A Walk To Forget
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The people around me
I love my mom and I'm sorry
Because I know this isn't the way she wanted her life to be
An alcoholic husband who left her alone
With 5 children living in poverty
I just hope some day
I can give her something that shows her how much she
Has been a positive influence in my life
And how much she means to me
But besides her and a few,
Most the people in my life have been a burden that nobody needs
A worthless father, a brother
That followed his lead,
An uncles who liked little boys
And refused to get the help,
A sister who hated life
So she killed herself,
Family that don't recognize us,
That have never met me,
All because my disabled mother of 5
Can barely afford poverty
Then I go to a Jesuit University
That takes advantage of me
Classmates of the middle class
None from the lower class like me
I stick out there because
I drive an 85 Mercury marquise
I stick out there because
I look the part of my poverty
So I don't fit in with them
How I don't fit in with anybody.
All because they cant see
The real me
Criticized by people
Who would never understand
Lied about by a bitch
Who looks like a man
Spit on by assholes
And called dirty
Because they can't see
The real me
I have a bitch of a girlfriend
Who was hurt before
So in response she turned
Into a cheating whore
Sleep with 10 guys,
None she could ever adore
Hurt before
So she must hurt me more.
Then I'm criticized
By most her family
Looked down on and called
Scumbag, dirty
But they just like me
Live in poverty
Which they can't see
Only recognize the poor in me
They live in the trailer park,
Not a graduate in the whole family
But they have the nerve
To call me dirty
Then I get hit on by the uncle,
Who is gay,
And am called a scumbag by the sister
Because I live in the PJ's,
Laughed at by a fat pig
Who still lives with her mother,
None able to hold a job;
Not her, her mom or her brother.
Criticized by people
Who would never understand
Lied about by a bitch
Who looks like a man
Because I don't like her
And I never could
Just how no one likes her
And ever would
Then I have to deal with friends
That were never ever friends
As soon as they know where I lived
That's where the friendship ends
Stood around idly
While they made fun of the so-called dirty.
Stood quietly
While they made fun of the people that lived near me.
Then there's the bitches
With their stares
Unaware how of bad
They look in what they wear
Now they walk around
With an heir of superiority
Because one lying bastard
Falsely told them that they were pretty
So they won't look at me
As their clothes turn dark
Sweat pouring from them
Clinging their clothes, revealing stretch marks
Then, in a superior manner,
They think I care
Because in disgust and astonishment
I can't help but stare
Criticized by people
Who would never understand
Lied about by a bitch
Who looks like a man
Attacked by people
Who pretend to be my friend
Insulted once again
By my ex girlfriend
Here, I'll give the attention to you that I never wanted from you
My dad, an alcoholic,
Who drank away his life,
Neglected his children,
Cheated on his wife,
Couldn't tell the truth,
Unable to recognize a lie,
The best day of my life,
Was the day he died,
I didn't shed a tear,
it was like he was never here,
Because in reality,
He was never here
But reborn in his son,
Worse than he
All his negativity
Displayed to a greater degree
What kind of a brother
Would steal from his mother,
Take her precious things,
Steal her gold rings,
Jewelry she will be paying for
For the rest of her life,
Take them and her money
To give them to your whore of a wife
She forgave you for that
And she seemed to forget,
But you couldn't forget,
You couldn't quit.
Most of my life
My few belongings taken from me,
All my video games, all my money,
Saved up for a year, taken in a day
Everything I ever got for Christmas
Was taken away,
Homeless because you are
Terminally lazy,
So mom opened the door again
For you to steal from me
You think that money
That you took
Was going to be used for my prom ,
For my year book.
For my graduation,
For my class ring,
Because of you
I had to give up everything.
No celebrations,
Nothing to celebrate for,
The only positive out of this
Is you not being my brother anymore
By the way, do you know who is the one
That fathered your son
I know who isn't,
You were never a father to it,
Neither her nor you
Ever took care of the two,
Abandon them with her grams so you two can do whatever you fucking want to do
Criticized by people
Who would never understand
Lied about by a bitch
Who looks like a man
Dealt with people
And their insecurity
But let that insecurity
To corrupt me
If you don't like me
Tell me you don't like me,
Don't talk behind me
Like a little pussy,
Spread lies about me
How you had a chance with me
But turned down me,
It hurt to look at you,
Your are so fucking ugly!
I was so embarrassed for anyone to see me
With someone so ugly,
Afraid to be thought of as your boyfriend
And not just your friend
But that wasn't good enough for you,
You didn't care who you lied to
About what me and you would do.
You make me sick,
You never touched my dick,
No wonder I never took you to the park,
The park wasn't dark,
Go with you to see a movie
So no one would see me
You bitch of a man,
Did you say those things you said
Because when you would flash me
I would turn my head
Because looking at you
Was not like looking at my mother,
Looking at you
Was like looking at my brother.
Or was it because I denied your friends lies
No matter how much you wanted to,
I would never let you think
They were true.
Or because I ignored your feelings for me
Or because I refused to take your virginity
But I guess I don't care because you are now dead in my head.
You fat bitch,
You mountain of chubby
How dare you pretend
Your above me
And those small shirts
That tightly cut
Only show off
Your fat ass gut
Those attempts to show off
Your flat butt
Only make you look
Like a stupid slut.
Let your back breathe
You fat pig
Fuck the extra large
Opt for the super big
And no not fries,
Skip the super size,
Do you really think
You attract guy?
From your flabby tri's
To your thunder thighs
The image of your body
Makes me cry
And it was a lie
With all those things I said,
I guess I had
A fat fetish in bed
Criticized by people
Who would never understand
Lied about by a bitch
Who looks like a man
Spent most my life
Getting spit on by you
And now you wonder
Why I
Feel the way I do
What the fuck you looking at,
I'm straight,
You queer and fat
Don't talk to me,
Don't even try,
I'm as homophobic
As the next guy
I'm just letting you know
I'm not anti all homo,
But I am anti homo
That hit on me though
Don't ever make a comment
On what I wear
You can charge me with a hate crime
Because right now I don't care
And fuck my family,
You're not family to me,
I have enough family
That showed their dependability,
Small in number
But big to me
Criticized by people
Who would never understand
Lied about by a bitch
Who looks like a man
Attacked by people
Who pretend to be my friend
Insulted once again
By my ex girlfriend
Nothing bad to say about you
The only girl that I love,
I guess the shit I do to you
Is more than enough