"the cruelest ,craziest charts and graphs"
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april 5
As if someone had pulled a cork out of Satan's butt..that's where last
night's Easter dinner came from. FREEZING cold spaghetti, beets, and lemon
pudding.
And daylight savings has only served to make the day...well, ...longer.
I need to open up my meal tray and find a pile full of antidepressants,
but Michelle Davis in place of du Jeezy Weezy has BLITHELY from afar decided
otherwise. I keep experiencing these withering attacks of embarrasment
and exhaustion and I FORGET that I am unthawed and unprotected even in
the CHEAPEST medicinal way due to some CUNT pulling strings way out of
view and getting paid for it.
Have I not just passed under the 100 days to go mark? What will they
idiotically do on day 99?Each furthur day is an agitating TORTURE rather
than "another day down". This is because NOTHING is TRUSTABLE. And that
makes me feel as if I should destroy about $8000.00 worth of county property
(no, make it $9000.00) when and IF I ever do get out of here....black judges's
robes floating on helium balloons over les Flatirons...the words,"being
willing to judge,judge,judge" painted after the word,"Stop" on red signs
all over this wretched town. The button pushing word,"Ramseytown" painted
dozens of times on their little Pearl St. Mall. Well, I am TIRED, and there's
nothing I can do about it...if you want me to show an "attitude" I must
say "you are doing fine"...poking me with sticks. So tired.
I wonder, since tonight is commissary order night...if I can order some
makeup from the women's side of the list to cover les bags under my beady
dilated YEUX.
Like a shark swinging round it's halfchewed prey, RITA BURGER, the incompetent
classifications BITCH (truly) has set the TONE by having another HUGE SELF
RIGHTEOUS argument with an inmate whose release date she miscalculated.(Mike
Sandoval). As if there's bubbles bursting all over this ocean bed acerage.
Agitation.SGT.HILL positively HEARD it said that no one TRUSTS Rita Burger's
calculations. But it goes on and on. Wait until I get on les chopping block.
How I pre hate this arrogant eel for the menacing threat she aims to be!
I would scream "go go go" if SOMEONE ELSE were to, as they say, "bust her
chops". I may be a loveless automan but she...she's an AGGRESSIVE one...she
pulls a fence of evil vindictiveness up round her. I want to be left
ALONE and CANT BE, but she seeks to cover her incompetence with a headline.
May SATAN himself vacuum her right straight up his rectum. And when he
reconstitutes her as the cold spaghetti she is, at heart may he show her
the cruelest ,craziest charts and graphs.
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