My Name Is Not Robin (JCH -- April, 1999)
i met this girl
and i asked her out
she said she was taken
and i wanted to know where
she had been taken to
i can see her
her skin is real
she’s standing right before me
she’s beautiful
she’s everything i’m not
a trip down south
to clear up any confusion
thoughts of her on the way down
patterns of behavior
an unlived life
and an optimistic heart
a reunion
and money
to buy myself a new life
a new car
a new computer
a new camera
and a new wardrobe
but not love
for once that leaves
it can never return
more misunderstandings
i am not the son they want me to be
i am not the brother they want me to be
cancer
death
(?)
a time of change
for every good thing that comes,
must something be taken from me?
will i ever be loved again?
will i ever love again?
i don't think i can
i am numb
everything is meaningless
everything is tasteless
the lines are blurred
i am me
My name is not Robin
my future is my own
it has not been set in stone