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03-18-03 · 03-30-04 · 05-10-04 · 05-11-04 ·
War is something no one really wins with. There are always a lot of innocent deaths that happen on both sides of the war. Currently that is exactly what is going to happen when President Bush goes to war against Iraq. It is unfortunate that President Bush has decided to not listen to the public opinion that deals with this war. Most people do not want to go to war against Iraq, and that is mostly the people in the United States. Then of course, President Bush doesn't have Canada coming for this war because they don't want to be involved in it. Some people may consider Canada a bunch of cowards for not supporting President Bush with the assault against Iraq, however they are actually being smart about the situation.
Canada has always been seen as a peaceful group of people. People in Canada has proudly put their crest/flag on pieces of clothing without feeling ashamed, unlike other places that will stay nameless. If the war that President Bush is pushing onto Iraq goes bad, Canada will be forced to fight them. Whether the attack from President Bush causes a world war due to his greed, or if Iraq fires Chemical Missiles at the United States; Canada will be drawn into the war against Iraq.
It is good though that Canada is staying the Gulf because at least if the United States get into a lot of trouble, Canada would be able to "bail" them out of trouble. It would be a little funny for Canada to be able to say that they "bailed" the United States out when Canada is not a "war ready" area. Canada in the Gulf just proves that they are thinking like all other people are thinking, which is that President Bush is doing something that has a high chance to "back-fire".
President Bush is using greed and stupidity rolled into one for the attack on Iraq. The proof behind this is the fact that Canada is not really supporting the United States in this attack, but they are near incase they are forced into the fight. President Bush is attacking Iraq because of 2 main reasons. The first is that he can't finish off the "War Against Terrorism" because he cannot find the one that started it all, so Iraq is next in line. The second is that he wants control of those Oil Fields. So in light of these things, President Bush is being a bully towards Iraq because of his own greed.
I know that hell is about to break lose due to the war against Iraq that President Bush is going to be doing, and I can honestly say that President Bush better do it right the first time through. If the United States doesn't finish off Saddam Hussein this time, hell will come forth. I agree that Saddam Hussein should have died the first time with the "Gulf War" however the way that President Bush is going about it, I disagree with. President Bush may have the support of the Germans & the French, however that doesn't mean anything if your neighbor (Canada) refuses to support you. President Bush did try to have Canada join the battle however Canada refused, which does show some smarts in the Canadian politicians.
It is expected that this fight with Iraq (Saddam Hussein) will take a lot longer than people really realize. This war has a chance to take a couple of years, at least, if the United States cannot get the attack without retaliation. It there is retaliation, and then it will pull every country into the war to cause it to become a World War. Hopefully it doesn't become a World War because there is a high possibility that it would be a Nuclear War, and that would just mean that all life will be terminated after a bit of time after the first shot.
When a war happens, there will always be one form or another of innocent bystanders that will be harmed. This is true no matter the war, and no matter how much people say that the innocent will no be harmed. The innocent is always harmed when a war exists, it may not be directly however the innocent will feel the effects of any war.
I am about to go into a pair of wars. One war is with myself, and in the process I will be having a lot of different moods. These moods can/will change without warning, and in the process will make PMS seem like child's play. These moods will be erratic and uncontrolled, but I will not be any danger to society during this time. I will have a certain amount of control, however I will not be in full control. This is because I will be battling with myself to finally come out of this depression. For me to come out of it altogether, I will have to face the past, which I have protected for all this time. This may cost me a friendship, however my sanity is worth more to be than any friendship.
The second war will be with a family that I grew up with. I have known this family all of my life, however something has come up to have me fight against them. I have always been told by everyone to get a "backbone" and "stand up for myself". In the past I have stood up against anything I felt was worth fighting for, and in many cases I got beat up because of it. When it came to people picking on me, I saw no need to fight back because I didn't feel (directly) the teasing. Where I was depressed and was repressing my emotions, the teasing didn't bother me (directly), however indirectly it did get to me after time.
This second war will be unavoidable because of what has initiated the whole thing. I was verbally assaulted and told to stay away from a special friend of mine, in a prejudicial manner. I was in shock when I heard those types of words come out of that person's mouth. Depending on what this person does now, and how many people within the family he/she involves, will depend on how big a war this really will be. This is a war that will take time to get through, however I will be standing alone against this family. I will be standing alone because I do not want to involve my family into this war, especially if my first war gets twisted into this one.
