Well,
it goes without saying that I wasn't born CRISSY. In fact, Crissy came
about when I was, oh, about seven years old and I found I had this endless
fascination for the contents of my mother's wardrobe and for the wonderful
powders, lipsticks, eye shadows, mascaras, etc on her dressing table! I
must have looked a sight! Dressed in clothing at least 10 times too big
for me and wearing mom's make-up and to all intents and purposes, looking
like a pocket sized clown! But you want to know something? Even though
the girlie things were not mine, I was HAPPY!
IN THE FAIRLY RECENT PAST
There are memories too painful
to relate here in any detail. It was a time when school life was utterly
miserable; when family intolerance became unbearable; and abusive relationships
and the like seemed to be an acceptable way to live ... but I have taken
strength from these and I think have grown into a better person, not because
of the memories, but because of how I dealt with them at the time. This
was a time of great uncertainty: was Crissy to be or was she to be supressed?
These were times when Crissy was tearfully purged, and the closet and dressing
table denied that Crissy had ever existed. These were times when sometimes
I wanted to just turn my back on it all, and run away, as far as I could!
But, thankfully, I didn't. However, for quite a long period my life as
Crissy was desolate ... desperately desolate ... *Sigh*
As things stand right now life is going along quite well! Living with my
sister, Stella, my life as Crissy has been made considerably easier by
her support. I work after normal hours as Crissy in Stella?s salon, learning
ladies hairdressing so that I can one day transition at work, in the salon,
in an atmosphere perhaps a little more accepting than would otherwise be
the case.
Constellations
Hair Creations is THE place to visit if you would like to see
me modelling different hairstyles. ~~~~
I have a set plan to achieve
my transitioning goals and so far I am pretty much on track. I just want
to get on with my life, to be the best person I can, whether it is as Crissy
or whoever, and simply to be a good citizen. Right now, I think I can say
with some certainty I am as HAPPY as I was when I was that seven year old
playing dress-up ..... at least these days when I look in my closet and
on my dressing table, the lovely things I see there are MINE, and that's
the way it will stay!
I am presently working on
a biographical page containing a LOT more detail ...o, watch this space!
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