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Talked to Stephanie today on da fone for an hour! *phew* back to my own little social life like i had in Hong Kong. yes, i love talking on the fone, so if you have my cell fone number, gimme a call sometime and say hi! She told me the homecoming wasn't that great. O well. I guess the dances here are gonna be a lot different from the ones in CIS. I mean like, in CIS i knew everyone and it was a lot more fun. Stephanie told me that people were FREAKING. ewww, that's gross. I would never wear a mini skirt to a dance... i would never wear a mini skirt (period).

hey my peeps. suP? The day started off with an hour and a half of French. French was funni. We had ballons to blow up, and we had pens to draw the stuff on it. It was like an activity to refresh our vocabulary. ahahahaha. Mine was called 'Mikey Boy'. lol. Spirit week this year is the worst for me. I dont really like it. I'm okay about the dressing up and stuff... but some people are just overdoing all that stuff. It was the 50s today, and everyone went to school in their poodle skirts. Eh. o wellie. I don't really like the 50s. Basically, Spirit week ain't for me. Not very spirited you noe.

Math was sooooooo weird today! So all 5 of us that took the test yesterday went to the other room to work on our constructions. Then suddenly one of them came in with their test + test scores. WHOA! All of us swarmed into Mr. Lim's room and asked him for our tests. NOT BAD! I got one answer wrong outta the whole entire test! It was only half a point... but for some strange reason, it marked 44 outta 47.5 on my test. WEIRD. Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, yeah im still happy cuz it's still an 'A'!!!!

Ballet was cool. Ahahah Brooke forgot her leotard so she had to drive home to get it. Well it ain't bad for her, cuz she only lives 5 mins away from the school. Intermediate was nice. I really liked the class today. I managed to do the 'pivot' exercise in adage. Yay! My leg is like above 90 degrees in my arabasaques on BOTH legs =) this huge achievement for me. My turns are getting a lot better. Last night in ballet, i did perfect double pirouettes on pointe! *WHOA* yeah, i noe... it's hard stuff.

WOHOOO! I took my math test TODAY! I'm so glad i took it today though. Ballet tonight = no time to study for it. I hope i get an 'A' on this... cuz i studied SOOO much last night! I studied from 4pm till dinner (around 7)... then got back and studied again for a few mins after 9pm. Yeah... that's how much i studied. Well all that studying paid off cuz i knew everything on the test! yayyyyy!

Today was COLOR day, which meant that all Sophomores had to dress up in RED! Damn it. I don't like red that much. *ugh* o well... don't have much red stuff... i mean like i have the CIS Red House pride and stuff... but it's all about HAIR SPRAY! But i've got ballet today. O wellie. I'll just throw on some RED STUFF. Everyone at school looked CRAZY! I can't wait to be a Senior, cuz then you get to dress up in GREEN =). Yeah, my favourite color! I'm in the mood for Hagan Daz today. So in the mood for Dulche de Leche... however you spell it. Yeah that Caramel stuff =). Bleh.

Not much homework today. I've just gotta finish typing up my Government essay. YAH. I couldn't do it at school today, cuz the computers were BUSTED. Geez. I think they should kinda change the facilities at school. They're all gettin' kinda old. SCREW THOSE ANOREXIA PEOPLE. Gosh. People in Hong Kong are WAY too skinny. They're gonna regret it when they GROW OLD. Like when they grow old, they wouldn't function properly. Damn it. *UGH*. Anorexia people. I'm not skinny at all, but you noe what?! i'm BUFF and i do pilates and i've got a strong 4-Pac. Yeah, ballerinas well most of them are anorexia/bulimeic. Well ya noe what?! I don't care if you call me fat, cuz it's not fat... it's called being HEALTHY. All you skinny bony people out there starve yourselves to look PRETTY... but you noe waht?! you look worse than a 70 year old lady. Don't you consider that GROSS?!

Ballet today =*\. don't really wanna go... cuz it's in MENLO PARK. Everyone there is a wannabe poser ballerina there. They can't dance, wait. Lemme put it this way --> they were never meant to dance. Sounds a lot better. I'm sorry, but their technique is SOO awful, that i cannot afford to watch it. Yeah, i noe that in a class, you're suppose to go there and learn, but you noe what?! having this people around is just a watch of space, energy, and oxygen. They humiliated me last week really badly. It was about my ARMS when i was doing my pirouettes. WuTeVeR. Yeah, my arms do go funni sometimes, but it's only a ONE-DAY syndrome. In other words, it goes away the next day. Yeah, they were just laughing at my arms cuz they looked funny. You noe wat?! A one-day syndrome isn't as bad as a lifetime syndrome. They have corrections that they would never get away with for as long as they live. Yeah. MANY corrections. Well at least i make an effort to correct them in every lesson.

