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november 19th
Not very happy. Stressed
to maximum. I'm in the intake pod at the Douglas County jail now... between
Denver and Colorado Springs. It is not harmful here. But I learned that
Boulder's LT. HANKS told Richard Fleming of The Boulder Weekly that I am
to be sent back to Gilpin on Dec 1st.
Besides everyone from SIR- RAPE- A LOT to prince DEAL- A -JOINT knows WHEN they are going to court; the exact dates and times...weeks or months in advance. "Security reasons" doesn't wash. Oh, it sounds good and secret and it's a conversation stopper, but it's not true.
I am on the road because it was a detail they wanted to get done B4 mrs.
R arrives. You all know she'll be indicted by Jan 1st, right? Look
what giving you the clues has cost me. ( Whineocerous ). ( Whadda you expect...
they lost my anti- depressants along the way.)
I do solemnly swear that a Gilpin deputy asked me for instructions on how to make a long distance call. ( Bring over your lie detector NOW, Gosage.) Detective Gosage... PLEASE get me out of THIS. I realize it's a sticky one but you know I can't QUIT ( the website) . I also realize that Boulder won't likely BUDGE on bringing me back now... that is, "TIS THE SEASON" and that laws say this and that about their RIGHT to move me. But, REPEATEDLY? I couldn't mail a letter for eight days in that stinking Gilpin hellhole! A horrible sitauation could arise in SO many ways. All I want is NOT to go back to Gilpin. Anywhere but Gilpin. They HATE ME. It is dangerous. Seven months is HOPELESS there. I'm CALLING YOU GOSAGE, like I did the night before the fire. I didn't put any cheap deputy items on the web. I can be non-problematic in ANY other jail...but Gilpin will be a DISASTER. I'm not asking for the right to pick my location... only requesting that this one wretched spot be rejected. Imagine pushing a horse into a flaming barn stall... if it REACTS, what are you going to do? Write it up... take earned good time? The BC jail's LT. HANKS said I'll return to Gilpin on December 1st. Once again I'm telling you that it's HOPELESS....the idea that I'll survive there. I need the simple STABILITY of killing my time in a less threatening/ stifling spot. I want to be left ALONE. I can't be picked at and provoked all day like I am at Gilpin. I know the general roadmap for this wonderful world window opportunity. I don't see my plans harming me or this or any other jail; but Gilpin is another story. I can't look away from or fail to report the existence of such people as the ones who work there. It could quickly be a CRISIS, and I'm dead serious. If one screams ion cyberspace, does anyone hear it? I bet that was YOU with detective Birch who came to visit Cole. You shoulda dropped by... sometimes I just slay myself. Well... think about it. Now back to you web people. Guess what? Some geek from my pod in Boulder washed up on this very beach this a.m. ( He had a warrant here, went to court, and is OUT now.) He told me I had a stack of mail a foot high the day I left Boulder. That's you! I may never get those letters, but I'll never FORGET them, anyway. I'm sure they were better than the cheap ass anonymous religious pamphlets I recieved from TACOMA, FLORIDA, and TEXAS the first two weeks after the fire. ( EL RAPO CROUCH got a bunch too.) But I DON'T want to be strapped down and beaten. See, for "security reasons", I object to that. And so we establish the precedents of asking for help in two ways with this posting. That is, one way, through detective Gosage, and another way by me asking for support in ensuring I simply don't go to Gilpin. Here at Douglas
it's strict, but okay. It's no Boulder, that's for sure. So I've lost PLENTY
of EARNED priveledges by being here. I'm not asking for BETTER or
even THE SAME as what they get in Boulder. I'm only asking to do seven
months SAFELY... anywhere but Gilpin.
In other news... Rita Burger
is completely incompetent. She can't even calculate DOLLAR A DAY inmate
payroll in Boulder. Her fellow employees KNOW IT. She calls in sick a lot...especially
on mondays. She's deadwood. Useless. But they cover for her. Boulder deputy
" Kyle" lastnamenotknown transported me from Gilpin to Douglas. He
said he guarded the GJ for "only two days". He said "all the senior officers
and lieutenants have bugged up all the overtime slots. He's been with Boulder
for YEARS & YEARS. Imagine the value of OT at a lieutenants rank. Greedy
greedy. Those last two items are exactly what I did not do BEFORE
HOPELESSNESS reared it's head. Rita can go to hell but I feel like
I'm stabbing Kyle in the back. He can take it. Now open the time books.
Moving from one pod to another can be like moving from FRANCE to ALABAMA. So it is UNSETTLING, etc. A move is a move. I am so tired of this. Thank you to everyone who wrote. I am just LIVING to write postings knowing you're out there.
These new junkies I'm surrounded by think I'm a raving nut... I eat alone.
They think my talking about being on the web is "babble!"
I might as well get naked except for put a sheet over my head and go sit in the middle of the floor, babbling about "The Bradys, auntie bj, darth goethe, etc... scanner, stingray, and NODULES." Now you people are the newest thing that SEEMS crazy about me. It's always something. I want to know if you'll be there if I write about "my trusty job is" or "hell if diarrhea aint sloshin outta me today" INSTEAD of ALL RAMSEY ALL THE TIME. That case is my CATLIKE spool to chase. Oh.. I'll always give available dirt on it. But can you accept that you are looking in a bigger window than that? JT p.s. rest well Trixie. Don't be ashamed of what happened. We'll get to you soon. current | 1999 | 1998 | colfax diaries |