12.14.98
For once in my life, I was able to look at my "soon to be ex-husband" with a little bit of respect. After all the pain and suffering I endured in the last 13 years of my marriage, he finally sat down and told me how sorry he was. Tears rolled down his cheeks. I knew at that moment how sincere he was. It's hard to understand why I've forgiven him so easily for all the abuse I went through with him. I don't think I will ever understand it. I know deep down inside he just wants to feel love ... from himself. I lay so much guilt on myself for not being able to help him. I just hope one day soon he can look in the eyes of his reflection in the mirror and say "I love you"