"should i pursue a path so twisted"

december 29th PICTURE  eine "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" sign on a corpse. Picture takin photos of the sitauation. Picture shovin the cardboard camera back in your suitcoat and going on with your day. OK, so you roll the Corpsey Lorpsey back up  in it's sheet, roll it into the walk in refrigerator, fill out a couple LOG PAGES, and leave. Why, you might be all the way across Denver and only blocks from being back in bed when "DOOOOOOOOOOOH!" ...it strikes you that you LEFT the sign mingles in with Corpszilla's sheet. You GOT to go back. You gotta dig it out. I bet Skylurk's grandmother DID have a good sense of humor. Believe it or not I went OUTTA my way to be helpful to some of the families. I'm not the WORST ghoul ever to don a raggedy suit and fake professionalism. Oh, no. Perhaps I am a death(nik). Screamingly afraid of my OWN. "Cowgirl cowgirl, what you gonna do when your expensive lotion spews sarcasm at you?" Welfare check day is a BIG day in Vancouver. Oh, all the bars are full. And there I sat watching The Simpson's on "Chek 6" TV. The maids reporting to the management that I won't let em in. They enacted the bar/restaurant smoking ban while I was there. I'm a wonderin if the police are a wonderin if I'll have people holding up lighters screaming "ENCORE" when I get out. I'm telling you AGAIN, I am PURGING this ridiculous period NOW. I'll be DONE, THEN. This is seperation. I have stood in the hall listening to coroners in Denver making "the call". ..."I have some bad news for you.". Hopefully the people on the other end had MORE than a Doctor WONG to help them through it....he wouldn't recognize one of his "patient's" corpses if it was attached to a hot air balloon gliding over the Bronco's playoff game on Jan 9th (or) Denver's morning rush hour . I was REALLY no more of a PROFESSIONAL joke than all those who wear THE MASK. But I do WITHER in disillusioned emptiness...and...in that respect I will NOT "make it". Set the retort to "10". " Should I pursue a path so twisted Should I crawl, defeated and gifted"- Patti Smith J.T.Colfax [email protected]   current | 1999 | 1998 | colfax diaries