"gilpin hell"
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november 16th Didn't want to write until closer to friday when (at last) I SHOULD be able to mail a letter.But the heat and Broncos noises and the fact that I recieved mail tonight force me to start NOW....Even though my pages will have to lay around like any unused object in a basement. TRIXIE VANDARWARKA.....because I know what happened to HER,and because I told what happened to her,to others and because nothing happened.Well,then,I have the RIGHT to notch my sarcasm level up; in general,that is.....in life outlook.She was a body I transported and I want to tell you about her soon.She's real and dead, just under two years, so I shant goof around with her facts when I get to them next week. If I could SCAN myself through your computers right now, I'd love to go GLUG GLUG GLUG...I used to ply a certain TRADE in the St.Moritz hotel in Hollywood.The bar below it is the one they used for exterior in BARFLY.Something has repelled me from reading much Bukowski.I know I should but I always reach for Bukowski and get my hand deflected to something else. I can't wait til I can send regular mail again.Why should I have LESS than I was sentenced to? So happy to read much of the postings tonight.I do TIRE of the whole, "what does he know" line.Have I not had great reason to follow the R. case in the media? My knowledge of it THAT WAY ALONE is as extensive as most online.I am merely happy to practice the craft of writing.I AINT gonna solve the case,nor am I undertaking to do so. The way a spider fights not to go down a drain.... There are only two dullards here now.Dullardism is personally offensive...it's an insult, a mockery and a cheat. I have no one to talk to,but today I finally got through to my old friend Randy on the phone.We used to work together in the rich buckhead section of Atlanta. He played me a song he wrote about my CLARKSBURG project. It was so professional and beautiful that I had to turn my back on the guardsbooth so tears could flow. Why do dullards hate creative people? It appears to me that in my bottle of ZOLOFT ( an antidepressant) that Boulder sent up here with me there are about 50 tablets.I take one per night. A clue into the length of this helacious stay. I'm lying on my back...no shirt, sweatpants...the temperature in here can only be described as TORTURE. I may have to do my Mexico truck tonight and soak a shirt and wear it to bed clammy but cool. Cloth over my head to block the TORTUROUS LIGHT. This is the initial reaction by jailers with an inmate on the web. Rest assured I am FULLY half baked;I see us ALL right down to our skellys. Why am I not rocking back and forth under my radio in Boulder? The jail profited from that $45. sale. Where IS my radio? Oh, Boulder, it was so cowardly to throw me over to the mountains. Don't even PRETEND that it's just the recurring Ramsey theme. It must be hideous that people can punch up my legal papers and my versions right from their homes. Futureshock. And the cheap reaction is IN. I can't wait till an inmate with a pending case gets helped online. All it means is that the justice system will just have to be made more fair. Period. Pulled over in Laramie and slapped with a two hundred dollar ticket.... "But officer, the corpse back there indicated to me that I should HURRY." There's a monopoly game on the floor under the stairs here. ( no one cognizant enough to play ). Somewhere along the line an inmate tried to figure out how to spell a word by writing it on the monopoly board in various versions. "Failer..." " faliur"... " failuer"....keep trying....that's what I say. My art style is categorized as "AGITROP". I would like to hear ALL ABOUT an underground flier called "Propwash" . I'd also like a copy of the AUDIO RECORDING of my May 97 Ramsey detective interview. From what I can see at the crack of a window all the deputies here drive pick up trucks. I think the food we recieve here must come from CASINOS in nearby MTN GAMBLING TOWNS. I'm one of a kind, so you can imagine how I've been spat on and scrutinized. All my life. Would'nt one try to turn it to one's advantage ? Showcase it. Oh, a small Boulder detail med. B module was shaken down WAY late on the night of November 10th. Everyone stripped in gym. They're getting ready for the RAMSEY'S, I'd bet two soup packets on it. And anyone who doesn't like the gloating tone should put on these damn little orange slippers they make me wear here. I just HAPPEN to be burned out in such a way that I could say me mocking Ramsey things and say, "well, what's up", if I were to run into one of them in some isolated God forsaken hall. But the painting of the Ramsey's as people who should BE HERE will go on. " I don't see why it's necessary," some Jacquesass says, in chatscripts. Well, it's necessary because they are NOT getting the same treatment as anyone else round here. And for that they will also go through hell. And because THAT IS THE WAY IT IS, we've been discussing it suchlike. Me, I will feel sorry for P when they bring her in; AND I will mock her. C'est la vie, Jacques! current | 1999 | 1998 | colfax diaries |