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ok well heres where you get to dive into my soul..just a lil bit..i hope you enjoy them..well here they are for your reading enjoyment!!!our love is like the willow
the trunk represents all we have been through,strong and rooted,
the branches are the diffrent areas in our life,withstanding
theh limbs are the diffrent things we go through,limber and swaying,but never breaking
the wind represents life as it goes on.sometimes calm,sometimes very stormy and scary,but always continuous..
right now our willow is very young.but with a little time and care it can grow to be the great and mighty tree its suppose to be.
the kind of tree that has a great legacy
the unwanted girl
as a child she was akward and wierd.
rough and tough like the boys always in the mudd,
but the gentleness of a girl with a kitten,
a sick strange child,
always loveing the out of ordinary,
she had a strange dark side that seemed to come out in her cloths and makeup as she grew older,
loving magic and fantasy,
she wrapped herself up in mysteries,
loving elves,unicorns, and wizards she fiddled with magic,
but it didnt seem to satisfy her craving for more,
always watching and reading abomut cats she decided to become that image,
the image of the quiet mysterious and cunning animal that can enchant even the most unreachable person.
the animal that can strike and leave terrible reminders.
the animal that represents love,lust, and glamor
if only she could become this image,
then everyone would fear and love her.
but its impossible for she was the unwanted girl.
the girl that was always in the shadows.
the one noone saw or even took the time to notice
for in everyones else's eyes she was strange ad ugly in this glamorous world.
but wait she realized i can do damage while in the shadows.for even the might cat knows that.
so mabye she'll make her revenge by not saying a thing.
instead leave a scar that will remind them of their awful mistake
now she just had to think of how to do it.
but just remember this cat always gets what she wants and what she wants is love.
so gard your hearts because she is as cunning as the cat and she'll make sure your heart is broken in order to feed her hunger,
so dont forget her eyes are watching for her next victem
Teenager (lyrics)
confused,
exstatic,
unrealistic,
money hungry,
(2x) this is how the world views a teenager
lazy,
immature,
selfish,
&
undependable,
(1x) this is how the world views a teenager
but we are really,really just lost,
lost among a sea of confusing people,
people who think they know what makes us tick,
when they really know nothing.
try to get into my mind,
then see what i see,
look at the world through my eyes,
happy,
careing,
shy,
&
fearful,
this is really an earful,
yes i know there are bad teenagers but only a few,
most of us are just trying to please you,
scary,
unpredictable,
loveless,
&
broke,
this is our greatest fear,
cruel,
judgemental,
negative,
&
rude,
this is how a teenager views you,
change your view of me,
then ill change my view of you,
because in all fact you were a teenager too,
and people hated you!
The Quest For Love
I fell in love only to lose my heart to a man who loves noone but himself.
as i sat in my room looking out the clear glass I longed to find another
lookin and searching I found noone to love as deeply as I loved him.
I thought to myself how hard can it be.But the window in my mind is fogged over with only a singel sillouette.
who is it,is it the man im in love with or another I have not met yet?
Oh alas,answers to my questions have not been found.
if only I knew who it was,I could move on.
Oh well I'll just search and wonder until I find the answer.Oh how lonely this journey is.
Home(lyrics)
15yrs old,alone in a new place,
alone no familiar places or people,
friends left behind,
only memories remain.
akwardness and out cast in a new school,
walking in a bubble of loneliness,
teenage scrutney,
unpacking my life ad closing my eyes i cry,
i wanna go home,
i wanna go home,
if only i could click my heels and go home,
awakening,
new friends,
feeling some sort of place,
a new love,
giddy as a child,
moment of true happiness in the others eyes,
time of love and peace,
but soon to end,
i wanna go home,
i wanna go home,
if only i could click my heels and go home
time goes on,love comes and goes,
the kiss's oh the kiss's
my heart was given away but not appriciated,
on and off again fro 3 damn years,
what the hell is wrong with me?
engagment and marriage in our future,
happy lovely kind of life,
a lovely happy kind of life,
then you go away and come back,
to happy to be true,just to happy to eb true,
back in a bubble,im back in a bubble,
im scared,
i wanna go home,
i wanna go home,
if only i could click my heels and go home,
then a call...im now your ex,
learning you never ment what you said,
and all i can say is,
i wanna go home,
i wanna go home,
if only i could click my heels and go home,
but...
where is home?