10.06.98
Pain SuX
How much pain could I ever endure? The amount that I've had in the last few days is too much for any one person in a lifetime. Causing so much grief and hurting others is not on the top of my personal favorites list. It had to be done and it was done. A very hard thing to do and I hope to never experience it again. Seeing so much pain in one's eyes - it's just not worth it. I'd rather be alone in this world than have to put someone through that again. So many kind and reassuring words. So much of the "other" side of him I had never seen before. How can a man be so hurt yet so understanding and patient with what I was going through? Decision made: TRY to work on the relationship. I just don't know if I can hang in there.