omg. i haven't updated this since Sunday. *ugh* it's been a very long stressing week. It's always Contract PE that's getting my nerves all tangled up. It's something about me and Contract PE. Last year, i didn't get everything till set till the middle of the last semester! Geez! That's a long time! It took the people half a semester just to get my contract fixed. This year, i don't noe what's up with them. So i handed in my form on Aug 29th... my parent thingy form for it on Sept 4th. It's nearly been 20 days since i gave that form in. My ballet teacher called in on Monday and talked to Mr. Duran. I asked Mr. Duran last Thursday if my teacher called.. he said no... that's fair.,. cuz she didn't call till Monday. I asked Mr. Duran on Monday if my teacher called and he said no. I asked him on Tuesday and he said no. I didn't have PE on Wednesday... and Thursday i asked him again and he said no. I usually have ballet on Thursday, and i asked my ballet teacher if she called him and she said "yeah, why?" i told her that Mr. Duran told me no one called. Today, my mom was at school during PE class talking to Mr. Duran. Mr. Duran said that he wasn't sure, because there were just so many people calling in this week.

read my words above... it's bullshit. i'm sorry, but i just can't take that as an excuse. It's YOUR responsibility to take care of this business, cuz then you guys are in charge of this. Why do i even bother getting everything set up before school starts... why do i even bother keep files of paper in a folder... it's just a waste of space in my room. Gosh. I just don't understand PE teachers.. why are they just so fuking stupid? He told me that Contract PE can only be used for a YEAR outta 2 years of PE, and if you needed Contract PE for 2 years, then it must be some special reason. WUT-EVER. I only had it for like less than half a year last year. Since i didn't get it till the middle of the semester, they should not only give me the other half of my 'year' for Contract PE, but another bonus for half a year cuz it took them hella long just to get it sorted out. Well just a tip... if you're the PE teacher... i would suggest you to first see who's Contract PE you're handling...

I barely made it through the week! OMG! So stressed out. J'ai tres fatigant! Pour la semain, j'ai faire mes devoirs, j'ai danser, je n'ai pas dormir! OMG. i'm so stressed out. I threw this stress fit last night. I just couldn't understand why i couldn't get a prep. If i got a prep, i wouldn't be staying up till 12:30am each morning just doing my homework. No one understands how much i need a prep (especially my PE teachers). If only i had a prep... damn it. I'm so worried i'll black out at school, cuz if i do, it wouldn't be a pleasant scene. I've been having this feeling that i'm in another world kinda thing.. you noe when you just stand there and it seems like you're in another world... and you just can't feel wat you're doing... yeah... that kinda thing. It's pretty much close to blacking out. Well it'll be great if i blacked out though, i could sue the school for emotionally stressing me out cuz they're not giving me a prep! Think about it... i do like 8 and a half to 9 hours of ballet per week... plus another 5 hours of additional PE... you can do the math. Yeah, about 14 hours of physical activity each week. Screw that. I only have like 6 hours of sleep each night.

YAY! I got my High School Exit Exam (HSEE) results back. Pretty good dude. I'm satisfied =) I thought i was gonna fail it and hafta take it again with the little stinky Freshmens next year. WOOHOO! I got 4 outta 4 for one of my English essays. So happyyyyyyyyy. I write such crappy essays... you should see my run on sentences. OMG... i can go on forever with my run on sentences.

It's definetely a chill out day today. Didn't do anything at all. Woke up at around 8:45-ish... went on the net, chatted to some people... went off to clean my room (ohhhhhh that dust)... watched 'Save the Last Dance'... went on the net again to reply emails (*ugh* So many!)... then went to read TKAM. TKAM is such a boring book... i can't believe i'm half way through. We've got a reading quiz tomorrow on Ch. 9-11 or sth. Weird. I'm really bored right now. *ugh*. There's school tomorrow, and i'm really not in the mood to go back. Hope my Contract PE thing is fine... cuz i don't wanna start worrying about it now... too stressful. What i need to do is get out there and PARTY. I'm just this person that's sittin' at home all day stressing herself out..... (not only today... but EVERYDAY). Chatting with Charming was nice... it was just NICE. Max called today which was cool... pretty cool. Oh yeah, i baked today... a German Chocolate cake with Samuel. Pretty cool huh? It was just soooooooooooooooooo distracting (the cake itself)... i just wanted to eat it all!!! But of course, that ain't gonna happen. You noe what's good? Cheese cake. Cheese cake is 'THE BEST'. I'm not saying the Jap ones... i mean the REAL cheese cake... the American ones... Swiss ones... European ones... etc. Wouldn't it be great if we could eat as many things as we crave for and not gain any weight? All of it must be some angel food...

