10.05.98
Murder of a Heart?
How do you tell someone you deeply care for, that you have to either put your relationship on hold or better yet, let it dissolve, so you can play catch up to your heart and mind? Not an easy or painless task. If Hell is anywhere close to the amount of pain that comes from this .. I don't want to know Hell. I think I'm living close enough to it already. The enormous amount of guilt that lies on me is unbearable - so much so, that I will continue to suffer long after the "bad deed" is done. It won't be easy. Not one bit. But, this, I must do in order to continue breathing.