will that special person ever be apart of my life and if he does, will he love me and my children, like we need and deserve? Until that day I will continue to:

�"LIVE IN A WORLD FULL OF DECEIT AND LONELINESS"