okay, i haven't updated this for like 4 days... i'm just really stressed out. Bleh. *hai*. The war thing that's going on just seems like i'm gonna die anytime now... like bomb threats and stuff. Today was pretty much a stress relief day. I didn't touch any of my homework last night, chilled and stuff. Today, i went for my ballet class, then went shopping at Stanford Shopping Centre. Got some cool stuff, a Gap button down shirt, and an Armani jumper. Really pretty. I felt so good today... it just felt like the summer. No stress at all watsoever. School has pretty much been some kinda hectic jail for me. I'm finally starting to get things STRAIGHT. Woohoo. I've got some jamba juice discounts that i can use *sharon grins*.

HEY SERENA SUPER BUTT ASS. Sup?! ewwwwwwwwwwww Charlene's a LESBIAN. That's gross. All along, i thought she was straight. *hai*. So i heard about the sub in CR... she's this weird lady... Indian or sth... and she's WICKED. I can't believe that teachers laugh at other's mistakes. Doesn't make sense you noe. *hai* everything's gonna be a lot different now. I hope there's gonna be a nice teacher that teaches when i go back during December, cuz i dun wanna get tortured by some weird ass woman that can only stand there and laugh at MY mistakes.

Hey everybody. It's September 11th, 2001. I guess the whole entire world has heard the news of the 2 planes being hijacked, and they both crashed into the Twin tower buildings, leaving them collasped... ASHES. OH MY LORD... i can't believe this stuff would ever happen in the United States. I can't believe it.... i just CAN'T. You crazy people out there deserve to die... those hijackers. They're just making the United States into 'Israel number2'. If you guys wanna declare war, just say so to Bush, and he'll take care of that. I just can't stand it when hijackers take those innocent people with them to some devasting accident like this. So all the airports were closed, no airlines going to and from the US; all the State buildings were closed; schools in SF were all closed (DAMN IT.. LUCKY THEM!)... but i had to go to school.. cuz i live in Palo Alto. *ugh* there's not really much to talk about today... i'm just hoping that tomorrow would be a lot better than today, like a fresh new start kinda thing...

*ugh* i've had a really bad day today. 2 arguements led me to be this miserable little chika on the Paly campus. Well both of them are solved now... but STILL. I think it's the stress level. [Blank] called me up while we were MSN-ing and i heard him crying over the fone! OMG! I can't believe it. I hardly make anyone cry, and if i do, i feel so guilty about it and the thought just wouldn't go away for the next few days. I really don't know if it's me, or the way i was brought up in, or the environment i'm in right now, but i seem to bottle everything up in me. I have no idea why, but i guess it's just ME. I try to let it out, but it just seems like no one's taking it seriously. Every single time i try to say something to someone, they'll either be talking to someone else, or half talking to someone else. *sigh*. And crying wouldn't make it any better... it'll just make you feel really sleepy and tired and messed up. I noe i'm this little, tiny person in this HUGE PALY CAMPUS, but you noe what? I DON'T CARE CUZ I'M JUST GONNA BLAB MY MIND OUT AS MUCH AS I WANNA. Well not THAT much, cuz i noe people get so sick and annoyed of it. I've got MY own problems too. I've done enough just listening to yours, why won't you just listen to mineeeeeeeeeeeeee?! geeeeeez.

yeah, i feel very small today. everyone's changed. i'm so fukin pissed off. people change so quickly. I am those kinda people who blab their minds to the world, but now, i think i've gotta lock my mind somewhere else. I haven't been feeling depressed for the past 2 months, but i guess it's all comin back to me again >=(. I was at the Student Centre for lunch today with Stephanie, and i just saw that group come in. It was the usual group... the group that totally pissed me off. Those 4 juniors are the biggest jerks i've ever seen. One of them in that group is a pretty good friend of mine, and i can't believe i actually saw thru him. I SAW THRU HIM. omg. He's the evil inside, angel outside kinda person. I may not be the prep-iest person in the school, or the coolest person to hang out with, but just seein that look made me so mad. It's really hard for me to trust people. I usually blab a whole bunch of bullshit in front of people just to live up to their expectations. It's been more than a year since i've been putting up with that shit, and i don't wanna put up with it anymore. That person called me up a few hours ago asking was i pissed off or sth, i guess i am... but you wouldn't say.. "you noe wat you little fag, i'm so fukin pissed off at you". It's just not right. I think i should just let it go, cuz if you think about it... there's an ending to everything. Yeah... i'm so "hardcore"... my hairy ass. At the end, it just leaves me with buckets of tears...

