"mamas gone bad, shrieking in the chair"

march 22nd Tired of sticking a razor up my nose and twirlin it around. Where are the comforts? Security...stability...after awhile it's not ENOUGH. Okay vicious poindexters...push your glasses further up your nose and "take note" that we who work so hard to fly this kite...to raise this sort of voice...are overworked and snapping at each other."Grandiosity" "Low self esteem" "Control"...why, these are slimy things we've all found in our underpants before. And, "Comingled". Still we try to get these fragile papers in the air, such idiots we are to attach a BOAT CHAIN to a kite; perhaps you'll see us CRASH . Be the FIRST on your ISP to say, "jolly good show". XXX  Tonight a deputy sat at my table for dinner. (A somewhat shameful thing). No friends here because Im so HI TEC STRUNG from the bickering, misunderstandings, and worries that come with the flying of flaming kites. (You put your right leg in, you put your right leg out BITCH). We discussed PATSY coming to JAIL. I told the guard that I'd just recieved a note from a websurfer in So Cal that informed me that Hunter recently said at a news conference that "we've got a real strong jury" when asked if there'd be an indictment. When asked AGAIN Hunter snapped, "I REINTERATE, we've got a real strong jury". Somehow this didn't appear in Denver/Boulder media. This  got the guard and I going down the PATSY IN JAIL path. (This guard and I have been CHATTING for 2 YEARS...k?) I asked her more about the women's module which she sometimes works. I found that I have been mistaken when I have said some places that Patsy would be in cell #15 or 16.CLEARLY and PERFECTLY I now know that it would be 9 or 10. And 10 is the more likely because if she were in 9 she would be able to "telephone" through the vents to the men in the abutting cell over in "INTAKE". I asked, "if you were in charge of the module that night would you lock the other girls down?" she said, "no". I then asked, "what if she were hysterical and crying?" she said, "like with any other uncooperative" (they use this word as a noun or pronoun) I'd step into the module and tell the girls to clear a path. Then I'd bring her in and lock her down". Cells # 9 and 10 are separate from the other 14 cells. They share their own separate locked foyer. It's utterly possible some girl is sitting there right now having a dull, ordinary lockdown period. Tick tick tick. The guard opined that Patsy probably wouldn't be a crier. I said, "what are you kidding...she'll be HYSTERICAL" I reminded her of a few famous incidents and you could SEE the guard thinking of this future possibility. Personally, I could easily see Patsy gettin a strapped to "the chair" they keep up in booking. I could picture her screaming and crying and RAGING. But I do solemnly swear there have been a FEW holier than thou mamas gone bad shrieking in "the chair". Oh yezzy yez yez! What else? I told les guard about les website out there that features Patsy Ramsey in a ballgown giving cell tours. A little grunt, no reaction. She seemed to be in a future daydream. The guard also pointed out in a  kind of "admission" whisper that she HATES doing strip searches but that she'd gladly do this one..(just to be involved). She sid there's "no doubt she'd find an excuse to go to booking if a Ramsey was there. (We didn't much discuss JR). We talked about the long long long ago erroneous reports of a "special cell". She said, "the only thing that's actually been built because of them (the Ramseys) is that little orange barrier fence across from the parking lot"...this, to cordon off the media. We talked of the possibility of a media representative being arrested in a line crossing incident and maybe a gen. public cuckoo (perhaps fresh from DC) attempting to stare in the windows, etc. We UTTERLY agreed these kinds of arrests seem so POSSIBLE. I'm afraid some sort of moving part is gonna come loose somewhere soon. J.T.Colfax [email protected]   current | 1999 | 1998 | colfax diaries