The first war can be tied into the second war because the depression is due to someone in that family. I felt that the friendship with this specific person was worth more than my sanity, however now I do not believe in that. I feel that my sanity is worth more because I cannot continue in life until I have the depression removed. This personal war will cause me to re-experience the negative emotions that I felt during the initial start of my depression. I know the type of "hell" that I went through on the way into the depression, however I also fear what I will need to experience on the way out of the depression.
Between the two wars, I am preparing for the worst. If the worst comes, people will begin to see a change in everything I do. The main thing that people will see is the fact that I will remove myself from the public's eye. I will be forcing people to stay away from me during this time because I do not wish to cause any unnecessary pain to anyone. If a person removes himself/herself from the public's eye, it means that the person feels like he/she will need to be alone for a period of time. Many times that people do this it is because he/she feels that he/she needs to think things through, however at the same time the person may need to talk to someone about everything too.
In my case I know that talking with certain people will be required, however only with those that I feel I can trust. There is a high chance that I will not seem like a pleasant person at times, however if any is around me it is a good sign. These wars will be taking a number on my mental state. Preparing for the worst in both wars has given me the ability to not be surprised when certain things happen. If the worst doesn't come then I will be happier, but if the worst does come then I can't be any worse off when it comes. I know that I will be disappointed if the worst does come up, however I will be prepared for it so I will be able to handle myself when it comes.
For those that are innocent in either of these wars, I will try to protect them as much as I can. If I become an unpleasant person I will want to be alone, however in doing so I will cause some people to feel bad that I will not want to be around him/her. I know this because this is what I did when I was going into my depression; I did exactly the same thing however he/she didn't get hurt. I also know that there will be family members that will want to know what is wrong, however I will be unable to let them near me either. I know how much of a "ticking time-bomb" that I can be at times. If I start to lose any control of my feelings, I may say things that are extremely harmful towards those around me. I will be sure to protect them from that type of cruelty, however there are still friends that will want to stand by me during the worst.
War is never a beautiful thing. War is never a simple thing. War is the worst thing to happen in anyone's life. Pain & suffering is the most common thing in any war. I know that my two wars that are coming will be extremely painful to me, and will cause pain to those that are involved into those wars. It is unfortunate that any of us will need to see such pain in the world, and ourselves. It is sad to see the destruction that can occur due to something buried in the past. A positive side about everything is that I will be taking more walks because I will need to clear my head. If I need to clear my head I will not drive because I may get a bit of a case of "road rage". I don't need that on top of everything else.
Everyone will try to avoid any form of a war because wars just hurt people in the end. Unfortunately we cannot avoid all wars, especially if we are the ones that are going to be causing the war. This is a sad truth that exists in the world today.
When a person is awaiting a conflict with someone, there are many warning signs that there may be a war coming. We all have different attitudes when we prepare for different things. When it is a positive thing that you are preparing for, you are in a positive mood, such as going away for school (you will be excited in a way). When you are preparing for something negative, you are in a negative mood, such as a fight that is distended to happen (your guard will be up). We have these tendencies because of the emotions that are involved for each situation that we experience in life.
There will be a time that we will have a mid-life crisis. This is when you weigh out your life, part way through your life. When a mid-life crisis happens, you seem to be a little lost at times and you seem distant the rest of the time. We all will go through something like this at some point in our lives. Some people could experience this more than once, and some may experience it only once. Each of is different so it cannot be determined how many times a person will experience a mid-life crisis.
When a war happens in a community, especially in your own community, you will have to choose a side in the conflict. Many of us would try to stay neutral, however when the war deals with a person's morals/ethics then you are forced to be on one side or the other. There is no such thing as to be neutral when the problem deals with morals/ethics of a person. If a person was to stay neutral in a conflict that deals with morals/ethics, he/she will be seen as a monster on both sides of the conflict. That person will be seen worse than the actual war itself.
We all have small conflicts that do not escalate into anything more than a petty fight/disagreement, however those conflicts that become bigger problems have the ability to draw more people into the conflict than is necessary. We all have the ability to disagree with people, and we have the ability to know the limits to any conflicts. When it is realized that we have gone too far with the disagreement, we only realize it when there are too many people involved with the conflict. To know our limits is one of the personal wars that we all face every day.