Everything was aite today, except that US Gov class was boring. Living Skills was a cool class today, we were watching this video on Teenagers surviving high school. Interesting. I thought that the video kinda overdid wat high school's really like... too extreme. o well. Anyway, i hate 'Azn PriDe' people. I just have this hatred thingy over them. I don't mind if you bunch of people out there create your little 'groups' just to annoy people, but the Azn PriDe thing is just too much. Feeling such pride for your race is GREAT, but just don't overdo it. Well people in my school overdo it to the point where they have this huge invisible wall between them and other races. Not only that, but they love to ignore people that are Asian too. So basically, my point here is that, they only accept people who dress the same way as they do, talk the same 'language' as they do, look the same way as they do, act they same way as they do etc. Hell no am i jealous of them. I'm just pitying them now on how they hafta act to survive at school... with their little Azn PriDe shit. You don't hafta act like that to show your pride you noe. Gee Whiz. I'm not Azn PriDe. I'm something BETTER than that... not only BETTER than that.. but 10000000 TIMES BETTER THAN THAT. I belong into the 'Canto-PriDe' group, which only consists of educated, sweet, nice, cute people WHO DON'T OVERDO ALL THAT SHIT to be cool. Discrimination sux.

Today is only my second day of school! Loads of catchin' up to do today. Lah de lah. The ABT Performance at Orange County was sooooooo cool. It was tiring just rehearsing for it... and yeah, sometimes i was crying in pain cuz my foot really hurted like a bitch. I wore my ankle brace for the performance and rehearsals. I hate Swan Lake... i'm serious. I can't believe we did Swan lake... it was a total mess... well at least from my perspective it was a total mess. The night before the performance, we had to rehearse Swan Lake cuz it was so messed up... yeah.. with Mrs. Wright. Not only did she clean it up... she pretty much changed the whole entire choreography. *ugh* got me so pissed off. So for the 11am show, Aunt Winnie, Uncle Patrick, and Kei Kei (aka 'Little Boy) came to watch... ahahah Tao was still "sleeeeeping", and of course my parents and my brother Samuel came to watch too. I didn't mess up anything... so Swan lake was okay... except for this girl who did this combination 3 times instead of 4... and was standing in the front line. ahahahahahahahahahah SHE MESSED IT UP DAMN IT. Mr. Maple's 'Be Sharp Blue' went GREAT! Everyone loved it... and everyone said i did a great job on it =) so i'm really flattered. La de lah.

Disneyland was FUNNN! We were there for 3 days... you noe those 3 day passes thingys. Yeah. Everything's pretty much the same. In Disneyland, we went on the Space Mountain 'X' times (so many times that i lost count)... Bobsled like ONCE (i can't believe it! I thought i was gonna go on it 10000000 times). The Indiana Jones Adventure thing sucked like shit. Before the end of the ride, there should be this huge ball heading towards you... and you should fall into a dip... but then this time when i went on it, THEY CHANGED IT. Dumbasses. It totally screwed the ride up. California Adventure (right next to Disneyland) is the COOLEST. Go on their rollercoaster... it's the coolest. I went on it 3 times... and it's soooooooo cool. Oh yeah.. and the Mulholland is sooooo cool, it's like psycho mouse, but better than that.. like a lot better than that! Yeah, we saw Mickey Mouse and stuff... goin in there made me feel like i was 4 again. ahahahaha =)

today was not the coolest day ever in my life. 1st period seemed like it went on forever. Yup, that was French class. So killing. Verbs and lah de lah... the worst part of it is seeing the person i hate the most... G*******... yup a girl. However you SPELL her name. My first impression of her was just sooooooooo bad. Anyway.... everyone seems to be gettin' a lotta pimples these days... like no one in particular... but people that dont usually get it have loads on their faces these days. Random enough huh? Seeing all my chikas and chikos made me feel soooooooo much better. HEY STEPHANIE MY COOL FRIEND! Robby's a really cool guy... ahahahahahhahahahahah he has his hair gelled now!!!!!!!! =). I guess everyone's the same... the weird people are still weird... and the immatures are still immature. Lah de lah. Seems like my circle of friends are breakin' apart. i dunno. 7th period was cool. I have Geometry in Rm 709 (COME AND FIND MEEE!), and Jeff D and Alex are in it! woohoo! So happy! At least i noe some people in there.

