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The mind is more complicated than what people realize. The mood of person can be changed according to how settling or unsettling that your mind is. When you are having difficulties making up your mind about a situation, you will seem distracted and unable to focus properly. This has a chance to make you seem like you are stressed out. When you are in this type of mood anything that is said to you that is in the same territory as your thoughts, can set you off. This is usually when a person is easy to piss-off without great effort.
When a person focuses on one specific problem, the mind is unable to be relaxed. When the mind is unable to be relaxed, the mind is also unable to allow you to dream. This is a problem that occurs when the mind is focusing on a problem that can affect your life extremely. It is never good when a person is unable to make a serious decision like this because it means that he/she has a high chance to cause more pain to those around him/her. This type of decision shouldn't happen to people because of the negative affect that it could have from those around you.
When the mind is unable to relax enough to allow you to dream, you seem to be more tired when you wake up than you went to sleep. This is because your mind is still working on the solution when you are sleeping. When you sleep normally, your dreams help your mind to sleep too. Where the mind is not able to be relaxed enough to stop, your dreams are unable to be accessed. This also makes it so that your soul is unable to communicate to you through your sub-conscious through your dreams.
Your soul is the reason why you dream. The dreams that your soul has you see are necessary so that you can rest enough to continue with the next day. To be unable to get this type of relaxation, you are unable to react properly during the normal day. Your reflexes are also slowed down because you are still tired, so you are unable to react properly. This can be dangerous especially if you drive somewhere.
A problem that your mind is having difficulties coming to a solution to is the type of problem that you shouldn't decide on your own. This type of problem will affect more than one person when the decision comes through, and should be looked at by as many possibilities as possible. Having more than one person looking at a situation is more helpful than to do the decision on your own. This is true all of the time, however finding a person to trust with the information is the difficult thing to do.
I have been having the problems that I listed above. I have been unable to dream because of my mind not being relaxed. I have been thinking about a problem that I have had for a long time. I have only been thinking about this problem more because recently I decided to think about the problem again. The more that this problem is brought into the light, the more I have problems deciding how to proceed with whatever decision I come up with. It is a difficult decision between a friendship and something in my past. To keep one I must get rid the other.
I hold all of my friendships with great appreciation for those friendships, and will protect those friendships no matter the cost to myself. I have done this in the past, and now I have discovered that one of those friendships shouldn't have been protected after all. As I said, I will protect a friendship at any cost to myself. The cost to myself was too high, I have realized and now I am faced with the same problem as I had 10-12 years ago. The question is to sacrifice the friendship with someone or to hide from the past once again. When I hid from the past the last time, I went into a depression. Going into a depression is not an option this time.
It is a difficult decision that I have been faced with. I would like to keep the friendship and to have this thing in the past dealt with too. For me to deal with the past, the friendship would have to end. This is one of those lose-lose situations. There is no way that I can see to do both things without sacrificing one of them. There are two people in my life that I have told my past to, and it is difficult to see that the friendship still exists after that. My personal ethics are different than most other people's ethics because I have no problem with taking "a hit" to protect my friends. This time I am faced with protecting myself, and it seems that sacrifice is the only way.
As I have started to look upon my past, I have realized that I have done a lot of bad decisions. One of the worst ones was to hide from something in the past, and in doing so I forced myself into a depression. Although those around me thought the depression was due to a failed relationship, which I sent someone to the hospital. It has taken a lot for me to emit to the fact that the failed relationship was not the reason for the depression, however it was a good way to hide from the truth. The more I seem to hide from the truth, the harder it seems to be able to face the truth.
I have done some research on the Internet to help me try to make a decision about this problem, however I am finding that the decision needs to come from me and not someone else. I know that it is my decision regardless of what I do, however my "true nature" will not allow me to do this decision lightly. I have to consider how many people would be affected by this part of my past coming out into the open. The first person that I have to talk to is this friend, and I feel that the friendship will end when I do this.
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