I have a war that I am preparing for. I know that it is coming and there is no way to stop it from coming. This war is necessary because it is the right thing to do, in my situation anyhow. I know that many people will not be able to understand how I could keep the secret all long as I have, and many others will not understand how I couldn't stay quiet about the secret for the rest of my life. I know that I will find out who my real friends are, and who will hide when the shots start firing.
This war will be coming no sooner than June, or no later than July. This is the timeframe that I believe the war will start, however I have no idea how long it will last. There is no way to tell how far this war will go, and no way to know how long it will last. A war of this magnitude has the ability to last past my life, and continue into the next few generations of my family. This is a war that will be remembered by many people because this war has the ability to cripple more than one community. This war has the ability to cripple any community that the two families have stretched out into. I know that this war will be damaging to the communities, however it is one that is necessary to have. I am not an offensive fighter, however I will become that way in this war.
I know that many people will see me as a reincarnation of the devil when this war starts, however when the war is known afterwards I will be seen as the innocent one. There are always people that will be dragged into a war (the innocent) because the side that is being attacked will need to attack someone else. This happens all of the time, but I will be protecting my friends from this war. This instant that anyone that I am opposing tries to attack/involve my friends, I will have everyone in the community know the conflict and all the information about the war. When a family has a strong hold a community (respect, etc.), threatening to tell everyone is something that the family will try to stop from happening. With the situation involved, the people I will be opposing will want the community not to be involved.
I know that I am not the smartest person that has ever lived. I know that I have very little amounts of innocence left within me, especially when this war erupts, however I do know that I will no longer be hurt through this secret any more. My family has a lot to lose when this war starts, especially the friendship with the family that I am about to oppose. I know that if my family chooses to oppose me in this war, that those people of my family I will no longer see ever again. I will remove myself from those family members because he/she will believe that water is thicker than blood. With an outlook like that, I will disown that family member from being related to myself. It seems harsh to say however it will be necessary due to the sensitivity of this conflict.
War is one of the worst things to see happen in any situation. It is especially bad when the situation doesn't start as a small fight but it starts off as a war. If the conflict is big enough to cause a war at the start, then you know that the situation is bigger than anyone could imagine. I know that I have a lot to learn about life, however life is going to become less hurtful towards me when this war starts. I will end some of the pain & suffering that I have felt for over a decade, and I will be able to begin the healing process where I will not need to hide from it any longer.
I know that I will be losing my best friend in this war, especially where the war is directed at him/her personally. I will be removing a lot of the pain & suffering from myself because I will not need to hide the secret any longer. I also know that I will have a difficult time keeping my work place from finding out about the war that I am about to enter into, however I need to do this war no matter the cost to myself. I have suffered longer than I should have. The healing process has not started because I hid the secret from everyone by going into a depression, that my parents still call just a rut (that lasted over a decade, come one, get real).
It will be seen by many in the community that I just brought "Hell on Earth", when this war starts. I know how badly that this war end up going because I know the people I am having the conflict with. Depending on how much of the family that he/she will involve when the war starts, will show how long the war will last. This is a war that has the ability to end a person's working ability because everyone else will see him/her as a monster. This could cause a person to lose his/her job because no one will want to deal with him/her whatsoever.
I know the things that can happen to a person when something like this is announced in a community because in the past these things have happened to people. I know it sounds harsh to know of people that have faced similar circumstances as mine, however I hid from the problem rather than to face the problem that he/she did in the past. I know that both sides of a conflict like this will suffer. Both sides will be seen to society as a problem, and society will make both sides go through a living hell. This is true because I know of people that went through similar situation that both sides of the conflict are still suffering.
It is sad to know that society will not be able to understand the situation enough to choose a side to support, society will oppose both sides. This is a truth because when situations like this appear; society will punish both sides of the conflict. This is the type of conflict that society hates to see have appear at any time, and society will punish both sides for having the situation happen in the first place. So when a victim goes through hell, society will put both the victim and the attacker through a lot of pain & suffering. Many times the victim and his/her family will suffer more than the attacker because society, many times, will see the victim as the bigger problem.
My war will have a lot of devastation throughout the community, however the devastation cannot be avoided. I know that many will become hurt to know the truth about my past, which will devastate my family and my friend's family almost equally. I also know that there will be a lot of untrue rumors that will be spread throughout the community. The community will always gossip about everything that goes on within the community. The gossip that will come from my situation (war) will be hurtful for both sides and will be devastating to anyone that hears it. I know how the community gossips and I also know that the community can be more hurtful than the society, itself.
