vision

I am currently working on my art (and animation)-- phenomenological speaking.

It is about painting/drawing as a form of discovery, The expressiveness of the painting is taken care by the process of work itself and never occurred as a ends of the painting.

Too much of what we do is about getting somewhere. We forget about now. Being in the moment allows us to see more, do more and be united as one that is a collective of the past, present and future. The future is now.

It is not that we can exist outside 'now', but we can certainly be not aware of it. Most of us are caught up in this superficial pursue of what we want in the future. What it rips from us is the potential of being something more than what we wanted. As such we are being capped by our goals that are in many ways limited by our incapacity to think beyond.

This does not imply we dispute all that has existed. What I am dealing with here is about unlocking of the creative self, about discovery, about connecting with the infinite potential that is within us, about understanding more about ourselves and what is.

The more we exist in the moment, the more we surprise ourselves with discoveries that we have shut ourselves to. If anything at all, it gives us more resources to call from for whatever we may choose to do at any point in time.

A simple analogy of this is a trip to work. If all we think of is to get to the work place to start work, that becomes the goal. As such it acts to filter out much of the experience engulfing us as we make the trip. If we let loose of our 'goal', yes we still get there, but we arrive a MUCH different person as before we make the trip.

Chimperlogy!?!? (meaning profound and mind boggling)

Much of the painting I used to do were approaching this kind of work although I) I was not aware about it and ii) I am far far from reaching that state of work.

It is very difficult. Much of the drawings I am doing now is about losing the constructions that blinds me (us). Many of which we are hardly aware about. As such I am often trapped by not wanting to let go of what I had been able to do.

In the past, I usually look at a painting style and say "aha! I can do like that". Then go on to do it. But almost immediately upon coming close/able to drawing in a particular style, the impetus to continue with the challenge is lost. The goal has been reached. So what's next. The challenge evaporated because what followed is a very boring process of making pretty painting.

But now it is different. In this series of drawings/cells, I have to draw myself facing a mirror every single day! (horrifying considering that I am ugly enough and now I have to face it every day and draw it). Nothing is to be changed in terms of the set up.

So what is the deal in doing it?

Well. It will be evident as you follow my journey (if you like). You will see the struggle I am facing and trying to overcome at each moment of my work.

The basis of the work can get very philosophical. I am reading lots of stuff, and combined with lots of doing in order to make marginal progress.

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