*ugh*. School starts TOMORROW damn it. I'm so not ready for it. Yay! I got some pictures today! Actually... not SOME, but LOADS **thxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!*. I went to see Dr. Saxena today, who specializes in Sports and Medicine, to check out wazzup with my foot. He was such a weird person. It's so funni, cuz my mom was so angry at the doctor who checked up my foot in LA and told her that i had this really serious fracture.

Anyway, the stuff above is wat i wrote during the afternoon. It's 10:35pm now. OMG. I have no idea on what's up with my mom. She's just sooooooo impolite to everyone around here. She always says that no one listens to her and stuff... well she's probably just really impolite, which makes her who she is. I'm going to LA tomorrow... yeah... going back to ABT to dance, since my foot is perfectly fine, and to do the performance on the 31st. I'm just so pissed off at that Dr. in Orange County, LA. He's the biggest jerk i've ever seen. Telling me to go home, and telling me that my serious fracture would take at least 6 weeks to heel. Yeah... i'll be in a cast... MY HAIRY ASS. So anyway, i'm happy that i'm going back to Orange County, but my mom ain't a happy little fella. She's been complaining since she got back from SF saying that my dad didn't tell her to get my diagnosis in writing (from the doctor i saw this morning)... well she should've known better. She was scolding me on how i didn't get the my diagnosis in writing (from the doctor i saw in Orange County).

Then she got really pissed off at me, cuz i had to leave to Orange County tomorrow... and she didn't noe wat to do. NOpe, she hasn't gotten my plane ticket yet... and she said that were gonna get it fixed once we get to the airport. Okay... WATEVER again. She knew last night that i was gonna leave to Orange County on Tuesday. GEEZ. I'm so pissed off right now. Now she's pissed off cuz i've been such an 'airhead' in Orange County. YO DUDE, LISTEN TO ME, I'M NOT AN AIRHEAD, AND YOU KEPT SAYING IT WAS MY FAULT WHEN I SLIPPED IN THE SLIPPERY STUDIO AND SPRAINED MY ANKLE. Don't blame all that shit on me if you noe that it was no one's fault. So basically, she's pissed off at everyone, cuz she's just "STRESSED" out. Well wat i think is that she's just stressing herself out. She's creating her own problems... and trying to make things REAL big... when they're real small, and can be solved in an orderly way. I've packed most of the stuff i will need for the next 6 days. I'm bringing this really tiny black samsonite hand carry's... cuz i hate going to the belt, waiting and taking my luggage, just so 'mah fan'. I hope everything's gonna fit into that when i come back. Bleh. I'm bringing my big les sportsac bag, so i guess there's gonna be enough room for everything. I brought as little stuff as possible. My clothes only take up half the space of the suitcase... the worst part is like ballet stuff and other stuff. *yuck*. o wellie. Gotta live with it. I brought my own towel this time *grins*, cuz then the towels at UCIrvine SUCK. O wellie. Damn it. My mom can't keep her big mouth closed.. that's why my bro and I named her.. BMW. ahahahahah i'll leave you guys clueless about wat BMW stand for. Gosh, she can never shut up. School's starting tomorrow, hope everything would go fine. Gotta go sleep now. bye everyone =)

Anyway, didn't do much today... just sat around at home recording MDs, reading mags and stuff. *yawn* My foot seems to be getting a lot better. I'm not limpin' anymore. CIS is starting school on the 27th... well by the time i'm typing this, they're already at school. Seems like they have this new messed up schedule. They have week 1 schedule, and week2 schedule. Those schedules alternate, so then it would be week1 then week2 then week1 then week2 etc. How boring. I'm so glad Paly doesn't make it that hard to follow. Monday, Tuesday, Friday are normal days, while Wednesday and Thursdays are block days. Bleh. I talked to Denise over IM today and everything seems to be going fine with her. yeah... she's my good 'ol Canto sis from ABT. ahahahaha =). Shit. School's starting soon... and i'm just really freaked out. I haven't even filled out my registration papers. I DON'T WANNA GO BACK NOW! SO STRESSED OUT. I'm so glad i got my room all cleaned up... it was like a mob for the past few days after i came back from ABT. BTW, Aaliyah died in a plane crash. So sad. She's only 22 years old... pretty and successful. Damn it. I guess it just shows how short life is. GEN Y COPS WAS SO BORING damn it. There was only that one hot guy Edison in it. If it wasn't for him... i would've fallen asleep. Anyway, gotta go now. bye de bye.