"so much noise in the world"
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december 3rd my neighbor had a hideous tantrum this morning because he was trying to sleep and I was on the phone. I talked to Peter Boyles for awhile and it's always good to get a few facts out. He let me tell the story of the bum who was dragged in for questioning on the Chase case which I wrote about yeaterday. People NEED to know that sort of thing happens in juxtaposition to OTHERS who have a STACK of evidence pointing to them and nothing happens. Someone else with no defenses gets the bags on hands THIRD DEGREE because his ONLY possible "connection" is that he's homeless and sleeping near the scene. To put it "country simple", I STILL think it's WORTH atry for the cops to STORM in on the RAMSEYS right NOW and scare them into confessing. More realistically:there had BETTER be a trial. What YOU gonna do (whoever you are) if there's a whitewash..."Grand jury is over...announcement:no charges will be filed"...etc. ARE YOU gonna DO something? I don't know why,today particularly,but the whole sitauation really is IRRITATING right now. (Later I just wrote it outta my body by creating a "whaddya gonna do?"thread) so I can meander and trail off now. I hope I didn't hear too much sanctimoniousness as my outdate approaches! The various YEARNINGS I've had in SEASONS in jail.For weeks and months,in the beginning I drooled for a PUPPY of all things. It would be THE THING to thik about when trying to tune out and sleep. In latter days I want to slap a huge pile of logs together and push off into the ocean and get AWAY from EVERYTHING. A log cabin in the woods would be GREAT. But I'll be FORCED to deal with petty rotten people again. "You missed that corner with the mop". "why don't you smile?" "It can't be that bad." "you're not happy in this job are you?" "why would you SAY something like that?" "don't you have a girlfriend?" And the LOSS button will be pressed with a rubber glove. Everything will be trampled. Can't even sleep in an alley without someone clownifying your hands. Morgue logs..a certain dimwit once said it with such a suppressed boggled force:"MORGUE LOGS????" The dullard thought it was like compressing corpses into burnable units. And then the genius once it's explained to him exclaims about MY stupidity. "Why would you steal papers like that?" Answer: "Why would you speak with such a high pitched righteous tone for one thing AND for another,I guess just because there I was only a few feet from the steel table where the now famous child's blood flowed down the drain. And because there was so much noise in the world about it, but there in the basement, in the morgue, HER name was ONE of MANY on a ROSTER. It was, after all, the book of DEATH. There's one waiting for us all somewhere. I wanted to show people in a flashy way." Why do some morons have people send into jail a nice photo of their prized CAR shining in the driveway? Why do people watch, "America's most dangerous stunts"? It's all so cheap. I want to lay on my backlike a dying roach. But I stumble on to the next thing and the thing after that. No one puts their arms around a big roach. I go for thrills and learning and curiousity. I see things too different for Wallmart. I'm six cheap months ahead of my time. It's too late to decide to sell insurance. It's not an attitude it's a condition . I am an artist. I know this because I can't sleep. They slid the form letter response from the ACLU under my cell door at 11:00 last night. J.T. Colfax I've been entranced by staring into space. Is it time to start writing about lawerly improprieties, "blackmail",and what not? So be it! I guess I DO know why Lou Smit was involved in my plea negotiations. Somebody park his carcass in front of a computer cuz it's coming soon. current | 1999 | 1998 | colfax diaries |