This was will be extremely destructive towards everyone connected. Whether it is family connections or friendships, the devastation will be shared. There will be a lot of hatred that will surface during this war. The hatred will be aimed towards my best friend and possibly myself, however it is a hatred that everyone should feel about the situation. I know that many people will hate me because I am the victim, however he/she will hate me because I have decided to come forward with the information that I have been a victim. This hatred will come from the family of my best friend, however he/she will need to hate my best friend more because of the actions that caused me to be a victim. This is an endless web that we are all in, and there is no safe way to do anything any more.
This war is an endless war that I am going to be facing. I know that I will go through a lot of pain & suffering in this war, however it won't be greater than what I have experienced from the past. I will have some of my sanity restored when this war starts. I will have a lot of questions to go through with people, especially my own family, however I will be prepared to answer any question when this war starts. I may need to be locked up for a few days when the war comes because of the mind-frame that I will be in (too fragile/vulnerable) to be around people. I am preparing myself for this, however everything depends on how I will be feeling when the war comes.
Time is the key with this situation, and there will be a lot of problems that will follow in time. I know that many people will see me as the enemy because I do not wish to have criminal charges to be laid upon my best friend. I still have some respect for that family, right now, and do not want to cause any extra pain & suffering to that family. I know that my best friend has done something wrong to me, however I will not cause his/her family go through the pain of the courts. The damage has been done to me already, and doing anything with the courts may cause too much pain for me to go through again.
I don't feel most of my emotions, however I do understand the loyalties that I have with people. I know that my loyalties are what guide my "gut feelings" to be right, however I will not do something that will cause an endless supply of suffering to everyone in the community. I don't have any need to do such a thing because this is not a grudge that is being dealt with; I am doing the right thing. I will not cause any unnecessary pain & suffering to those that are innocents, regardless of the relationship that he/she has with my best friend.
War is one of the worst things to experience, whether it is first hand or not. I will be part of a war that will be endless and unforgiving, however I will do the right thing regardless of the consequences. Time will say how this will go.
It is never good to have a war happen for any reason, however there are times that a war is unavoidable. I have expected a war to happen between my best friend and myself. I expected the war to happen in the area of June or July, however due to the information that I have received today; the war may happen sooner than expected. I haven't been able to build the courage to tell my parents about the war or the reasons behind the war, however now I have been given enough of a push to talk to them.
I have always thought that I was the only one that my best friend did this cruel thing to, however I found out today that I wasn't. I am engaged with anger towards this friend now (soon to be enemy), and a lot of hatred towards myself. These emotions have surfaced because of the "nudge" that I received today. I have been told the type of information that has caused me to blame myself for having to happen. This war will come sooner than expected because of this information.
I have also called a family meeting, for the family that is around, so that we are able to discuss everything openly. This family meeting will have me emit to all the secrets and what the reason is for everything. I am not happy that the meeting is here, however it is necessary for me to understand how much "ammo" that I actually have against my best friend. I will be approaching this person in a diplomatic fashion, but I can't guarantee any emotional outbreaks for me against this person. Depending on how much of my family is involved with this secret and who is involved with any "cover ups", will determine who my attack will be against the most.
There is a lot of self-doubt in my heart about how much good can come from this war. I do not feel that there will be any differences made in our lives, however I do believe that people will pay attention to people more carefully. There are many things about people that are dead giveaways when something is wrong, however many people will overlook those things because he/she doesn't want to see anything bad around him/her. I know this because my mother calls my depression nothing more than a rut. It is time that my mother gets a reality check, and sees that the world is not perfect. The world is nasty and mean to everyone within it. My parents will soon see that there have been things happening under their noses without them realizing that something is wrong.
This war is a devastating war that many friendships will end due to the war. I will be causing many ripples in the area to be sure that the war happens, and the truth is brought out. The friendship with my best friend has been decreasing as the time continues, and now I feel it is time to tell that friend why the friendship is not as strong any more. I will be telling everything during the family meeting tonight, and I will have an additional one with my parents during the weekend. This will be a crushing blow to the family, however it is necessary for them to see the problems before they get out of hand.
I know that the pain & suffering that the family will feel will be too great for many people. I do not look forward into saying what I have to say, but I know that I have to make people understand things before the war happens. I have tried to do everything on my own, however I need to see how much of the family will help in the war. I need to know who is my ally and who is my enemy. By the end of the weekend I will know who of the family will be supporting me and who will choose to fight against me.
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